Sunday, April 22, 2007

Wk 16

15th Apr, Sun 8pm.
The hunt for a suitable swimsuit for sis began. Bishan > ToaPayoh > Orchard-a failed attempt. Ended up a shopping trip! With ALDO having a sale on a pair of red loafers i used to like, the temptation was sensational, minus the fact that there wasnt stock for size 5. Ended up buying elder bro a discounted LeCoqSportif tee and an electric blue Nike polo for lil sis. Plus an indentical etched white Nike polo for myself-just for fun larh.
16th Apr, Mon
Complete lil sis's Aesthetic Project. It stimulated my creative juices by using materials(junk) found around home! Dexterous me crafted her a rose out of galvanized wire! :)
17th Apr, Tues
Ric and Kel joined sis & i for dinner at self acclaimed town area neighbourhood, Bendemeer Market & Food Centre. Popped in my earthquake shaken home (measuring 6.2 on the Richter's scale for areas other than my room) for UnoStacko and DaiDee 101. Dental student CWK didnt prove nimbly when the blocks tumbled helplessly before the next opponent had the chance to save her from embarrassment. And to prove that the above statement is not defamatory, here goes.
Ric and lil sis gave a DaiDee 101 for Dummies-cwk and gpy. cwk's surname has since been changed to dwk-Dolt w** k**** after committing serious feeble minded moves. Eg: While playing pairs, she threw cards 7 & 8 and insisted, "thats a pair!". (It took 3 of us 68 seconds to convince her of her mistake) and throwing biggest card (2) when she has other single cards to clear, etc, just to name afew. To everyone's surprise, dodo dwk won the 1st round! (Say she was faking it all? Food for thought!) While coach ric and lil sis were imparting all they knew, i won the subsequent rounds! Pro Ric lost once and got spared from a grilling 'tell the truth' session. Oh i mean, poor ric. Lol. That night was full of laughs and repartee between cwk and i.
18th Apr, Wed
Attachment today was about 1)HR meeting that was a total turn off with most of my queries answered with 'these events are judged on case to case basis'. And the greatest revelation: every issue (whether monetary or annual leave) is prorated. Say.. The 'payback' amt for terminating a contract before full course. And probably leaving a bad impression for subconciously, vigourously shaking my legs and asking questions bout breaking the bond.
2) Class and main supervisors' phototaking session at HPB with frolicsome O(who never fail to say 'raining arhh'), the stand in 'photographer', taking substandard shots. And YKC who got caught by HCY and i for fetching his gold framed studious-looking-on-him glasses before the shoot. Not forgetting individual shots with supervisors and the various cliques. When the zygomatic major muscle contracts together with the orbicularis oculi, stunning shots of memories are captured! (No doubt i got an A for Head&Neck Anatomy. Haha! Credits to Yahoo, actually.) Cant wait for them to be compiled and uploaded! Well, not complete without 1 taken with Sunshine LSD larhhh. We'll soon be collegues lehhh. Cant put my professionalism at stake righttt.
HPB DT Manager MT's Polar Curry Puff treat to all. Sweetest tank-euuu!
Went over to a friend's place for dinner and a DVD session. In a mad rush after work plus project discussion, ordered dinner from a small scale (less than 15 dishes) tze-char store and informed that i'll be back 20mins later before heading home for a bath. i was peeved when told that my order wasnt forgotten nor prepared. in addition to poor customer service, the boss continued whipping dishes for dine-in customers while his assistant dilly-dallied in preparing my order. being the ever civilized singaporean let out a "tsk", frowned and patiently waited for dinner while making an apology phone call for rubber time. god knows why didnt i cancel the order and head for another around the corner. American Wedding sent both of us rolling on the sofa bed overlaid with rouge linen.

20th Apr, Fri
Lil sis settled on a black Speedo swimsuit. It was a steal at $39.90! :D Headed for a 20lap swim in the evening. 16th lap got dull and hence challenged myself, frog style, by pitting against 3 boys in the 17-19yr old range. I started after the second completed 1/4 lap and managed to catch up with 2. Whoopee! It sure felt great. :X

21st Apr, Sat
The day ended with a quiz lil sis's googled. Not one who's religiously into personality tests but here're the results:

Evaluation...
You have scored -1 points, out of a range from -50 (100% Gothic) to 55 (100% Punk).

Goth-Punk. You have an even balance of goth and punk characteristics. You hopefully have the good qualities of each, rather than the bad side of each.
Photo justified:

22nd Apr, Sun
Its 4.15am and im wide awake. Please call me up at 9am for work. xoxo.

Monday, April 16, 2007

Joke of the day

I feel like having fries right now.
Yas: Me, chicken.
Im a whore. (Stretches out my hand)
Yas: You’re not a chicken. You’re a chick.

Why does fries taste so good?

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Sonic clinician, 251

And so, tresses pinned up in a sexy bun, ultra back revealing (ugly faint tan lines!!) yet fully clothed front top with tweed shorts, arms akimbo infront of the mirror, strutted off to work by 7.36am. :)
The usual day at work went by. And at 4.30pm, i wasnt expecting any more patients and started packing up. Surprise surprise, a folder under PersonalQueue came in at 4.50pm! The ever bubbly J and choleric me(thanks to hormonal changes of mother nature) were silencing effing the STCS young lady. Did an E&D, scaling polishing and fissure sealant on the #46. By 5.12pm, she was dismissed. Thought that was a sonic experience. Anyhow, i wasnt able to catch a glimpse of my visual treat. How am i to survive Thurs Fri Sat Sun with THAT form of human escape. I'll ride out the weekends with occassional gawkings at mum's oh-so-well-painted Fu Lu Shou figurines. **Bronx cheer*

P, E, C and i transformed into pulchritudinous tootsies heading for dinner at O'Brien's. I had Turkey and Brile sandwhich ($7.60) which was AWFUL(ly) yummy, served with heavily salted potato chips before heading for the prickly hedgehog-like outline landmark of Spore, The Esplanade. The evening was overflowing with uproared merrymaking. (Think about: Being lesbian for 10mins, practising overly amiable greetings and excruciating hand shakes with L snarling in the background- all so in a failed attempt to give D, P's male friend a mini culture shock.) Nonetheless, there were times i felt a lil out of place when i attempted blabbering junk, offbeat jokes to PEC and was totally ignored for Christ's sake. Laughs out loud!

251 clearly indicate the changing trends of performing arts in Spore. Side track: Today's access to adult content, sexual/violent scenes from the media, etc might dilute the intense conservative Asian culture. And talk bout Birds and Bees, whats the appropriate age to do so?
Anyhows,
Its applausable how main cast, Cynthia Lee, was able to transmute frm an apt PSLE student to a delicious scarlet. However, thought that the tit showing scene wasnt felicitous. Its amazing how the transitions took place, how the audiences were engaged. And how music really changes the mood.
The audiences were tickled at how certain political affairs of sg were raised. (Shamelessly admit i was laughing away).
The 2 ang-mohs beside me got lost in an entire scene of dialect. (Thankfully they didnt turn to me for translation. I was laughing my toes off)
Also got a funny glare from C when i was giggling to myself when they brought "cunnilingus" into speech. She'd probably laugh her orthodontically aligned teeth off too, if she knows the defination. :P
Director Loretta Chen was present that night. :)
Kudos to productions of sg.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Grey description of NachoLibre and lil sis' wordplay

We were busy.
We had time to buzz.

Lost a person i was comfortable with.
A person you can fart in front of.
A person you can laugh out loud with.
A person you can hug and not feel a tinge at your heartstrings.

He's clowny personified.
But now we're diversified.

Our time is distributed to other attributes.
And who's to say what exactly transpired
And whatever eventuates,
It was 'shamelessness' that brought us together. :)


"Sister baristas better coffee with butter fingers"

Sending out trucks of xoxo for a great day ahead!

Monday, April 09, 2007

Strangers

I visited you for a while
Maybe I shouldn't have texted but someone had to be the first to break
Has your opinion changed?

We can head for the usual
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend.

'cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
We don't talk much anymore
I keep running from the pain
You don't know the strain
Till one day, when you feel the sprain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

Everyone's got an agenda
Don't stop keep that chin up; you'll be alright

What the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never had a name?

Conk-ing Out

Petered out after work on Sunday.

Dead. Monday. Have yet to hunt down my Basic First Aid notes, dont mention reading an ounce.
And Clinic Management Assignment: Started on a paltry paragraph. Dead. Monday.

7-11 Convenience Store stocks Starbucks Coffee. Mocha: a disappointment. Nothing comparable to Iced Cafe Mocha w Skimmed Milk.

Thursday, April 05, 2007

NDC Oral Viva

AfuckadaOooLaaLaa
Dental Hygiene's oral viva was hunky-dory. Tackled the bombardments satisfactorily. Half the time, i was tittering(literally).

HN's usual unfathomable questions included one on the MICROSCOPIC ANATOMY of the periodontium. Caught unaware of whats under the junctional epithelium. (Indeed ANYTHING under the Dental Hygiene scope. Damn) After prompting by MO the living-doll, i muttered bull's eye answer; CONNECTIVE TISSUE. They chuckled. And i went, 'magic word'. And they chortled.

25% MO 35% HN, with KCG dominating the 25mins grilling session by 45%.

Quite a light hearted session, lah.

Cheers to DT04! Great success, Hoo Haa! (Thumb up, beats chest)

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Guffaws

"Bang, tolong diam"
Brother: Huh? (And carried on with his nettlesome speech)
"Terima kasih,
Adik ai tak cek"

Haha! Translated:

"Big brother, please shut your buccal cavity" (Malay)
Brother: Huh? (Expression)
"Thank you, (Malay)
Lil sis, me, (Malay) wanna do some studying (Dialect)

Lil sis and I convulsed with laughter.

Bed time. 2am.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Would..

like to drive aimlessly, reflecting on where the winds will take me, what it is will break me.
Deep down, i yearn to pack a suitcase for a place none of us has been, a place that has to be believed-to be seen. Let me fly away, a singing bird in an open cage who only flies for freedom.

"And if your glass heart should crack
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong"

Monday, April 02, 2007

Cyclics

After work, I wanted to change my life and start working on burning those thick love-handles and thunderous thighs that plague me for a big part of my life. By the time I hit home, the temptation to "i'll do it tomorrow" and while the night away in sendentary activities kicked in. Fatigue got the better of me.
"I feel that many of those skinny girls who whine about being fat are just like me, forever in the 40-something-kg range." was what i bloviated on 9.2.05. No longer holds true.

Whenever I entertain the mere thought of asking someone(s) out, a little voice in my head and the ass hugging black pants would remind me that I am less than worthy of dating the lad of the moment.

As the evening wore on, I stumbled on the biggest revelation of my current life, im so fearful of rejection that i've never given myself half a semblance of a chance to fight for Sunshine. (How bout catching "251" on the first date? If u ever make the 1st move, i'd promise u an evening of banter and laughter.)
And there is this undeniabe slight tugging at my heartstrings when we(obviously not the mentioned abv) text. Maybe Its not that i dont dare to, its more of the fear of being judged.
Cause obviously, they're out of my league.

And those chronic insecurities bout the future stems from my environment; how i was brought up, what i went thru, etc.
The scary thought that crossed my mind was how easy it can be for me to just go with the flow and then wake up suddenly one day at 30 wondering why I have let success slip through the palms of my hands. As discussed at clinics, where's the u-turn in our lives?

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Way Back Into Love

Way Back Into Love by Hugh Grant and Haley Bennett
Soundtrack of Music and Lyrics Movie by Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore

This song..
Least describes me. I'm strong and I've moved on.

Dating's Rule Of Thumb

Was talking to P bout the status of being single and going on no-strings-attached dating.

My humble view is summarised:
To put in your best effort, holding on to the idea that although transient, the moments spent together has been a thrilling journey.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

in-VAY

A dinner to Lavender Food Street last night after work brought back regrets of a wrong decision i made 3years ago. And worst, whatever got into me, to sign on a bond 2 years back.
Do you know, the bond for Dentistry is such that u pay for which u have not served. (and my mum and sis let out a "fking hell" on that). And the dental nurses are paid while they study, with no strings attached! Be it bond for the dentists or the dental nurses, the all new dental hygienists and therapists loose out big time.
**Shoot me, somebody.

What have i been doing these 3yrs of my life? Whoever takes 3years to learn how to do scaling polishing root planing, extraction(w/o elevators), fillings(kinda exclude asthetic dentistry), infiltration. Yes, talk bout holistic education, learning BUSINESS MARKETING and taking 3 years of sociology and psychology, excluding modules on prosthetic, aesthetic dentistry, implantology, etc. Hence the need to read up alot more, work, ask questions that seem silly to clinic supervisors, etc.

No point inveighing cause nothing's gonna change. And if u talk bout writing to Straits Times Forum or something along that line, no point. We wrote to feedback.gov.sg in year1(how audacious!) bout i-forgot-what and all has remained status quo, as far as we see it. Doesnt the 'bill' call for exigency accelerated?

This post isnt elaborate. Cant vomit 3yrs of thoughts into a single entry rightttt.

I've wallowed in self pity the past 10mins. Its time to give myself a kick in the ass and start on case report for MT due 2/4/07.

This entry and its comments is solely the thought of a human whose future is at stake. Read at your discretion. The writer shall not be liable for any hurts caused in the event.
Haha.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Asylum of the Saint. (Read: Insane)

YFT wishes to nominate my classmate+dental proj grp member+ex clinical partner+No. 1=Elder AAB as Saint for she has a heart for multicellular organisms of the kingdom Animalia, differing from plants in certain typical characteristics such as capacity for locomotion, nonphotosynthetic metabolism, pronounced response to stimuli, restricted growth, and fixed bodily structure(Read:Animals) and wouldnt even lay a finger on small arthropod animals of the class Insecta, having an adult stage characterized by three pairs of legs and a body segmented into head, thorax, and abdomen and usually having two pairs of wings(Read:Insects).
Whilst YFT was confessing bout his appalling childhood experiences (eating ants off the walls), AAB wouldnt even pinch an ant. Anyhows, YFT justified his actions with this; "Ants are good for the bodily system, you know".
Neither would you catch AAB smacking on a mosquito feasting on her sweet blood. (And we went "Oh poor thing, suck more, send invites to all your female friends!") Waggish humour only those present can comprehend.
She'd probably shriek and faint if she witness the swatting of cockroaches.

Why didnt cockroaches perish together with dinosaurs. They are such disgusting creatures. And should be wiped out of mother earth for the sake of all.

One kudo to AWW upon the long awaited Cl3 Driving Lic.

A dialect adjective for clinics today: Eng eng cheng cheng.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Its a very hard undertaking to please all.

Accept the fact, let out a loud sigh, curse for a day and move on. You've made the choices and done actions that work best for you. You know you cant please everyone, and that's fine. :) Let me hear your rants, followed by a deafening laugh and that silly " ^_^ + ;P " expression.

Camry experience

After church, lil sis and i met Dad and i drove them to Blk 680 AMK Ave 5 for western food at Botak Jones. We had salmon, steak(medium) and lamb chop(medium). Salmon($12)-damn juicy. Steak(200gm $14) and lamb(200gm $11) were done to purrrfection, pretty-ly pink and tender. They claim to have the steak tenderized via non-chemical means. Peppery brown sauce was served on a seperate saucer, allowing carnivorous me to sink my teeth into BEEF. It was so palatable without the sauce that i almost went "mooo". White sauce trickled down the lamb chop that was seasoned with rosemary. Each set was served with generous amounts of lettuce, tomato, colesaw and crinkle cut fries seasoned with spice. The average wait time's bout 45-60mins, but the first set came at bout 25mins later. All of us were feasting after 35mins.
After which we went for a spin in Uncle Patrick's Toyota Camry. He's out of town on a business trip and has given me full permission to use his car. ;) But sorry folks, not confident on parking, still an apprentice under Dad's control.

First destination was Tanglin village at Dempsey Road as i wanted to check Oosh out. Unfortunately it was raining and we didnt get out of the car. Afterwhich, we headed for Mount Faber's Jewel Box. Heading home on the expressway, it poured cats and dogs. I could barely see the left rear view mirror and needed extra eyes during lane change. Man, it sure is dangerous driving in bad weather conditions.

Had to take a couple of evasive actions, all of which are caused by taxis. Some were high beamed, some were cursed by Dad, none were horned. Key lesson for today: Remember to check for safety and blindspots before taking evasive actions.

The Camry's quite cool, when compared to the Altis and Lancer! Its seats are adjusted electronically. The seats can not only be brought forward or backward, its height and incline is adjustable too! Imagine incorporating a back massage. Fabulous. Its handbrake is located mesial to the footbrake and its interior is spacious.

Kel, sorry for not replying to your sms. I got a good tongue lashing for sms-ing at the traffic light. Phone was confiscated for a moment. And by the time i laid my hands on it, i rather let u sleep soundly. :)

Cheers and x o to D.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Get Voguish; Celebrate Curls! And Curse Not.

3+pm, 23/3/07
Was contemplating between going to a home salon or an Orchard Road salon for hair rebonding. Home salon > more expensive, somehow. Settled for all time trustworthy home salon, Audrey@NEL8, despite multiple persuassion from Ping.
Upon learning that i like my hair's natural waves when towel dried, Audrey immediately did a wash and applied STYLIUM Soft Airmousse. Its effect was jaw dropping. Never knew i had such wavy hair that could stay in place (hair products arent created for no apparant reason, silly me!)!! Aud's advise was to leave my crowning glory as it is, as i've gotta have it tied up 80% of the time. Left me for another customer, giving me time to reconsider sleek, accident causing hair under deleterious influences of rebonding chemicals. In that iffy situation, i weighed the pros and cons, finally decided to rebond the frame defining fringe ($50). *Celebrate curls!!! She gave me a crash course on hairstyle maintainence, without pushing any hair products. Merely said, take the chemical and ........... .
She's definately not totally after my money. She could had made $180, yet advised me to go back to her when i cant live any longer with frizzy fringe. But i desperately needed chichi looking fringe la. Gets irritating when im running late and have yet to ∫blow the dripping∫ fringe (no pun intended). ;)
Requested the purchase of a leave in moisturizer and airmousse upon payment. Amounted to $104. The products should last me 6months, taking into consideration that i go to work with out-of-bed,just-tie-it-up-la hair. :P

Honestly, felt chic for a moment. =X

∫Smirks irks old man
This old man placed his 'barang' on the seat beside him in the train. And it seems least considerate as there were folks gripping tightly onto the railings. Stood infront of the barang's seat, tapped him on the shoulder and gave a smile, expressing 'excuse me' in the most polite manner. Ignored me and shut his eyes. This time, i tapped and gave a loud "excuse me, Sir." Irritated but obediently placed his bag under the seat. ^^
Propped my butt down after offering the seat to an Indian lady. I sensed something was amiss when i saw him(via reflection) glance at me. Held my Frietag Donna in my bosoms, right hand placed strategically on the mid of my tote, such that if i see the slightest nonsensical i-wanna-brush-you initiation, it'll hit hard(thanks to books, hair products, >750ml Nalgene water bottle) on his forearm. Cheers to woman's intuition, he attempted to brush but was disappointed. Senior Prurient let out a loud "tsk, your bag la!" I smirked and sarcastically remarked "Ops sorry!" (Dhoby Gaut - Lil India Station)
Destination: Farrer Park (After Lil India)
I stood up, and i guess he couldnt take his gaze(read:stare) off a pulchritude. I smiled and headed for the exit. Just before stepping out of the train, i paused, turned back and flashed my pearlie whites again. As i headed to the nearest escalator, he turned back to my direction and started cursing. Too bad i cant lip read at that speed he was speaking. I couldnt help but graciously beamed.
Ops. It kinda slipped my mind that this entire 3min incident be witnessed by commuters.
Im a woman, hear me roar.

1020pm, 23/3/07
First drive upon obtaining class3 license!
Being a dainty eater, i drove dad n lil sis to Changi Point for Tekong Satay. :) Sinfully yummlicious. Shared a medium plate of hor fun and 'har gow'. Headed to Siglap as i wanted to catch that "chill, weekends are here mood" before hitting the expressway for home.
Its definately easier driving an automatic transmission vehicle. But far too unvaried-boring.
Initally, it was difficult keeping in lane, but got used to the Toyota Altis after awhile.
Would seriously consider getting a manual car over an auto transmission. (if im still in touch with manuals lahhh)
Dad said im a dangerous driver. But hey! It isnt my fault when i accelerated and overtake right after passing the vehicle! You gave instructions w/o ample notice man!!! Ok la..Angelic reflections: Im a P plate and should just proceed to the next exit, loop around and get lost, instead of putting others in danger rightttttt.
He too, brought me to narrow winding roads for practice. (Hey papa, my test route was SOMETHING like that lah)

Long overdue bonding session with Fuglians on 30th April 07.

Friday, March 23, 2007

Driving & Civic Education

21/3/07.
Passed driving.

Worked for 15 hours straight (Attachment, driving, work) and a splitting headache followed. Gritttt my teeth and stayed till 2.45am doing NDC's case presentation competency, filling in the dental charts of my study subect and tie up loose strings. Amounts to 20hours of non stop work! *Brain fagged.

Traffic Police Test incident report:
1) Entered the balloting room after it has started! Embarrassment +++!!!
2) While the greetings of others were "Good afternoon, Sir," Im not sure what made me go "Hello!" in that unusually peppy tone.
3) Sauntered to the Black Mitsubishi Lancer with instructor following behind (Took occassional glances using glass reflections) upon reaching, took my time placing coins ($4.90 worth, thanks to the use of a payable public toilet) into my purse and had a sip of water. Act like i was adjusting mirrors, seat, blah, not forgetting a kooky look checking blindspots and mirrors.
4) Circuit - phenomenal, zero mistakes, unlike 20th March- 2nd night session, went circuit, knocked down 1 pole(first time!), mount kerb(2nd time), had to reverse manovuer in S course, stalled on slope - Diasterous. Uncle Philip: You going for war tomorrow leh!)
5) Stalled once when exiting KampongUbiDrivingCentre. Thanks to a P Plate Black Mazda 3 which dashed out, giving me a lil shock. Hurry clutched in and restart, act zai and look silly checking checking checking i-dont-know-what.
6) Fear gripped me, suddenly. Turned the radio's vol up at red light. (Uncle Philip's comments: First time in history this happened. Dare devil.)
7) On minor road, need to turn left to major road. Left lane's que was damn long, checked and wanted to head for the right lane when he again said LEFT! Realised im taking a TEST and am supposed to be a goody-goody. Checked and braked and turned left. Cost: 8demerit points for taking evasive actions.
8) Fail to give signal and slow down during lane sharing. Cost: 4demerit points
9) Occassional failure to check blind spots. Cost: 4demerit points
10) Back in evaluation room, "Your driving is gooo, no, ok." And all that nagging bout signalling, blind spots, slowing down..
Upon ticking PASSED, i was GLEAMED, and stood up almost IMMEDIATELY. "I pass you, you very happy huh?" I went," Ya, happy, very happy" And my butt was down the next second. IC & Test paper returned. Had to wait to watch a video, took photograph and la kopi with Uncle Philip and his probably aphrodisiac friend. We joked, teased, praise each other and laughed out LOUD.
11) SMSed while 'watching' the video, processed the application form and made a new friend, WanTing.

xxx scored 26points on draft paper, but demerited 18 on paper. Justice undone! Is it the hot pants or blackcurrent hair? Either one.

Ecstasy of passing was short lived. 45mins?

Dad drove me to work.
1 high vac went missing that night and poor Peg. had to dig the trash. :(

Dad was juiced up. He wanted me to drive him and lil sis for supper! Rejected the kind offer, thanks to judgement impairing misery in the head. At supper, he bought $30 worth of 4D tickets-something i never knew he did. Is it habitual or in the name of helping the handicapped?

Thursday, 22/3/07
TSK - initials of a realllly sociable patient. While waiting for KCG(check SRP), we exchanged views about members of the society, how ugly Singaporeans get, past experiences, politics, and a hell lot more. She just came back from Penang and bought us mangoes and sweet-sour-preserved-lime. Striked upon me once again, that it really is the personal touch clinicians have with clients that motivate them to continue treatment with you. You need not be the brightest crayon in the box to make it in the real world. Fundamentally voices down to communication. Not forgetting responsibility, which basically means Response Ability.

And it really makes me ponder, how many folks thank the cleaners at the hawker centres verbally? Or even flash a warm smile for helping clear the mess in front of them. Has everyone ever imagined what it'll be without these folks who clears after you? Have you ever smiled/greet the toilet cleaners in the morning or asked if they've had their meals?
A beer-bellied balding man irked Kel Carmen and me on Wed. While the cleaner was a step away, he conveniently swept a piece of tissue onto the floor. And pointed his stubby index finger to the table, 'signalling' her to clean it. Obliged to pick it up, wiped the table after. Confession: I was cursing him like i never did in my entire 20years. No 19years. Next, he asked his FEMALE collegue to down the oscillating speed of the wall fan (the switch was so high up i could see her granny undies when she stretched in a failed attempt to reach). And went on complaining bout the fan while fixing that few strands of hair(exaggerating). And came the food, he was whining bout how sub-standard it was. Come on, you want clean chairs and tables, cool temperature, gourmet food and pretty ladies, pay the 10% service charge and go ahead with fine dine and wine. When you're in Rome, act like the Romans do!

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Respect of spatiality

The respect of spatiality and its horrendous results. It'd had been less awkard if i knew you better, or if u arent hard of hearing. Ear syringing might just be the solution.
Vaguely recall what i said / did in THAT sticky wicket, just bewildered by the amount of 'courage' i gathered.
And im seriously wondering, what my hair was like at the pantry.

To a..
1) Stranger/Acquaintance: There'e thread on your pants.
2) Friend: There's something i cant take my eyes off; the thread on your sexy thighs. *Gladly reaches out and removes it, accidental brushing of the PERKS is unavoidable*

Someone said im a 'cock teaser'. Whatever that meant, the previous paragraph probably justified his speech.

Girls, lesson learnt: Dont try too hard pursuing your eye candy nor initiate a conversation before rehersing a line 1billion times. :)

Helter skelter

The following is making life hell of a wreck!
1) NDC case study report
2) NDC oral viva
3) HPB case study report
4) Clinic management assignment
5) HPB reflections
6) Marketing research, write up and presentation
7) Driving test
8) The urge for lower leg brazillian waxing
9) Desire for a COACH legacy leather wristlet (So diff from my FREITAG Donna! Aint a sucker for LV Gucci Prada, but looking at its classic design and threads.) Contribution to the COACH Relief Fund is available. Enquire within 'comments'.

10) Sunshine. Who's near yet so far.
11) Lack of Starbucks and the company

Not a bad mix of tiny and large stress boulders.

Apologies for wasting 2mins reading trash. Lets hope boss is not behind you, nor is he taking down this address for personal 'gratification' (No pun intended.)

GET YOUR ASS BACK TO WORK! (If its between 9.30am - 10am, i make a good break khaki.) ;)

Ok lets waste another 30secs.
Lil sis bought 3 magnificently finned male Guppies (red, yellow, blue) and 1 fugly looking pregnant outcast. Analyzing it for 20mins sounds totally absurd, but we did.

Speaking of which, P, C and I (not K, as in Phua Chu Kang-Ahhh ha, cheesy) cut some slack (1hr +) in the pantry this morning. Exchanging views bout work in the near future, upbringing of kids(1980s VS 2000), how we used to get caned, marriage, what you'd do if your patient starts wailing, etc. (Too tired to continue, Check this space for updates tomorrow, or maybe never. Blame my short term memory.)

Some say, the tissue regeneration peak is from 12-2am. They dont call it beauty sleep for no apparant cause.
Hypothesis: Chronic sleep deprivation can thus, indirectly lead to some form of low self esteem due to irritated looking skin.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Get that ass moving.

Mum's pleased with her lassies (sis and i) when we finally made a decision to tidy up the room! Man, it was hard work clearing clothes, receipts, tissue paper(YIKES), lecture notes, worksheets, magazines, and all that what-nots. The most amazing find: 8x3 packets of electronically tested and lubricated condoms! Compliments of the nation! Brother's in the army, as a medic you see. And he was in charge of giving out condoms to hormone charged lads, which included everyone in his platoon, noobs included, when he was away for training in Thailand. Before you wonder what i did with 24 individually packed condoms, i kept them in a zip-lock bag. And what should i do..? Suggestions, anyone?
In any case, we vacuumed and mopped, headed to PS soon after for window shopping. :) At the end of the day, realise its your family member(s) who cares most about you. And it really is ok farting in front of lil sis, do silly things together, talk to her with grody morning breath.

You've been crossing my mind. Im jeopardised.

Insomnia

I need Dormicum tabs before dawn breaks.

Monsters without rest

It was Dad's treat to zi char!! Was at Bedok South for dinner; Curry fish head and veg, ceral prawns and stir fried deer's meat with ginger and onions. After dinner, lil sis and i played childhood game "chi-ko-pa" in silent mode 'cause we didnt know which action corresponds to chi, ko, pa. Turned heads of the football fanatics when we burst out in uncontainable shrieks. Its easy to condition lil sis. And when i succeeded, i won her 7times straight before she realised! The trick? Amplify actions and give loud "Ahs!". At the same time, study her patterns and the cheeky look combined with 'what-if-i-loose-AGAIN'.

*Sighs. Round 2.
Aint a jaunty night out.
(A misty morning does not signify a cloudy day. We'll have good times more, i guess.)
Handful of anorexic-looking females lurk in Blk 85 Bedok's Food Market. No wonder they can afford the calories from oil painted char grilled satay, ghee filled roti prata(s), barbequed finger-licking-good chicken wings, etc. Dressed in uber short "peach" showing denim skirts, tank top and flip flops, feasting away on what seem to me like a zillion calories. Side track: Envious but I dont quite worry bout what i see in the mirror. Even if its concave. They always say, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder right..And even if the entire world is grossed out by me and pimply cellulite, Mum thinks im her gorgeous. Hence, I wouldnt resist food even if its 10mins before bed. I rather be few grams heavier and enjoy life than be worried all the time. Back on track: D was chatty for awhile, recounting an interesting day, yet i was out of sorts, too tired to reciprocate. And soon we both got rather silent. D waited far too long for his soupy pork noodles (more than 40mins!) and decided to walk away after we downed the sugar cane juice. The hawker probably forgot his order. Monsters without rest, isnt it so true?

I suppose sometimes, we should take time once in a while to just.. enjoy the moment. Silently sipping a cuppa caffeinated goody and read the papers at Starbucks, watch DVDs at home and occassional punches of banter. The perfect "date".

My plan was for D to have dinner/supper, and head to Siglap for Iced Cafe Mocha. Foiled by fatigue. :(

Conclusions drawn:
Be careful what you put into your body, health is too important to ignore.
Taking a power nap from time to time can put you back in the pink!
Simplicity-a marvel if you truly live it in this age.

Upon reflecting how this week has been, i'd say: Bumpy. Joyce and i soared to limits in clinics. Guess we tongue-lashed each other every other day. (Or was i the only one yelling away?) Hmmm.. Isnt my 2007 resol. to live and let live?
Remember the buddy system.. because two have more fun than one!

Kel: This's for you.
I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts or fears.
But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.
(Guess I have more than you. But just swallow this effort, lah. Just for YOU.)

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with it's untold stories.
But I can be here with you now.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting, but I can cry
with you and help you pick up the pieces and put them back in
place. (Think: Chopped onions)

I can't quite recall what we bitch about,
But I can recall the smiles and puffs I had with you, and Fugs.
Its written in the stars.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Back tracks.

Wed 14 March 07.

Adequate sleep help the body metabolise free radicals, which are thought to acclerate ageing and cancerous growths. Chronic sleep deprivation(sounds like me) has been shown to lead to obesity, chronic memory loss, suppressed immune system and increased risk of diabetes and gastrointestinal disease. Upon digesting that information, i decided to retire as soon as i got home from work(11pm).

Sleeping early (12am, still unable to determine what really transpired.Was it marketing assignment, deep thoughts bout what the future holds, monetary issues, or is my hair just too wet for bed) on Wed, hoping to wake up fresh on Thurs was a futile bid. Sluggishly dragged myself to the basin for a splash, waking up to the idea that im running late, uniform's not ready, NDC's stuff not prepared, etc. ( I've eased my reader into Thursday, 15 March 07.)

Combine the effects of high estrogen & progesterone levels and waking up on the wrong side of the bed, poor lil sis was bawled out early in the morning for conveniently leaving sweet wrappers on the dining table. Passed her a nougat (compliments from KD for sending her my well wishes when she was not feeling well) and she thought its part of an apology. Sisters are silly lil creatures who look up to you, wants to wear your clothes, wows at your new buys, complains for not taking dinner with them, and the list goes on. Cute.

Side track.. Forgiveness comes before an apology.

Oh. And i smiled at eye candy in horridly "displaced" after-a-mad-day-of-work-in-that-shower-cap hair. What was i doing. Im supposed to portray an in·di·vid·u·al·is·tic image, an emerging sophisticate.

"You're just too far, from where we are, gotta go home, let me go home"

I cant wait for Friday / Saturday's midnight(overnight) tryst with D!
TGIF!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

NewYork NewYork (CityLink)

Get together session at NewYorkNewYork, CityLink. The que was horrendously long (they dont accept reservations beyond 0630pm. To make reservations at NewYorkNewYork (City Link), call 6341 9695.). Service was prompt. Portions generous. And company: Fabulous with fits of hysterical laughter from Gina and i.
I had Fish and Alfredo, of which i totally regretted. Creamy +++! But that halfed the sin when i got so sick of the smooth and creammy divine-at-first crap. (Read:Which means i've got more sin points)
Couple of side dishes and desert ordered, strictly for sharing.
Tonight's ultimate experience: Mudpie. Sin level : 7/10. The warm chocolate over that crust and sponge is definately worth breaking your new year resolution; 'i-want-to-eat-less-of-THE-brown-stuff'. 3.5 stars.
Iced mocha was a tad too sweet.


















Would die for: Starbucks Iced Cafe Mocha, skimmed milk, ice cubes, no whipped cream or Iced Latte and a pump of Irish Cream, skimmed milk, ice cubes, no whipped cream.

Who's the last person on your mind, and the first when you wake?

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Monday, March 12, 2007

I respect monogamy.
I am experiencing a bad episode of ** withdrawals.

Fri night. No Sat 1.30am. Met ^^, sans make up;au nauturale. Parked at Specialists and went on a Starbucks hunt. Sadly, yet expectedly, shutters down at 2am SHARP. :(
Strolled and teased on down aimlessly, in an attempt to negate some calories from brother's syringing of Heineken when i lost in his vicious game of poker earlier that evening. That aside, "" and i landed up at a pool area, where i lost 2-1. Fiasco. Forgiven thou, 3rd try at this, minus yahoo pool.

Headed to ||'s place for dvd marathon but things heated up. The rest: history.

Am in the midst of conditioning --. E.g.: Who is the lady who looks good because she has dark brown faintly seductive eyes? (You)

Driving instructor: "Dont drive like an experienced driver when you're still a learner. Slow down, be patient and look silly checking blindspots all the time." Is that a compliment?
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Quoting from PM Lee HL,
"You go to work, you come back from work, you take public transport. You have a car on the weekends, you take your car out for a spin."
Pushing for more red plate users..?

Joining the league-in my TWENTIES.. An exciting expedition up ahead. Looking forward to being 21, start a trading account, adding zeros to my bank account. Yet.. Countless worries bout THIS bleek future. Parliament: Give us all, a sign!

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

The worst relationships are the ones that wear away at you by attrition.
One modest disappointment after another.
A neglected call.
A missed dinner date.
A forgotten gift.
Love isn't always about grand gestures and flowery apologies.
You never had to spend much time with me.
And I never asked for much - just the certainty that when you said you'd call back, you would. Or that if you couldn't make it in time, you'd let me know.
Simple courtesies like that.
Do you know the amount of time I spent waiting for you to call?
Or keeping my fingers crossed in agony over whether you'd make it to see me?
I would put my plans on hold for up to a week on the off-chance.
Of course I grew tired of waiting.
But then I'd wait some more.
Of course I'd tell myself that I would never let anyone else string me along this way. But when the opportunity presented itself, I'd just do it all over again.
That's why I said that knowledge makes me vulnerable.
Nobody but me should know that I suffered like that.
I never told you because I just wanted the few times we had together to be happy and free of these banal little irritations.
I just assumed things would get better with time.
I never told you because I needed to preserve my dignity.
I was a strong, confident woman who didn't need anyone else in her life, who had a string of people who loved to spend time with her, who went through men like water.
Why was I being over-sensitive and needy and pathetic like this?
Absolutely out of character.
I had to disown that part of myself.
And thus, I had to disown what I felt about you.
And so I did things to sabotage our relationship.
I kept the truth from you.
Because that was the only thing I had control over. I had to convince myself that I didn't care. I had to numb myself to what I felt. I used other men with their tokens of affection to fill the gaping void you tore inside me.That's how it all works together, okay? Like a bird with a broken wing. Looking out at the sky and wanting to fly but knowing it never will. And so it begins to eat away at its feathers and starve itself in despair. Knowing that the more it destroys itself, the less chances it will have to escape the cage it's in. I wanted to respond to you today. And I began to, in a rather clumsy and inadequate way. But you see, I started crying at my phone and everyone started looking at me funny. And I had to stop myself. It's not that I wanted to shut you out. (What would be the point since you know too much already.) It's just that I can't talk about it right now. I just can't. Maybe one day we will have a "Before Sunset" moment. Or not, as life sees fit. You asked if I thought about you. Well I do - and I did especially when I watched that movie. Sentimental me. If you want answers, come find me another day - at the right time and in the right place - and I will tell you everything. Or maybe you will read this and you'll know. Whatever it is, until I next hear from you, take care of yourself.

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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Let Him Who Is Blameless Cast The First Stone.

Friday, May 13, 2005

Finally in the mood to blog since a load's taken off! Plus, fruitful exercise day!
I woke up feeling troubled still. Its like Id and Superego at work(regarding the sponsorship). Went swimming at noon. THE SUN'S GOOD MAN. ON MY WAY TO BIKINI AND LIL BLACK DRESS!! Haha. Lunched alone at Kim San Leng. Had not so healthy chicken rice. But bahh.. Checked out if there's salsa dance class at Bishan CC! Put on waiting list. Will be ringed if there're enough ppl to start a class. :D
Next moment, im back at home bloggin! Going out soon to City Hall. Lookin for ideas to wrap Sis Faith's giftS. YIPPEEEEE!!!!! Ribbons.. Papers.. Fabric paper.. And stuff. Any ideas out of the box!?

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Sunday ended well after jogging at the mini park with lil sis. Mummy whipped nice dishes the entire day! (Though it was Mother's Day. Haha.) Shall bring her out for celebration this coming Sunday!
Woken up by HIM early in the morning at 8. Wanted to meet him up for Mac's breakfast as i knew i may not be able to meet him in the evening. But he didnt want to. I was made even sadder after knewing that he messaged me only at Admiralty, instead of e 1st step into Spore. Remember when i went for my Genting trip last Dec, i was so anxious to get back to Spore for a long chat on the phone with him.. I activated my auto roam.. and stuff.
Really disappointed in him this time round.
Went for a quick swim at Bishan Swimming Complex. A mere 15mins walk away from home. :D The sun was lovely. Made a quick 30mins swim and went for wash up as i promised to accopany Ping to Sengkang for hair cut. MY JOURNEY WAS 1HOUR VIA MRT AND NE-LINE MAN. Waited bout 1.5 hours for her. In the meantime, went to the bank(which killed 45mins of que-ing time) and idled around Compass Point. BISHAN'S STILL DA BEST. Headed down to Aljunied for interview. It was rather dumb.
Urm.. BEST HIGHLIGHT FOR TODAY :
WE HAD DIM SUM!!! YUMMY. We paid 7 inclusive of Soya bean milk, chee cheong fun, siew mai, har gao, fried carrot cake-white, glutinous rice, fried prawn salad, chin chow jelly.. QUITE A SPREAD. Was supposed to grab a SNACK man. Had a big difficulty ordering food as it was all in Chinese characters. HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE IN TAI WAN!? Left the ordering and translation to Leen and Ping. :( They told me not to make any sound when they're bargaining in taiwan. (the locals would know we're tourists and overly charge us.)
Cabbed down to the cheapo hairdresser. Ping did treatment and thought it was free from a dye session the other time. Turned out to cost 15$! Leen had a hair cut-$6 only. Jus a trim. I? I chatted a lil with Cady while WAITING.. And browsed thru couple of hairstyle magazines. Have quite a clear picture of what hair style i want next. But the question now is.. To do it in Taiwan or Singapore?! Boo. Shall think bout this on Wed when we plan our itinery.

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Unfruitful Sunday.
Mummy didnt want to go out at all. She said it was raining (afternoon) and she didnt want to squeeze with the Mother's Day crowd.
Wanted to go for a swim in e afternoon. Rain ruined my plans for the day. :(

Friday, May 06, 2005

Dental Hygiene's paper was a killer. I did my best. I barely slept(2++hrs?). Hoping to scrape thru.
Upsetted me for the entire day.
He's away. To redang.Since Thurs. He didn't apply for auto roaming. he promised me he would.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Oh no. Made a mistake. Its 180. WHAT?! IM ONLY CHARGING 20/HR?! =l Deprived.
Anyways, confirmation for sponsorship's here. And im in this super big dilema. Whether to still go for it or to leave it. Some say.. Take it as a stepping stone.. Its only 2years.. Its our only route(But in 2years, lots can happen) Why not?Its worth it.A gaureenteed job!
How huh!? Pray bout it!
The feelin in me right now is.. Ok ruth, don't take, go NDC upon graduation, work on both kids and adults, then 2-3 years later go private practice.
Hmm.Sounds good? Not as good as getting 900/mth for 1 year, 950 for subsequent. And what will i do with the money? Prob needa pay for the house.. If not, jus save it, prob use it fr further education or something.
Carrying a burden i almost cannot bear. Overwhelming me. But i look to You O Lord.
ITS WEDNESDAY! Kinda felt that the rush's over! This time round.. No exam mood eh! Not at all! Let Your peace be upon me, all the days of my life..
Calculated tuition fees for the mth of April. WOA. ITS 225 $. Kinda.. Shocked! Minus thithe.. AND THAT'LL COVER MY ACCOMODATION LIAO. It's never been so much. Usually, bout 100+ abit.. April's rollin in money!

Sunday, May 01, 2005

The prices for air ticket(352 to and fro) and accomodation are irresistable. Ok, air ticket, may plunge in the near future. But definately not for accomodation as we are gonna lodge in Ping's Fren's motel. (Yes, i've decided to go!) So i hope it'll be cheaper? Haha. Moreover, there'll be someone to bring us around!!! Why not eh?! :) Cant wait to try out the food, shoppppppppe, play and stuff. I guess the 1st thing i'll do when i touch down is to visit the salon! By that time, the frizzies would be sprouting like no one's business! (its budding even right now)

Really cant wait for next week(exam week) to breeze pass! The 2 weeks of attachment 'turns me off'. Without that, i could start work, which generates $$$$$$!!!

Oh yes, went out with father and lil sis for lunch yesterday. Seriously i was VERY reluctant. But i went anyway. I needed to have lunch.. And yet save money at the same time. Thank God, father picked a 100$ Takashimaya voucher and it flew into my pocket! What i have sown last Sat during svc indeed brought back a tenfold return! Amen! Cant wait for 6th of May to PARTIEEEEEE!

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Any temp job to offer?
In a dilema. To go or not to go.
Where to, u'll say. TAIPEI !!! With Fuglians (Confirmed - Leen and Ping.)
Air tix via JetStarAsia- 325(Tax inclusive)
Accomodation plus food for 9-10 days - approx 500 SGD?
That sums up to 800 $ !!!
How bout shopping, blah blah. Ping says 1k is enough.
But its kinda weird right. I mean.. To go abroad and have fun is not quite possible without spending power. Im not talking bout coming back with bags of LV and Gucci or some other high end brand. But... Aiyah. How should i put it? I hope uunderstand!!!!
In a state of euphoria now! Thinking bout how fun it'd be if i were to go.
But uh huh. Back to reality. Examinations - couple of days away. Next tues, wed, fri and its OVER! Yes, O-V-E-R. And it'd mark the end of my 1st year in NYP. Boo. How fast time flies!

Thursday, April 28, 2005

STUDY BREAK! SOUNDS COOL EH!!! Sadly, i wasted monday and tuesday. Monday - busy sorting out the notes and stuff. Tues - Lazed at home till it was time for tuition! Tuition sure was easy today! Simply summarized the Geog Text for Viron and made him write notes! Hope this study method works for him!
Wed - Ping called me up at like.........8.40AM. I AM TIRED CANNNN. But i dragged myself up and headed to sch's library. Studying was REALLY SLOW. Was still at inflammation while she was way ahead of me. Soon came lunch. After lunch, Ping and i went up the lab in search for Dr Hema. Ping wanted to submit her MC. Saw the NEWBIES. They really looked kinda square. But how square they really are can only be 'diagnosed' 3 weeks later? After they open up that nut shell of theirs.
Thurs - Which is today! Still on GOP. Hope to finish GOP today and 2 lectures on Op Tech! Way to go!!!! Thats all for now. Taken a break thats wayyyyy toooooo longgggggg.

Saturday, April 23, 2005

Monday - Thurs*18-21/04/05
Only phrase to describe: Life's a straight line . Except for few gossip sessions here and there, clinicals were wayyyy toooo dryyyy. Ar huh. Hitched a ride from Dan on Tues as i had to be at kembangan at 6pm and had somehow met him at the lift. At first he offered to alight us at City hall, then PayaLebar as he had change of plans on his side. Final decision: Drop us off at our respective destinations. Really nice of him. It was polite of him to drive at snail's pace. Too many cool gadgets in that silver box of his i cant remember. Stared blankly at the roads on the Eastern side of Spore-So very foreign! Couple moments of silence after Carmen alighted.
Than came Thurs. Couple of cards to express our gratittude were bought by my fellow class mates. After office hours, Fuglians turned cranky (as usual). We were wrecking havoc at Tutorial 2A! Each of us contributed to the 'design' of the card for the 3rd years. In our concious effort to make our messages turn fugly, it looked ok afterall. Its like.. What we wrote is really creative and has some form of..Stlye incorporated into it. Hence, no matter what horrible colour combi we planted, it was simply NICE. Haha. Is that the correct word? Anyways, that is history. This incident- i will never forget. Somehow, there seem to be hope once again!(Guess u wont know what im referring to here eh.) Consider this warm up session for Friday's geling session.
Friday. Time FLEW. Some parts of it probably disintegrated. Clinicals soon ended. Basically bidding our good byes, expressing thanks to them for being such a great host and not forgetting that 'event' starting with G. Yes, thats right. GOSSIP SESSIONS.
Fondly miss the ppl there. Seriously, what is learnt during the procedures are secondary. Its the communication and interpersonal skills thats primary. Eat the meat, throw the bones. Whats left? Sweet memories. Whats thrown? Complaints of insignificant others.
Library sessions again. B-O-R-I-N-G. An evaluation form was given. One question was: What was the activity u enjoyed most? I had the urge to fill: LIBRARY SESSIONS. AHahahaha.
Early dismissal. We turned from Blue Ducklings to Pulchritudinous Swans. Took 95 down to Holland V. Long walk to the spot of life. Half way thru, 4 of them decided to hail a cab. Leen and i were persistant and wanted to complete the walkathon. Threw some stuff into the cab and headed to Hagen Dazs hands free. Was kinda...Sweating profusely, but we denied. Afterall, they are Fuglies and knew what we were really thinking about. Leen and i were exposed. (We wanted to act as if the walk there was light and breezy but we failed.)
Thrashed 'things' out at Hagen Dazs. Really a great session. All the unhappiness were spelled out. (With elaboration and exampleS!)
An unpleasant incident happened at the ice cream store too. Shallnt elaborate.
Headed to Tango's as WaLaWaLa was full. If only we were 20, we'd go up for the live band at Wala's!
Had Strawberry and Mango Marblahblah PLUS lotsa fooooood. Played games and poked at each other's folly. Great time spent. ('Lady Luck' wasnt smiling at me. I 'striked' several times. But resisted drinking.) How often we get to spend such happy moments together!
Left at bout 9. Went home, smiling to myself. Retired to bed as soon as i got home.

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Thurs
Allllright. We forgot bout the Denture session. Oh dear.. Needa look for that lecturer for a sincere apology. The last impression i'd like her to have is that we are a big bunch of useless and forgetful bums.

Friday
WACKING FUN DAY. Ended kinda early. (3Plus) Thats the only best thing that happened today. Haha.
Gotta know lotsa news bout Ah beng. Suddenly all that we talk about would somehow be linked to him! Thoughts of unbelief ran through my mind. Curiosity filled me! Gotta find out more on Monday!!! Like what the hell right. He's the... 2004 Cleo's Top 50 Most Eligible Bachelor.. Ex swimmer.. Owns a factory.. And blah. Alright. From Mon to Fri. Perception bout Ah Beng changed a whole lot. He's rather gentleman. Thats all i could say. No talks bout personal stuff just yet. Probably probing more into this colourful life of his on monday! Spaciality mannnn.. In a foreign ground afterall.. hmm, how should i start?!
Bused down to Holland V. after changing outta that BLUE STUFF. At Holland V, gotta change back cannnn.. Thanks to Cady lorrrrrr. We (Leen ping and i) desperately wanted to wear 'home' clothes, but Cady didnt bring clothes and felt weird. Verdict : ALL OF US CHANGED BACK INTO THAT BLUE STUFF. Jus that now, its more crumpled. Shopped and i bought pumps from x:odus. Sat down for Bites and Cuppa Coffee at Breko. Gossiped larh.. What else man. Left for home at bout 8plus.

Sat
Supper with Dan, Shan, Lyon and Robson after svc. Had zi char together. First time in history mannnn.. Ordered medium, the portion was ALOT. But.. i seriously wasnt feeling fullllll. Reached home at bout 1245am.

Sunday
Me : So when can we remove the braces?
Kenji : Today, if u want.
Me : Alright. Sure.
Kenji : U like the alignment and the bite?
Me : Im ok.
And...... Gone were the days where i had braces on. And i sure look WEIRD to myself! I realised i have BEEEEEG teeth. I prefer myself in braces. I thought i look kinda cute! :P Ok, u'll feel like slapping me after reading this yeah?

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

On The First Day Of Christmas My True Love Gave To Me...
I mean, on the first day of attachment..
What else could be worse than putting on the blue cleaners' look-a-like uniform.

On bus no. 95 stood a man in blue collare. And i passed a remark i wish i could take back. I said to Kel : Whichever student in dentistry wearing blue today is quite suay. He'll look like he's one of us!

Outside the Dean's office were pictures taken way back before i was born. Spotted Dr Hema in her younger days. She was SO CHEERY. And she still is now! Cuz she's teaching the cream of the crop-US. Haha.

WOW. An eye opener, indeed! Worked with the 4th years. Nice ppl. Ok, not all. Some were rather shy, some were quite friendly. That foreigner i worked with was really approachable. He made me feel so at home!

Couldnt have been more tired. Stood all the way in the clinic man! Too shy to sit eh.

And yes, the most horrid incident : An old indian lady from DSSU.. (Which we thought at first is a toilet cleaner) said : Same ar Same ar! (Referring to our uniform larhhhh. Dont u get what i mean?)

2nd Day was ALOT better. BORING PREVENTIVE DENTISTRY LECTURE. Was like Oral Health Promotion! 1st 2/3 of the lecture, busy taking down notes. For goodness sake. She rattled on and on so quickly that i couldnt bother much more.
Afternoon sessions were great. Starting to feel alittle more comfortable. But need to adapt to the new faces-e 3rd yrs.
Alright. Some looked arrogant. They probably were shy. And we had this prejudice bout # at the very last part of the day.

2 Funny Incidents
1) A toilet cleaner in off white gave us that kind of 'what-are-u-doing-in-that-blue-top' stare. He was literally giving us a disgusted scan from the crown of my head to the sole of my feet! Pointed that out to Pinggy and we laughed over it.
2) Cady and i were at the ladies brushing and grooming. Than in came a lady, peeking in and she went : Fook u! Cady and i turned and looked at each other, bursting out in hilarious laughter.

Pingy had a needlestick injury today. Fault lying in the in-house departments. The needle was embedded in the gown! Shallnt elaborate on it. They paid in full her medical checkup. Hope all will turn out fine for my darling girl.

Wed
Pinggy didnt join us for today. Feeling feverish, she decided to give today a miss.

Boring time at lab, to the extent we sit down for occassional chats at some discreet corner of the clinic. Only our 3rd day and we are sick of observing. Everything seems mundane.

Gave my first.............................to a guy.
Assisted WeiQiang in charting and procedures in Perio. I know i kinda flopped when he stopped work and wore his goggles. Bah, he probably forgot to wear them. :D not that im not doing a good job. And oh, dont get the wrong idea! Dental Therapist/Hygienist dont assist dentists. Any P6 student with average dexterity can do that closing one eye.
These peeps are really a fabulous bunch of big kids! They have their fair share of fun though they look kinda serious at e clinic, I guess. However the staff were not too hospitable.

Thursday's gonna be fun-something new! A staff invited half the class to pop in for denture making session. Cant wait!

Saturday, April 09, 2005

Summary of this week
Mon:Walked a shorter route to Bras Basah, ended up going an entire round on my way back as i exit at the wrong exit. Brisked back to CityHall meet Jul, didnt manage to go down Orchard get da pair of shoes as i was 20mins behind schdule! Didnt wanna be late for meeting. Meeting was fun cannn! Literally lauging every 2 mins. Really felt i've grown in ministry.
Tues:Went down Sembawang order cake. Banu and i almost had a cat fight in the bakery! Well, crashed thoughts. Different style of working i guess. Haha. Bebe's treat to Sakae Sushi at Yishun!! Yummy. Averaged out to bout 36$. Reached home dead tired, read thru Radiography once. Thought i regret going for Sakae, running errands? No i didnt! Read on!
Wed:Supposed to have 4hrs to study for radiography. In a short notice, we had to stay on for additional lab sessions and were left with bout 2 hours. U know how girls like to drag time.. Studied for 1hr and went in for paper. Woa. Study so little can get kinda...better grades lorrrr.
Thurs:Finally got the cards for AWW. After so many days of worrying bout it, it finally is in my hands! Stayed up till the wee hours to complete ringing them. Went Woodlands with Cady after school this afternoon in the search of black pants. Its fugly can. BLACK PLAIN PANTS. I suggested pants with some strips of white or sumthing, but was rejected flat by Mdm Soh. :)
Mrs Quek suan me till i bo chun. As in, she was reallllllly scarstic. No evil intentions but she was really harsh on me. :( Dou Shi Wei Wo Hao... Hurt by what she said, Dr V seemed like the one who treats me the best! :D
Friday:Farewell party, lots to elaborate but too tired to type.HPB interview, will elaborate again.CGM meeting:FARN.

Monday, April 04, 2005

Sunday night
Actually forgot bout OpTech test tmr, totally slipped out of my mind!

Anyways, jus back from sch after prac test. And Gosh. What bad remarks DrHema gave. But true la. Haha. Like what i usually do during lab is wrong cannn. In my concious effort to restore the pits and marginal ridge, i left out carving the cental groove! How silly i can get. 3 mistakes DrV pointed out: Little shortage on mesio buccal, scratch on mesio interproximal, little contact point. Bahhh. Quite a demoralising day.

Quite a couple of errands to run today.
1)Bras Basah's Art Fren get da stupid rings.
2)Found a black shoe im ok with at Charles&Keith, will be getting e discount card frm Julienne at 0630, than head down to Wisma get da stuff. Dun wanna hold on to the card for too long cuz she's like doing me a favour. Plus the next time i see her would prob be 2 weeks later.
3)Ministry meeting at night. Have ta rush back to city hall after trip to Wisma.
Will prob drop dead when i get home. Like leaving me only Tues to study for Radiography. And that sounds like i have to pia again.

Thursday, March 31, 2005

You Are My Sunshine, My Only Sunshine. You Make Me Happy, When Skies Are Grey. You Never Know Dear, How Much I Love You. Pls Dont Take My Sunshine Away.

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

After one has removed the carefully polished mask, are you able to overlook it, accept it and love him?
Went to Naked Fish Shoppe(Grassroots Club, which is mere 5mins walk away from school) for lunch with fellow Fuglians. Was there cuz a coin decided our fate of restaurent or canteen lunch. We were registered as guests, not public! Cool eh! Food's not bad, but serving's small.
Bebe lost his phone in a cab yesterday morning. The phone was returned to the rightful owner. What a miracle! Thank God man... Bought the man Merci Chocolates as a small token. The rest is history.

Friday, March 25, 2005

Finally got a watch-digital one. Sad. 1st day and there're scratches on the steel part. Prob an attitude the watch would like to have? Really damn xin tong now alright. And a fren rubbed on it, adding salt and pepper to the fuming me. Bahhh. Its ok Its Alright. Puay Yong Puay Yong fight fight fight! haha. Suddenly Cady's stage line came to my mind.

Met bebe up and wasnt a very pleasant day. Like, after all was patched up, we felt weird shopping. Its like, the feel isnt right. Somehow, somewhere, something went wrong. Decided to head back home while he meet up his pals. He'll be more glad out with them.. But bahh. thats a totally different story.

Thursday, March 24, 2005

The True Meaning Of Easter
by Polly Griffin

To understand the true meaning of Easter, go all the way back to the beginning of creation..

God made a beautiful earth and heaven to be a home for His son, Adam. (Luke 3:38, Genesis 1:1 thru 3:24) Adam was made in the image and likeness of God, his father. Out of the ground the Lord God formed every beast of the field and every fowl of the air. He brought them to Adam so Adam could give them names.
Also, out of the ground grew every tree that is pleasant to the sight and good for food. At this time, there was no sickness, suffering or death.
And the Lord God took the man, and put him into the garden of Eden to dress it and to keep it.
"And the Lord God commanded the man saying, of every tree of the garden you may freely eat: but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat of it: for in the day that you eat thereof you shall surely die." (KJV Gen. 3:16-17)
God said that it was not good for man to be alone and so he caused a deep sleep to come upon Adam. God removed a rib from Adam and formed a woman from the rib to be the wife of Adam. Adam named his wife Eve. They truly lived in paradise, the earthly heaven.
Now, in the garden of Eden was a serpent. This serpent was Satan. (Rev. 20:2) Satan is also known as the tempter, Lucifer, and the devil. He personifies evilness and rebellion.
The serpent tempted Eve and said:
"Ye shall not surely die: for God doth know that in the day ye eat thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be as gods, knowing good and evil." (KJV Gen. 3:4-5)
So, Eve looked at the fruit and saw that it was good for food and pleasant to the eyes and she ate of it. She then gave some to Adam and he ate of it.
By eating the forbidden fruit, Adam caused the downfall of man. God expelled Adam and Eve from the Garden of Eden and sickness, suffering, and death came upon the earth.
In spite of Adam's and Eve's failures, God did not lose His love for mankind and promised that He would send a Savior to restore man back to the paradise state that He had intended for man.
(God speaking to Satan in KJV Gen. 3:15) "And I will put enmity (hatred) between you and the woman, and between your seed and her seed, it shall bruise your head, and you shall bruise his heel."
(Romans 16:20) "And the God of peace shall bruise Satan under your feet shortly/ The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. Amen.
Throughout the centuries, the prophets told the story of a Savior that would come to earth to save mankind from their sins and restore them to paradise: (Isaiah 7:14), Matthew 6:10, Hebrew 9:12, Revelation 21:4)

About two thousand years ago that prophecy was fulfilled when a virgin named Mary became pregnant with a son that had been conceived in her by the Holy Spirit. This child was no ordinary child because He was the incarnation of the Word from heaven which came to earth in the form of God's only begotten son, Jesus. (KJV John 1:1-14, John 3:16, 1 Corinthians 15:47, John 8:23)
Mary was engaged to Joseph when she became pregnant by the Holy Ghost. Joseph married her, but their marriage was not consummated until after the birth of baby Jesus.
When it was almost time for the child to be born, a decree went forth from Caesar Augustus that a census of the whole world should be taken. This first census took place while Cyrinus was governor of Syria. And everyone was going to his own town to register.
And Joseph and Mary went from Galilee out of the town of Nazareth into Judea to the town of David, which is called Bethlehem. The town was crowded and there was no place for them to stay in the inn, they went into a stable. Mary delivered her child there and placed Him in a manger. Suddenly an angel of God appeared to shepards and spoke:
"Fear not, for behold I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David, a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.
And this shall be a sign unto you: you shall find the Baby wrapped in swaddling clothes lying in a manger.
And as the angel spoke, the heavens were filled with a chorus of angels proclaiming, "Glory to God in the highest, and on Earth, peace, good will toward men."
God's great love for mankind was made manifest through the birth of His son. The long awaited promise of a Savior had now come to pass.
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16
God's heavenly son was the only person that could save mankind. The price for redemption was His blood. He paid this price upon the cross at Calvary when He was put to death. He conquered death when He was resurrected. His resurrection is celebrated each year at Easter time.
"Neither by the blood of goats and calves, but by his own blood he entered in once into the holy place, having obtained eternal redemption for us." (Hebrews 9:12 KJV)
Like Adam and Eve, everyone has a choice to make. Each of us must decide if we want to choose to follow Jesus which leads to life or do we want to follow Satan the evil one. His way leads to death. When we choose Jesus, we are reborn. We cast away the lineage of God's earthly son Adam, who fell from grace. We take on the lineage of God's heavenly son, Jesus.
"He that committeth sin is of the devil; for the devil sinneth from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil." 1 John 3:8
Jesus is calling for workers to help him restore the earth to a heavenly paradise like it once was. He pleads for workers to help with the work.
"'And Jesus went about all the cities and villages, teaching in their synagogues, and preaching the gospel of the kingdom, and healing every sickness and every disease among the people.
But when he saw the multitudes, he was moved with compassion on them, because they fainted, and were scattered abroad, as sheep having no shepherd.
Then saith he unto his disciples, The harvest truly is plenteous, but the labourers are few; Pray ye therefore the Lord of the harvest, that he will send forth labourers into his harvest." Matthew 9:35-38
"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away." Revelations 21:4 KJV)

The Killing Of Three Lambs
Lamb #1
Long ago lived a man named Abram who was married to a woman named Sarai.
God made a covenant with Abram saying:
"Unto thy seed have I given this land from the river of Egypt unto the great river, the river Euphrates. (Genesis 15:18) Sarai bare Abram no children, but she had a handmaiden named Hagar. She told Abram to go into Hagar and have a child by her. He did and Hagar became pregnant. She bore a son named Ishmael. God told Abram that His covenant was with him. God changed Abram's name to Abraham. God told Abraham to circumcise all males of his seed and all males purchased with money.
God said that Sarai's name would be Sarah and that He would bless her and she would give him a son. She would be a mother of nations; kings of people shall be of her.
With this statement, "Abraham fell upon his face and laughed. He said in his heart, Shall a child be born unto him that is an hundred years old and shall Sarah, that is ninety years old, bear?" Genesis 17:17
God said that Sarah would indeed bear him a son and his name shall be called Isaac, and He would establish His covenant with him for an everlasting covenant and with his seed after him.
God also blessed Ishmael. He said that Ishmael would beget 12 princes and he would make him a great nation. However, he said His covenant would be with Isaac.
Sarah did bear Isaac. As Isaac and Ishmael grew, Sarah did not like Hagar and Ishmael. She asked Abraham to cast them out from their home. God told Abraham to do what Sarah asked. She said He would also make Ishmael a mighty nation. Abraham obeyed.
Then God decided to test Abraham's faith in Him. He told him to take his son, Isaac, that he loved, and offer him for a burnt offering. Abraham obeyed God. He bound Isaac and laid him upon the altar. Then he raised the knife to slay Isaac. The angel of the Lord called out to Abraham and told him not to slay the child because he had proven his faith in God.
Then a ram that was caught in the bushes was slaughtered for the burnt offering.
God told Abraham that in his seed all the nations of the earth would be blessed.

Lamb #2
Isaac had a son named Jacob. He had many children, but he loved one of them more than all the others. His name was Joseph. The other children hated Joseph because their Dad loved him most.
One day Jacob gave Joseph a coat of many colors. This really made the other children angry and they decided to get rid of Joseph. They sold him to some merchants who were on their way to Egypt. They killed an animal, put its blood upon the coat and told their father that Joseph had been killed by an animal.
The merchants sold Joseph to the captain of the guard of the ruler of Egypt. The ruler of Egypt was called Pharaoh.
Pharaoh loved Joseph because he had interpreted some dreams for him. Then Pharaoh made Joseph ruler over all of Egypt. Only the Pharaoh was more powerful than Joseph.
Time passed and a famine came upon the earth. Joseph's family came to Egypt to buy corn. Joseph told his family who he was and they were reunited.
All was well until after Joseph and the kind Pharaoh died and other persons took their places. The Israelites (the name of Joseph's family) grew. The Egyptians became fearful of the Israelites because they thought they were going to take over all of Egypt, and they put them in slavery and made them work and serve the Egyptians.
God heard their crying and grieving and sent Moses to lead them out of slavery. God gave them the land known as Israel today for their homeland.
Moses met with the Pharaoh that was ruler at the time and asked him to let the Israelites go but the ruler would not let them leave. God gave Moses the power to show the Pharaoh many signs, but still the ruler would not let the people go. Finally, God said He would do one more thing and after that the ruler would let the people go.
This was to be one of the saddest days in all of history and God said the Israelites must remember it always and to always observe it each year. He was going to set them free from slavery by killing the firstborn child of all the Egyptians.
The Israelites were ordered to eat special foods during this time and they must also kill a lamb and take its blood and paint it on the door so death would not take the lives of the firstborn of the Israelites. When the destroyer saw the blood on the houses of the Israelites, that family was "passed over" and the firstborn were not killed. The ruler of Egypt finally let the people leave Egypt to go to the land that God had given them.
God instructed the Israelites to observe this day by eating the Feast of the Passover each year on the 14th day of the first month. This month is called Abid (or Nisan) on the Jewish calendar.

Lamb #3
Many years later, there was to be another lamb slaughtered to free all the people on earth from the slavery of sin. This time God used His own son, Jesus, as the lamb to be slaughtered and by doing so, the world could be saved.
The slaughtering of our Lord Jesus Christ upon the cross coincides with the days of the Passover and both times must always be remembered as an expression of God's love for the people. Love isn't love until it is put into an action .
As the days drew closer for eating the passover meal, Jesus goes to Jerusalem. As he entered the city, the people laid their garments and branches off the trees and laid them in his path. They cried saying Hosanna; Blessed is he that cometh in the name of the Lord. They gathered together in an upper room to eat the passover meal.
Judas Iscariot made plans to betray Jesus. He was promised money if he did.
"And as they did eat, Jesus took bread, and blessed, and brake it, and gave to them, and said, Take, eat; this is my body.
And he took the cup, and when he had given thanks, he gave it to them; and they all drank of it.
And he said unto them, 'This is my blood of the new testament, which is shed for many. Verily I say unto you, I will drink no more of the fruit of the vine,until that day that I drink it new in the kingdom of God. And when they had sung an hymn, they went out into the Mount of Olives." Mark 14:22-26
Jesus was betrayed by Judas Iscariot and was arrested. He was tried and sentenced to die upon the cross.
He died upon the cross. His blood bought redemption for all mankind.
"Neither by the blood of goats and calves, but by his own blood he entered in once into the holy place , having obtained eternal redemption for us." Hebrews 9:12
The third day after his death, he rose from the dead to live forevermore.
The day he was resurrected is called Easter!!

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Sitting right here looking somewhat like a lobster. Burnt by the scorching sun from yesterday's intercourse(Ops. InterDiploma i mean) Captain's ball match. And this v shaped burn under my neck prohibited me from wearing wad i wanted to wear to church. =l All cuz i stupidly wore a polo tee. Did i forget to mention the fair skin i have under glasses? Man, its funny. And, dumb. How would i ever forget bout this?
Its Sunday and im still in a state of euphoria. i still cant accept the fact that we won. Victoriously. Yes, we made it to 'trash the nurses'(sounds familar?) and surprisingly, the therapists too. Dr Ron even visualized Yas gulping champange from the trophy!
The pre-tournament trainings were all worth it. The players were so comfortable by Sat, and displayed wonderous coordinations.
Regristration was scary. We looked like dawrfs admist the tall the huge the tanned the fit and the netballers n never forgetting the 'smelly' basket-ballers that used a weird stretegdy no one would have ever thought of.

All of us had this premonition that we would be kicked out after round1 cuz the1st nursing team that competed against us had 2 giants-The defender who literally tapped away every ball we threw to huemin, and the big man who played rather rough thought that the girls would feel intimidated! When the score was a draw, the defender tried hard to stall time by pulling a quick one:stomachache. However, the empires stopped time and ruined his plan.Over the mountains and the seas, we won 5-4! Close shave indeed. Confidence grew as we got pass the 1st round.

2nd match was against Occupational Therapy. The pace was so fast. The co-ordination was pur-fat. DT won comfortably;9-1. Thanks to Ping who did long shoots as the team's energy was draining. HeeShen was there to 'support'. He wore this 'sunglasses' over his specs. I dont mean those that have magnets at the side for clip ons. Get the picture : He wore glasses prob meant for Radiography. =l Some said he looked like he's all geared up for diving. Boo. Will that be made possible?

3rd match was against RG. The most memorable one. The match Ping was looking forward to. LoL! The unhappiness DTs harboured over them having 4 guys were finally blurted out. The argument made Kel ignite in flames. In e end, compromise was made : They were allowed to replace 1 guy. Most memorable incident: Desmond ROARED at Kel. LOL. Everyone who caught that was laughing hysterically. A moment to remember, indeed. Another incident : No4 n Kel were snatching over the ball. Kel got it when she whined to the umpire I GOT IT FIRST... Sub Ping as i needed to do something, though i was a reserve. Slowed the entire match playing around for 5 mins. I blurted out a loud "SHIT" as the opponent got the ball. Thank God, wad was rightfully ours was gotten back. 11-3 was the score.

Final match-against Yr2 Nursing. The guys passed the balls to their female mates only when they were left with no choice. They had real weird tactics. Trashed them with 13-6.

Dr Ron : Thanks for showing your utmost support all the way. And having confidence in such a horrid player like me. I can thank u till the cows go home for having in me such great faith. Haha.

Supporters
Tan weiwei, Marilyn, Cady n YuanQi took the effort to cheer in the blazing sun. I was somewhat a supporter too. I yelled my throat away. Without all these shrieking support and cheers, I dun think DT will win. The supporters were truly their only source of motivation. The prize is secondary. What was important was that we really got to care for each other. Really, deeply touched by your attendance. Loads of kissies to u all!
Attn:Cady, thanks for taking the trouble of waking up early(earlier den me!) to make me egg butter breakfast instead of PizzaBreakfast every1 was having. And not forgetting the effort of making it triangular! Thanks alot baby.

Iliyas : Dude, PLEASE RELAX. Glad that the idea of being knocked out neverever cross your mind.

LeEn : Firm. Swift. Only words to describe u!

Huemin : Really glad u joined! U are really great. Goals wouldnt had been ours without your long legs and hands!

Huiping : MVP is the term, perfect for u. (Most Valuable Player)

Mastura : Ever ready, ever steady

Yusri : You are jus too good to be true. So agile. U are really EVERYWHERE, EVERYTIME. Indeed living up to ur name! Wouldnt had been possible with your incredible legs and hands!

Ruth : Girl thanks for comin down, u aint a reserve. U were GOOD n that's why u were chosen to join e team. u improved tremendously n for e 2nd game u were steady n made some good passes n catches. impressive performance after only 3 trainings :D (THIS IS FROM KELLY!!!! SHE REALLY MADE ME FLY SKY HIGH)

DT emerged as champions. No one ever would expect dwarfs to get that tittle. But was everyone there to share this joy?

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Mundane day. Little communication with heem. Well, not only today,every other week day. Whereas Sats, busy with own stuff, den church in evening, talk so little. Sunday, prob abit better.
Had some sort of misunderstanding. Too long to elaborate here. Well, verdict : I cant take it anymore. Always sprouting all the qi hua, than apologising after that. Heee thinks i've got no temper and no angry words to splish splash spatter? I keep them all. Cause i know its not gonna help things. In my point of view, i'd rather be the sour one, keeping the flame burning right in me, than letting it out and making things worst. I know how bad this tongue of mine can be. But i decided to control it, to tie it. Cant YOU? Really. I cant take in any more apologies.
See how u've dampened my study mood. Tired. Really tired. Its so late(1am) and i'm not done with studying. Much more to cover.
Heeeee jus called. As what i anticipated him to say; too tired, had long day, viscous cycle again, good night, slp now. muack bye. C= Cool ya?
And no, not trying to demean heeem. Jus want to let it out thru a medium that's non responsive. U know, sharing it with others may twist the entire thoughts and feelings, and inculcate in me evil ideas. muaaahahaha.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Nice time im having right now, sitting down with the fan blowing right at my face to cool me down.
Had 1Hr of GOP 'lecture' today. Basically chatting away. Infection control marks has been compiled and thank God for the good results. To Him be the glory. amen.

Next came a wacking farn time shouting and yelling at each other during Captain's ball. Really fun playing under rather cool weather. I happened to be damn blur today! I dun recognise members in my group. I'd either take awhile to recall who is and who isnt in my team, or directly throw it to the opponent! =l Still, all of us laughed over my folly. First game-running around. Next 2-defender. Alright, i feel flattered when some said i was a rather good defender. I turned beetroot when they put me in the best light! Okay, i went too far blabbering bout i me and myself.. Haha. Prob wont be playing much in the game. Will be placed as reserve. But i dun mind la. Im not into balls. Jus trying my best to show my utmost support. Pls pray hard for springs in my legs and superb ball sense!
Oh yes, i forgot to mention. Guest player, Dr Raj joined us today! *Cheers to sporty Raj* He's rather good. I feel this enthu in him man! He could only join us for a mere 10mins as he has a lecture after that, but he was all geared up! I think he was with us for bout 20mins. He really is good. Almost 'touched' him a couple of times.
All of us forgot bout spaciality during the game. Shout outs of RAJ RAJ or RONNIE was heard a million and one times. LoL.
Dr Ron's treat to drinks after the intensive 'exercise'.
And, Mari really is this horrrrr-nie lady in our class. She really is. Guys out there, GRAB HERRRRRRRRRRRRR. Haha. Well, aint funny.
Memorable lecture with Dr V. He's rather particular bout stuff. Alright FOLKS, time to take off that coloured lenses u used to sterotype him with! He's GOOD. Really good. And cheeky too i guess. He cant wait to show that bushy tail of his. hO hO hO. And Leen's in lurve with him. I admit, her aims are always of excellent standard.

During lab session, i tried hard to be serious. Aim was to complete cutting all by today.. But to no avail. Jokes were minimal. But i went overboard on the slangs today. Which kinda made me laugh my intestines out. Alright, not too bad, im left with deepening the gingival seat of my 34. Guess what? I did a DO instead of an MO. Cut wrong stuff for the 2nd time. =l I better not do it in the test.

Had a clone today. Really co-incidental! Same top, same model of jeans and nike shoes. C:

Captain's ball again tmr. What should i wear.

Monday, March 14, 2005

Alas, Radiography over. The torture of the delay is over, at last. The questions were tricky.. Wasnt in the mood to do the test cuz im so used to cancelling out not possible answers.. I jus love scribbling study methods on the test script. Like.. TE, FS represents Tooth positioned wrongly, Elongated image, Film wrong, Shortened image.. and stuff like that. But bahh. Anyhows, I didnt fare well. :c Not that i didnt study. Alright. It was tough okay. Fullstop. But that shouldnt be the sole reason why i didnt do well.

Viron cancelled tuition again. That makes it 9times of cancelling or postphoning in 4 mths. But couldnt help it larh. He claimed he's sick. C: Get well soon my BELOVED student.

Did grocery shopping. Basically healthy stuff that i can munch on between meals. Ceral n raisins!! *SLURRRRRPS*

Better start on Op Tech today or i'll not go for Wed BS in peace. 3 lecture notes to cover. So little, yet so march.

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Combined svc at Spore Indoor today. Awesome. Past 2 days were BennyHinn's crusade. Vision restored, wheelchair bound getting up, cancer healed, arthritis healed, eardrums formed, kidney problems healed, and many more! Such a waste that the dist stopped Cady Baby frm going, e others had other appts. :C Bought a book, Welcome Holy Spirt. Its a good buy, best buy and a must buy! Its not only gonna change my life, but i believe i'll influence the others with my lifestyle. And yes, im gonna live being practical, yet not living a double standard way of life. You know. Im in the world. But not OF the world. Yes. Thats it.

Bebe accompanied me home. He took a nap while i did my stuff. After few moments into Radiography, i fell asleep. Waking up 2 hours later by an SMS. :c Mum whipped dinner in jus a few moments after i woke up. i ate ALOT. Cuz its all about CURRY FISH AND MEAT DUMPLING! Plus ladies finger! Yummy! Not forgetting, she stir fried Lala. Man! It was so saltish. =l Completed Radiography after dinner while bebe catch up with his Bible reading. I've got quite a couple of days to catch up too!! :c On top of that, i promised bebe to read Welcome HS by 3 weeks. Uhhh ohhhh.

Really is quality time spent, rather than what we used to do: Shop at town EVERY OTHER WEEK!

And yes. The latest want: watch. And u know what? I seem to like DIESEL now more than anything else. =l If i really buy it, it'll burst my budget. If i buy it, why not top up couple of tens more to go on mission trips? Brrrr.

Saturday, March 12, 2005

I forgot to mention, hadnt met bebe up for almost 1 week. 6days to be exact. the pass few days had been horrible. I felt he was giving me lip service. No i dont need that. Words with action fall on the ground wasted. Tmr, hopefully can spend some quality time.
Past few days has been so busy. Really tired. Since Ulf Ekman week, which is like end of Feb, I hadnt had a good rest and time to do my stuff. Other than days in sch shrieking away with Fuglians.. I cant quite find a good reason to laugh. Other than serving God in bookstore, i dont enjoy my life.. Mugging and blah. Had a good time lazing at home today. Sleep till 10, had tuition till bout 1245. Had lunch and urged sis n mum to go SIS. Called up some folks, chatted with Kel and fell asleep. Haha. I think the last few mins with Kel, she was trying hard to get my attention. Sorry Kel. Seriously. I was not really listening. Ok, listening but not hitting the ball back to u. LoL

Thurs
Left lab bout 20mins before dismissal.Wanted to go home and nap for 1 hour. Thats why. I wasnt really in a rush actually, since mum decided to cab down to court. Shalln't elaborate, whilst u know my situation and pity me. No, i dont need your sympathy. I will survive. God will pull me thru.

Fri
DH test was really tricky. It wasnt wad i expected. I over studied. What i anticipated didnt come out at all. And that kinda feeling is horrible. The questions were easy, some of them. But i skipped it. I thought i knew. In the end............... The MCQ's are tricky and expensive. 2MARKS EACH!
Then came the next hour with DrHema. We had to shift as she took it for granted that no one would book the room. We'll usually have tutorial right after 1lect and no one would come in usually. But this week came the Adv Dip ppl, who barged in demanding that we get lost! Packed the stuff for the others and brought it out. MAN! The bags were heavyyyyyyy. Went up to tutorial room, had class discussion after that. Banu got quite heated up. Maybe she's a little more impatient. That discussion was funny. Cady and i literally were laughing our organs out!

Had outdoor captain's ball. No one, ok maybe a minority, was in the mood to play under the scorching sun. Cady n i cheered the rest who went to play first. Wasnt quite happy with the opposing team that footaged quite a couple of times. But its alright, jus a game yeah? I guess i was cranked up at that time. Cady and i kept shouting FOOTAGE!!! or REFREE KAY LONG!!! As we yelled, we laughed over it. Haha. Cuz no one. Literally no one bothered about us. Haha. As usual, Kel n Ping took control of the game, leaving the rest of us supporting somehow. Fun and friendly match. At the end of it all, we tried taking a short cut, but ended up taking an even longer and tedious route. Its ok la, once bitten twice shy. Had lunch, special guest, Mastura!

Cabbed down to Indoor for duty. $7! The uncle was screwed up and went circles. I bind that attitude of his. I curse that attitude. Stupid man afterall. Small girls money also wanna cheat.
Served at North ent and saw the ppl running in when the door opened at SIS. 5000plus ppl were turned off that night. I managed to sneak out of the booktables into the hall. The meeting is fantastic. Ppl came in on hospital beds with layers blankets standing up and walk, wheel chair bound leaping out of their seats, stomach cancers being healed, deaf ppl hear and one with eye vision restored. It really is God's healing hands. Bu You Ni Bu Xing! Wasted man. My frens couldnt make it. :C Hope they can come down for Easter. C:

Next week would be another hetic week. Sy Rogers coming back. That time he shared bout his life, how he changed from a homosexual into someone God uses. Take the week end off and start Easter preparation. After that i can have a good rest. Busy March.

I cant wait to know DH results. Would it be A B or C? Probably not a D i hope. Such a long entry. I spent 1/2 an hour here blogging about my bitter sweet memories. C: Seriously, without Fugs, poly's gonna be boring. Its a different thing having fellow church mates and good pals at sch. Really cherish each and every fren God has brought to me. I hold their salvation in this little palms of mine. Brrr. Wad am i saying.

Monday, March 07, 2005

Lab session at 9am. Waste of time today. The air pressure or sumthing wasnt working too well. Couldnt cut cavities. Ended up drawing and filling Class2 table model. Not forgetting, crapping around with Cady Carmen Kel and Dr Ron. I smell some internal conflicts among the staff. Did i forget to mention, ONCE AGAIN? haha. Mdm E said someone didnt want ppl to use the com during lab sessions. Somehow the key board was removed. The conversation was quite FARNIE. (U realised the word FARNIE has funny and strange mixed in it?) And i guess both parties were rather.. heated up. = Ms C guai guai de went and take the keyboard out. Discussions bout this incident was damn funny during a quick 10min lunch with e gurls. Logical, yet hilarious prognosis we made. Pack up time's getting earlier and earlier. It used to be 1/2 hour before we session end. Today we left lab at 1140.
As usual, Hema's lecture is way too boring. And somehow.. She seem to have this sudden sense of humor, but not too pleasing to Fugs who have gotten used to such low lvl non-intellectual jokes. haha. Surely but truly, Leen and Cady tried their best to suck up to her by laughing at it. Probably trying to get into her good books cuz of the upcoming tests! Haha.
Reached home at 0135. Slept from 0150 till six plus. Can u imagine?! I slept my afternoon away! = Feeling really guilty now. I better start some solid star-dying. I mean, stardie-ing. No. Studying.

Friday, March 04, 2005

Yet, another wasted day. I dont know what i've done today. Anything but hitting the books. Ok, at least im done with GOP assignment.
With 1 sms, Dr Hema actually had the power to scare me out of my wits. Dental Hygiene test changed to Tues, PLUS Op Tech test somewhere next week, not sure when. Gosh. That makes it Tues-Dental Hygiene Wed-Dental Radiography Thurs/Fri-Op Tech. She sure knows how to arrange dates!!! God.
Mum was back to cook dinner before going back to night clinic. Before she left, we had this argument bout money. That i dont 'surrender' enough. Pls lor. Its almost all meals out (except occassional dinners like today) plus transport. And she went on bout my dad, then, suddenly, a long string of Hokkien vulgarities flew out. And no, my mum is not the sort of aunty, gossipping and 'swimming' in tiles every other day. She's English educated, rather smart and innovative. I really hate that attitude she has adopted from i-dont-know-where. Is that what her god taught her? I see her putting on this 'safety pin' before going out and in my heart, i really flared. One by one, i'll throw all the stuff i dont feel comfortable with.
It's like 6.30 now and i really dont have the mood to study after all that's happening at home. Things are getting worst these days. And i believe for better turn outs some day.

Thursday, March 03, 2005

School school school took up my mornin n half an afternoon! Lunch was ex. $2.40 for 3kinds of veg. At the beginning of the term, it was $2 for 2veg, 1meat. Then it became $2.40. I was already grumbling. And today, it is ridiculous! 3 veg, for $2.40! If i had taken lunch outside it'l probably be just $2.30. Can u believe this? Canteen at school is more pricey than hawker food outside. If i had a chance, i dont mind reporting this to the sch authorities. Were they in the midst of renewing their license at the start of the term, hence the lowered prices?
Had a small shop at J8 in search of ribbons, 'tissue' paper and hair clips. I wanna start on my craze!!!!! Sadly, i found NOTHING to my liking. Came back, beat from travelling.
I forgot to include my experience on my way home. I didnt know wearing Pink Gio Polo Tee and folded jeans with pumps would turn heads! For a moment, this not-so-good body of mine was indulged. Sadly, they were the lustful eyes of construction workers. And u'd never know how much i DETEST them. I'd love to slap them, cut their hair, break their hands and legs, then finally rip them apart. As i brisked past, one of them was whistling to the tune, Xiao Wei. The 1st line was ok. Then came the 2nd, it was a 'lao-honged' whistle. Man, i'd sure have a good laugh if i was with someone. I mean, laughing aloud, being alone, ppl would see me as................ U know wad i mean.
Watched my 2 'a-little-out-of-shaped' blackies swimming in their 2 feet tank. GOSH! They are SO CUTE! Sorted out my Dental Hygiene and Dental Radiography notes. I thought i'll hit the books today. But im feeling so lazy now. There's too many things undone and i dont know where to start!
Probably time for a nap first before waking up to FOOD GALORE. Muaaahahahaha.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Ever wondered what's the worst thing that can happen on a train?
Let me disclose.
Sitting beside a person smelling sour. And smelling sour is derived from an entire day out, sweating, i guess. I tell u. This feeling i had jus now on my way back is HORRID. I literally keep looking right. (He was on my left) But still, the 'perfumed' stench waffled to my nose. And its not very nice to get up suddenly. I was hoping for some old or pregnant lady to get onto the train. Especially at Novena / Toa Payoh, where TanTockSeng Hospital and elder ppl are, respectively. Serious. And i forgot to mention, some ppl must have thought im mad to be turning my head against the wind direction. Which girl would want their hair messed up. But i was left with no choice. I was desperate. Haha. If u smell bad occassionally, use talc or deodorant. It is cost effective and yet considerate. Nowadays, everything is so 'portable'. Jus dump it into your bag or something okays.
Im feeling so stressed out today. Since early morning.
And Viron has once again triggered my fire hormones. He cant make it at 2pm. Why? Meeting. Most probably SOCCER meeting. And shit. Excuse me. I avail my everyday and week to accomdate 'you'. And here 'u' are shitting to me that 'u' cant confirm what time 'u'll' reach? Pls hor. 'You' are already in sec2. You dont need me to tell 'you' the 101 ways of NOT upsetting ppl's schedule. Neither do 'u' need me to tell u how to use your pea brains and weigh the consequences of skipping tuition. U sure u can improve like that? Pls lor. I know u cant make it by 2pm, i'd gone to sch for lab work. Shucks. And now, i cant go to sch after tuition as i need to make it for BS. I'd burn you if i have the chance to.

Next comes my irritating brother. When i use the com(or rather, HIS com), he'll ask me to get lost when i've not even warmed the seat. Jus to chat with gurls i suppose. He keeps trying to find fault with me. And i feel like killing him. This instant. Yes. Sounds like Hide And Seek's Charlie David? Argh.

And dad irritated me further by ticking me off when i didnt off the lights. Cummon. I FORGOT. If i want to waste electricity intentionally, i'd have left the air con on instead of using the FAN.

And next, im so blanketi blank blank bout school stuff. I have to go back sch early in e morning tmr for amalgam fillings, den meet Kel up at 11am. Study abit in afternoon b4 CGM i guess. In 2 weeks after hols, i've to complete cutting 4 more 'holes' and filling them. Then, next week, Dental Radiography on Wed, Dental Hygiene on Fri. Im phreak out at the thought of next week. Will i be prepared for the tests?

I've wasted the 3rd day of my holiday. And i dont know what i've been doing. Seriously, i need some time management. For now, i'l try sitting down, cool myself off with MORE dark chocolates, sort out my notes and hopefully start studying before Prince Viron arrives in his sedan for tuition. Go out for BS and then do cg bulletin when i get home.

Still in dilema whether to go for Prata Supper tonite with Den, Cherry and Alvin. I guess not, most likely. It'll be 10 after BS, reach prata house at 1030? U want my life?