Friday, October 31, 2008

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Greetings my friends.

Its my first off day since the last examination paper (on tues), which was followed by work till 9pm on Wed and Thurs.
It was nice sleeping in till 11, then i started sulking (literally). Initial plans for the afternoon doing shopping/lunching were foiled when dd had to stay on in the office.
So i sat down, right here, thinking.. What do i have, what do i need?

I have an urge to go shopping for a bag, I need (money, of cause) to excuse dd from shopping cause of his knee injury.
I have a hint of disappointment cause its been way too long since i had some time away from routine and material enjoyment, I need to look at the situation from a different perspective; i cannot be selfish.
And most importantly,
I have a man who has piles of work to be done at the office; i need to be understanding.

So i have 2 choices; i can sit here, wallow in self pity, pout till my orbicularis oris muscles become fatigue. Or head out on my own, like i always do.

At this very point, dd called from the office! He'll be leaving the office at 3ish and we'll be heading to the IT Mall! I can get an errand done (the spoilt speakers), and RCity has some of my usual shopping outlets! AND.. We'll be able to spend time together, again!

Ok there's MSquare, RCity, STec, what else huh? PenPlaza? And coolbean shophouses at SeahSt!
I shall be a good girl and refrain from venturing all over the CBD. RCity should quench my shopping thirst.
So its happy friday!
Erm. Should i wear a dress. Or go in my Pj's like a resident from TheRafHotel?
Better In Time - Leona Lewis

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

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Hooray! Exams are finally over. Nevermind the results. They'll be out on 4th December.
Pardon my choice of words, but i'm so f.king elated semester one is over.
Dinner celebration tonight; im so gonna eat BEEF.

There're so many practical things to do, like booking the Sg Flyer cause mum sponsored us tickets, getting back into shape by exercising, renewing the practising certificate, settling outstanding bills, retrieving my internet banking user name and password, tidying my lecture notes, put up law textbook and notes for resale, clearing out the closet of old clothes, cleaning dust off the fan, air-con filter, window grill and blinds, revising the periodontal chart at work; basically, getting my life back into order.

Then there're things that satisfy the sloth in all of us, like doing some window shopping just to keep my fashion sense sane, laze the day away doing nothing productive/fruitful, be a couch potatoe (catching stupidly funny sitcoms on tv5, my favourite being TheN00se)

Work was hell loada shit on Wed, for i had an onset of allergic rhinitis. Even after taking 2 different kinds of antihistamines (ya, overdoes), my nose went on dripping like a tap and i had no control over multiple (like.. >5 ah choos at a time?) sneezes. I had to place wads of tissue paper between my nostrils and the face mask to act like a mucus shield.
Boss sang me part of a song, tittled, Ruldoph The Red Nose Reindeer.
Then there was this kid with an incredible imagination and magnification of pain. I got so frustrated coaxing her to do scaling, she got away with a polishing and a referral to the pedodontist. The only good that came out from the session with her was, my nose stopped dripping for awhile. For she was seated high and 90% upright, such that i was standing infront of her and my head neednt bend down.
Must be due to the environment in the dental office, coupled with a lower immune system from lack of sleep. I'm considering whether to go for Functional Endoscopic Sinus Surgery after payment of my bond or not. I think it'd be a good investment. It really affects my work performance.
I dont need such episodes of running nose to tell me that health is wealth. I get the drift, Mother Nature.

To top everything off, my 2months old x-m!n! speakers are spoilt. :( I think there's a one year warranty.

Post work dinner and a get-together session with K&C was great, as usual. We had a good near 3hrs of heart to heart talk and exchange of hot juicy news. Didnt take photos for i was the red nose reign dear and C started tearing after some talk. The only cam whore was K, who wanted to capture C's baboon-ass crying face so she'll look prettier in the photo. Hahahaha. Ya la, my friend very strange.

The cab fare home was swift and $6! Skipped the midnight charge-happiness! And come 11th/12th of Novemeber, the 30cents diesel charge will be levied off.

Its Thursday, 1238pm now, and im suffering from inertia effect to go to work. Looking forward to dinner tonight with EB.
Oh yes, that man bought me 2 sports bra, in fashion fuchsia and maya blue, so that i'd be spared from wires while dining near his place. Or is it a hint that i need to start an exercise regime. Haha.

DS Lite&other parts finally sold. Yayyy yayyy!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

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Some random snippets.
She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5
I'm uber glad im able to sell of my DSLite i bought bout a year back; going into the funds for my next tattoo. Passing it on to an ex poly mate, now collegues in the same field. I lost bout $50%, but it beats getting nothing at all. Its barely touched (after the initial 2 week hype) cept for weekly-fortnightly maintenance.

Just returned home from work at 5+pm; granny was at my place. She stayed over yesterday last night, questioned my whereabouts (hello, mum doesnt even question me!) and went on and on bout some issues of life; which i wasnt very keen on listening but heard nonetheless. My beautifully arched eye brows caught her attention. Tried it on her and i thought she had no need for an eye brow pencil; a brush and powder+highlighter would do her just fine. However, as with all old folks, who have gotten used to the idea of using (only) an eye brow pencil, was adamant bout its need. See, she's much fairer than i am, hair redder mine, and using a pencil (that i use) just wont do! Well, suits her if she wants to look like a wayang doll.
All i wanted after a long day at work was shower nap and study.
Good lord, save moi!

Its Sunday and i'm getting quite stressed up over Comm Law. There's too much to read and i cant recall much of what i read(ed). I hate to say this but 'i just want to scrape'. Sighs.
The effort i put in during the mid-semester test is/has going/gone down the long kang.
And the wayang show downstairs is making a din. No idea what procession's going on.
Mum said, 'go over and study la'. I wish, but not tonight. I miss Ellice.
Its Deepavali a public holiday and i've got to bury myself in insanely boring English law. Shit.

But it's alright. 1.5 more days and i'm gonna have 2 months of pure work and play days. Hooray!

I want to exercise, meet friends for long lazy coffee sessions, throw pack clean, and be a sloth.

*Inserted post dinner, 9pm.
Does it matter whether i'm still part of the stat board or not? I doubt.
Doubt i'd be in purple anytime soon even if i had stayed on. My clinical scrubs are somewhat like what the Purples are wearing; Wine being a pleasing colour aside, i guess there's this sub-concious part of me screaming, 'freedom reign!' Not that i'm complaining bout what i used to do. It's totally fine since other non clinical duties like ordering stock, being a receptionist, cleaning, etc. are part of the job scope. It's just me. I want to do what a clinician is trained to do. I want to take my time and manja little children. I want to have space to educate the public about their individual needs. I dont want to drill and fill like there's no tomorrow, worst, to plug in mercury fillings knowing that they do no good, and get happy when excess mercury surfaces on the top. Actually, amalgam fillings is a nice material to work with. The working time is so long, saliva doesnt affect adherence, and once locked into the cavity, flushes beautifully against the walls and that makes me happy-i cant deny. Anyway. I'd probably shut myself away from him right after the D!ve Fest, if i was still in the stat board.

I have no concerns bout our age differences which some people call a gap. I finally know what chemistry, as in interaction of characters, is. That man is my boyfriend, my next best friend, my listening ear, my encouragement, my patient, my cook and the maid. And the people i'd have an affair with is the various facets of his split awesome personality.
Or race issues? Whoever says that things would work out chinese-chinese? Or at least, my parents didn't. I want a happy marriage, even if it means having to sacrifice sleep time to talk things make out (just to add spice to my very boring speech), living a frugal life, doing grocery shopping alone, etc. Anything but planning for kids and/or giving up my job.
Even mum had qualms bout me being with him. She was looking at things from his perspective, not mine. (How unfair.) But not anymore. Over her birthday dinner, she see that we clique really well, and he gets along well with Ellice.
So all of you can say anything you want to say bout us. You can judge or laugh at me-i don't care, really. Don't be cynical, for your own good-what goes around comes around, some call that karma.
What matters is that we're happy, at least for now. And i hope this journey knows no end.

p.s. gave the blog a facelit; it's been black and white for 2 years, since the break up with Cws. i think i really am happiee jolliee candiee. *ya ya ya im a ninnie. Ninny i mean.

*Inserted 27th October, 5.50am.
Morning Earthlings.

I miss my poly mates. I miss the post exam discussion everyone shared.
Im not enjoying uni life, the social part at least. Go into exam hall alone, come out alone. Oh at least there's a discussion with a classmate(not sure if 'friend' here is appropriate) over the net.
It's hard to imagine me saying this, but it's not fun attending lectures without doing anything naughty once in awhile. Naughty doesnt mean skipping lectures anymore (dates back to July 2004, uh huh fug sai). I cant imagine doing anything outrageous or naughty now-im a loner and a saint. Any ideas? Like dressing up for school? Joker, french maid, vampire, high school girl.. Oh i know. I can dress up as a

bus driver..


Or do The Medusa..


Or be Oprah opera singer for a day..


Or easy peasy, be a hedge pee bee nurse!


Right in my wardrobe, my dream Halloween costume and the fantasy of ALL men.
Praise to god.

You really think i dare to wear that meh? Maybe if i alter it right up till my butt cheeks, don fishnet stockings and patent leather high boots la. And not forget to wear a MASK.

Ahhahahahaha. 7am and i'm still online. Gonna pang sai and start muggin'!

Happy Diwali, my love.

Friday, October 24, 2008

One More To Go

The Diary Of Jane (Acoustic) - Breaking Benjamin

Hello loves,
I just returned from an examination and long lunch with dad&sis.

Had wanted to get up early and do last minute revisions, but being tucked under the covers this chilly morning got the better of me.
I had to cab to school cause dad overslept and didnt want to risk me being late for the paper. Thankful for clear traffic despite a rainy morning.
Ironically, the thought of going for an examination's quite exciting, for the last i had was more than a year ago.

Vividly remember the gruelling late nights early morning study sessions for Den+al Hyg!ene paper, accumulating sleep debts, glasses of red bull drowned in ice cubes, staring at the exam questions trying real hard to recall bits of information, leaving the hall before the exam ended after a desperate attempt squeezing out passages of nonsensical answers, etc.

Those days are over, at least for preparations for Business Statistics. I had my fair share of sleep and net time, and during the paper, was fighting against time substituting numbers into the formula. There were only few things to remember; most of it being standard answers that would probably appear in PartB of the paper.

I'm so glad half of the battle is over, with Commercial Law to worry about. I've not started at all, and it really worries me though it's an open book test. The thing with open book test is being able to pick out points from the case and apply it
Then i tell myself, there's no point in worrying; you've just gotta start somewhere.

So here i am, 4.14pm and still lazing the afternoon away. Better start somewhere; attending a birthday party tonight!

LadyBoss just called, my work schedule's gonna be reshuffled for the Nov Dec.
At which i dont mind, though i now have (one) more commitment(s). *Whisper: EB's the most understanding man, right?
Moreover, TheClinic has been very giving in my schedule on days i have lectures.
Well, life's like that; give and take.

Had this sudden thought while reading, 'a good friend is one who doesnt blaspheme you, or have idle talk with others though it doesnt hurt you.'
Strange.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Life's Like That



My Wednesday At Work In Retrospect

The 3year old was tearing in fear as she entered. As i stooped to her level, she gave me a hug as i reassured her.
That feeling is indescribable, for someone who doesn't fancy little children.
And the compliments from her mother. :)

A family who were 40mins late for their appointment, who kept asking how long they'd have to wait, who's lil angel ended up in immense psychological pain after local infiltration, was prompted return for another attempt but refused causing stressful overruns, ended up wailing and not getting constructive treatment done.
Who caused the next patient to wait for almost an hour (this stresses me!), who meowed at the front desk but eventually returned. Thank god she was forgiving; or were the staff and i tactful.
I learnt to take a deep breath and move on, without carrying a baggage displaying ill professionalism to the next case.

The fair shair of caffeine/whatever stains, splatter from the prophyjet and fatigued hands and lower back.

Had a drink with some friends post work. In my 1/2 U; t shirt and scrubs pants. I had wanted to head home for a good rest, but the company was too hard to resist. Moreover, its' been ages since we met up. They gave me a pair of uber cute toe socks!

Sharing all these with my EB when my best friend called for company while going out for a puff.
I forgot what we talked about, but it was nice being the subtly vulgar real me. Got so excited after the 8mins call, the conversation with EB took a different path; was all giggly, loud and happy.

Kaya toast and teh peng siew dai for breakfast is yummy!

Just received good news from EB, who went for a medical appointment regarding his right knee. No surgery needed! Yayy! Which means.. no knives no anaesthesia no risk, eau naturale bodily healing, no need to drive (him), no need to help with housework, no need to pamper him upsized. EVEN MORE HAPPINESS FOR ME AITE!

*study break time, for the nth time. Lol.

CN just called; time check:4.47pm.
Cant wait for Fugs gathering thou we bitch bout the same o' issues. Organiser who's still in the ghar-ment sector, please spare a thought for our bond-break,broken,broke pockets.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Greyish Daze

I miss \/\/eisheng's parents, occassionally. But i feel too ashamed to drop by for a visit. Im no longer on talking terms with their son, and i dont think i deserve their welcome.

We spent a good 4 years together; and i cant recall much of it.
Was there love, i began to question myself. Or is it just me; i forget memories too easily. Rather, how can we define love?
Maybe he'll reappear during the last few moments of my flashbacks when i pass on- well, who knows.

I wish i can thank him for the good 4 years we spent together, going to places, trying out new stuff, etc.
I wish he'd know that there was no cheating; we were pure, but somehow it died. Or maybe i changed. Maybe we changed. Maybe either of us couldn't adapt to the change.
I wish i can thank him for helping me during my O level days-he changed my destiny.

On social networking accounts, i still see the same person i used to cherish and love. The guitar, the thick eyebrows, the metrosexual fashion sense, the wide smile. The difference is, that smile is no longer gonna be at me, for me. Tunes from the guit are no longer gonna ring for me.
Its been more than a year since we broke up; let all these be bygones.

I hope he finds someone who loves him for the person he really is; and not because of his future prospects. He is a family man, an exceptional gentleman; albeit a little hot tempered.
I hope Aunty and Uncle are doing better than never, enjoying their pre/retirement years in blessed health and joy.

On my side, i dated a variety of men after the break up and i'm not ashamed i did. Only after, did i know what's good for me, who are the decepticons, who left me in the lurch, what it felt like to not be myself, how superficial it was to dress up all prim and proper just for a drink in town, etc.

Things are changing for me, too fast. But im ready to embrace this change.
Its funny how times flies, how i finally broke my bond for another experience, how i am committed to a man now, how i can finally accept the idea of living with another being i've not seen the past 21 years of my life. Sometimes i question myself, how did i make it thus far, what did i do to deserve all these.
But i guess its just how life has its way of working things out, even in the dimmest moments. Its just about holding on until the sun shines again.
Now i see my rainbow.

03 The Trouble With Love Is - Kelly Clarkson

Friday, October 17, 2008

What's In The

Fridge's Chill Compartment

Cheese
Ham
Tub of Yogurt
Fruits
Canned Rambutan
Milo
Red Bull
Beer
Water
Coke
Fresh Milk
Brown Rice Soya Bean Milk
Wine
Choya Plums
Dark Chocolate with Nuts
Dark Chocolate with Mint
Sng Buay
Wet Tissue
Ketchup/Chilli Sauce
Soup Stock

Recent Roll in iPh0t0
Quantity over quality shots.
Out of 32 cannot make it shots, I think this photo most chio larh. What say you?

I should ALWAYS open up my eyes, arch my eyebrows a wee bit, bring my head forward, chin down a little, stomach in, chest out.

iTunes
Playing h0me by Daugh+ry, and this verse never fail to jump right at me.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all


Grocery Shopping List
Chicken Essence
Red Bull
Toilet Paper

Wish List

Tiffany's Letter Lock Charm Bracelet / Return To Tiffany Heart Tag Toggle Bracelet / Tiffany 1837 or Alphabet Lock Bracelet
Bikini
Oakley's Mini Crosshair in brown/gold
4 pointer diamond ear studs-the stock market is gonna buy me this, eventually.
iMac 20" 2.66GHz
Luxury timepiece (casual & office)
Mini Shadow Mask
Scubapro Jet Fins & high cut good rubber sole booties DARLING GOT EM FOR ME EVEN BEFORE I SUBMITTED THIS POST! HAPPINESS!
Eau naturale fast action up a cup boob cream! Haha!
Wads of cash & shopping vouchers
Fully paid trip for 2 to Maldives

And a new dress to wear on my birthday!

Actually.. i dont need any of the above material goods.. I get by without them.
I want my friends and family members to be happy and healthy. I want to do well at school. I want financial intelligence. I want my marriage to work out, in future.

At baseline, i want a place in Dentistry. Sighs.

Anyways, marriage is akin to one of life's milestone. And my friend's proposing with a 1.02 pointer rock. (JUST THE RIGHT SIZE DUDE!)
And im sincerely happy for him. We could had hit off, but time wasnt on our side.
I'm glad he found his soul partner, and maybe, i've found mine too. Only time will tell.

Trace was so sweet to send this in the midst of preparing for her examinations, 'Happy one month to the both of you. Glad you guys found and love each other. No replies needed, just smile and cherish each other. ..'
At which came shocking; we didnt even realise. Moreover, everythings happening like a lightning bolt.

i heart this woman!

There's this group of friends in my life i've know for a good 9 years, yeah, since secondary one. We had (on off) moments of togetherness; i disappeared, somehow. Magically, i find my way back to a bond they share.
They are an awesome bunch of fun and joy. They are not perfect people; no one is.
This 21st, i'm gonna have dinner with them at Shav!lla. One of the boy's gonna cook, and we're there to support. This boy and i had our ups and downs, and i thought we'll never be on friendly talking terms again. But i was (just) proven wrong when he invited me, personally, to a dinner with the rest. I find it amazing how everything piece up in the end.

I cant wait to get exams over and done with. Its been too long since i had a saturday free of agenda; there was school to attend, errands to run, etc. I want to .. Sleep the morning and afternoon away-ya, the kind you wake up feeling like shit cause you feel you've wasted the entire day. Bitch bout life over coffee with some friends. Get on the Sg Flyer with sis and EB. Spend a day in JB having brunch, ice cream and coffee, catch a show and return to Sg as pirates. Laze the day away with The Loved One and probably(highly unlikely) help out in some household chores. Get back to the Tango routine; learn a new dance. Be a blessing to the less fortunate. Make plans for my uber mini scale birthday gathering. Attend Ric's early birthday celebration.

Friday, October 10, 2008

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Some random snippets..

While studying, a flash of my next body art (read: tattoo) design came to mind!

Gonna ponder over it for some weeks, maybe months. Big scale project y' know!

Been itching for a dental mission trip. Its tiring business but it brings great joy and fulfilment.

Was looking at old photos and it brought back many memories. Bitter sweet.

Your Highness butt is _______ having sat on the wooden chair without a cushion for too long.

Sighs. Gotta renew practising cert by Nov 08.. Money, Money, Money - ABBA

I'm gonna (most likely) sign up for Tango3 in the midst of exams. 24th morning exam, 24th evening 1st lesson! But on the other hand, i've been out of the Tango scene for a month and counting! How now brown cow.

Surprised mylove with a gift, at which he was pleasantly surprised.
I realised, that as much as we should work within our bugets, we shouldnt give someone something that doesnt cost us anything.

In a relationship, i think it's important to respect each other's personal space; giving ourselves time to hang out with our friends and be with the family. Anyone can leave and abandon us, but it is the family who we eventually go back to, friends whom we find support and comfort in, etc. And i guess mylove and i balanced that well. I guess most of you must be facing some form of neglect from me, apologies on my part, but i really am not 24/7/365 with mylove. I've been working, settling some personal issues and preparing for my exams. Oh boy, speaking of which, I really am way behind planned exam study schedule. Anyways.
I like it that we are courteous and enjoy serving each other. No pun intended. I meant a simple 'thank you darling', 'i appreciate you' and little gestures like pouring a glass of water, placing the flipflops on the shoe rack, tooth-paste.ing the toothbrush, doing the dishes, preparing yogurt and fruits, etc. I'm grateful that he takes the effort to wake earlier/pay ERP to have a quickie (breakfast@my area's market lah!) before going to work.

And i think the foundation of our relationship lies in communication. I cant stress enough how much we talk bout our days' happenings and issues bothering us, track our days with each other in a log book and address issues/words that the other did/said that hurt our feelings.
To top everything off, he gets along well with my sister and my best friend. They are important people in my life, and they have to approve of who i am with/what i am doing. I get along well with his collegue(s) too; we always laugh ourselves silly while out with them.
I can be tired from running errands, work and studying but am pampered. I want to remain understanding, dependable yet independent and erm, loyal.
After an ordeal, we've spend countless joyful moments together in each others' company. It's been an awesome ride that we hope knows no end.

Had prata breakfast with his collegue, Spongebob&g.f. before heading to J.B.. While waiting for the modification of his car, we went jalan jalan, had a hair cut&treatment (mine costed RM150! Quite ex eh!!), pedicure(Spongebob) and lunch@KennyR.Roasters!
They thonged my hair, straight. Straight hair is much more manageable than my frizzy/curly wurlies. I feel like straightening my tresses and chopping them off to chin level. Maybe short hair is the thing to do NOW. Then back to growing my eau natural curly wurlies, all over again. Anyways.
We've been wanting to go for a photoshoot; checked out a studio at J.B. and it's gonna cost us RM1200 for 4 outfits & makeup, 21 pages of 8R photos and an 8R table top photo+frame. Putting that idea off for now.. Topping up bout $380 can fly us both to Perth in Feb 09!

14th October 2008, Tuesday

Some people wait for things to happen, it's ok if it doesnt.
Some make things happen, they do whatever it takes to get to where they want to be.
Some dont know whats happening.

Clinic photoshoot shots are out and it's obvious who's photogenic and who's not. I belong to the latter. I look fat in 95% of the photos. My usually doe shaped eyes way underrated, my supposedly angled jawline showing meat, my button nose made even more button. Horrible creature.

I cannot tolerate people who always talk bout themselves. They are the ones who can barely hold a conversation. Nuff said; Utter disgust.

Sg's heading for a recession, or are we already in?
I cannot stand my brother waking late, while the day away, meets his friends, play electronic games, be with his girl; everything but work. But it's consolation that he's doing well at school; at least thats what he says. He tells me he'll start looking for a job 2 weeks later after the rush is over. Thing is, would there be one? Anyways.
Cookie, a pet name for a guy friend, recently spent 100 on CKJeans, 300 on Oakley's and lost 7 in a game of mah-jong. That's the way to go, buddy. Save the economy! :P

I think there's a healthy, silent competition going on between mylove and i in FaceB's W0rd Challenge. HAHA! Or at least thats what im thinking. "Ruth, dont be sensitive larh", is what im trying to drill myself.
Minutes after i wrote the above statement, i realised he challenged me to a game of W.C.!
HOW AUDACIOUS.
Shall score ZERO for the 1st round. Afterall, cannot hurt a man's ego, isnt it?

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

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Song of the moment: The Long Day Is Over - Norah Jones

Greetings, my friends.

My day yester was a black gloomy one.

The Company arranged for a photoshoot and lunch@/-\stons. I was so camera shy (really!) and lunch was nothing to rave bout. To top off the generally substandard service, my steak came medium-done when i asked for medium-rare. The blood and elasticity makes all the difference-they don't know.

Arrived on time for medical appointment at RH, and had to wait an hour for a 10mins review. I HATE WAITING without being told for how long. Overruns are common business, i understand. But i could had done more in that hour. I could had met a friend for a chit chat, i could had gone studying at a cafe, i could had made use of my time instead of (aimlessly) browsing fashion magazines. Horrible. And that consult burnt another hole in my already burnt pocket.

But its okay. If money could dissolve a worry, its not too big a problem is it? Afterall, money can be earned and saved again. :)

Exams and time scheduling is freaking me out too. I've got no time left to study thoroughly. Wish i had started earlier-we always say that, and never get down to it nor learn from past experiences, do we?

Situations that attrite me most are arguments. 80% of the time my brother and i get into each other's way, he gets on my nerves. Remaining 20% is bout asking the other to bathe quickly, to purchase/collect/pick up something.
I think its only right to knock before entering a closed door, and not yell back at me (ya lah, i yelled first) for changing in MY room behind CLOSED doors. Fucktard, he is. I think all he needs now is a breakup(seriously), get a job, contribute to the household, finish his education, work and contribute to the household. And so he thinks he deserve more wage, more complicated projects at his previous job, etc. I think he doesnt quite understand what's wrong with him, his attitude and the concept of paper-chase in Sg. I hate seeing him sleeping till early afternoon. Or worst, ask where i've been when i return from work at 9ish. He should make himself scarce. Or just get out of my way.

I LOVE MY SISTER THOU. She can throw her clothes around and i can clear it. She can take up 3/4 of the bed and i can sleep on a quarter. I'd do anything for her.

Im so thankful for my.love, who on an empty stomach, waited for me to open up and tell of my day's happenings, comforted me, offered help, and wiped my tears away.
He's my happy pill and the best thing that has happened. I couldnt ask for more. I dont deserve this.
No friends, he is not just another date.
This time, its true. Or at least thats what i think. I want to do my best and not perform any stunts to traumatise our friendship and love. I dont know what will become of us.
If there is love and an effort to work things out, i guess all issues can be resolved, or at least compromised. I want a happy marriage (if i do get married) and not end up like Mum and Dad. Their relationship has, in some way or other, placed an impact on us, children. But i want to conquer my own fate. And live till a reasonable age with my other half, holding hands and going for a morning exercise and breakfast.

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This morning, Ping showed me a blog of a girl, who celebrated her 16th on a boat, which i think the rich call a yatch. And her 18th in a ShangGL presidential suite. For what huh, im still wondering. All that running around in skintight dress, booze, noise and mess. I'd love to be spared.
Most of my friends are done with their 21st, and im pondering bout what to do with mine.
Oh well, nevermind. I'll see to it after my last paper on the 28th.

" I'm not interested in age. People who tell me their age are silly. You're as old as you feel. "

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Being In Love

Isnt it strange, how a turn of events changed my entire perspective.
Isnt it strange, living in reality that feels like a dream.

It was an affirmative talk and hold in the dark,
It was the acts of service that touched my heart.

Isnt it strange, why i waited so long to find a love so very strong.
It is you that made change in my heart.

Isnt it lovely everytime we talk,
with dimmed lights burning candles,
and tunes of romance
accompanying your glittering eyes oh so intense
accompanying your depth of life oh so deep
reaching into matters within our hearts.

Isnt it silly of me to tear when we talk,
it made me realise how important you have become.

Isnt it lovely to hold you every night,
turn down the lights
and sleep real tight.

Isnt this a fantasy,
or is it ecstasy.
Let this be love
let it grow.

Thursday, October 02, 2008

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Good afternoon, earthlings.

I just went for an op (dont ask if you're not told) on Tues and Mon.amour's been taking great care of me, attending to my needs and looking into every detail just to make sure im making my way to speedy recovery. After drowning in utterly disgusting essence of fish and home cooked meals with tender loving care, i was up and about in no time!

I decided to whip up a dinner for Mon.amour. Goes without saying, my beloved sis and her mother is in for a treat too. After all, its easier to cook for 4 than 2, isn't it.

Went marketing (getting everything myself for the first time) and returned home with chicken carcasses, breast (meat), (large) prawns, chye sim, corn, garlic, ginger and onion. Got down to washing and ripping fats off the chicken and soup was set to brew.

On Tuesday, i was informed that my only case today is at 6.30pm. This morning, i was told to return to work at 2pm. Right after Puasa, the slots were >65% filled-i guess i have allah to thank for. Or perhaps not-i cant go home and prepare dinner!

Determined, or maybe stubborn, i had everything marinated, washed and chopped before heading for work. I want to do it today-my way or no way. My estimate's bout 20mins to get dinner servedpacked, very yummy and piping hot.

Menu
*chye sim with prawns stir fried in garlic onions and ginger (have to learn to live by 2+2; 2 servings of fruits and veg daily)
*baked (chicken) breasts (men are so in love with dang-dangs aren't they)
*corn soup simmered with chicken carcass and 7 red dates. I forgot the carrots.
*fragrant thai rice

Apologies if i've bored you with my long winded story. Cant you tell i'm finally, seriously in love?!

Bon appetit!