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I do think i lead a highly stressful life, by choice.

Timetable for the next semester at school is out; intensive class from Mon to Thurs for 3 weeks in July, followed by night class on Mon Tues and Thurs in End July and August, and Mon Tues and Sat in September.
Seriously, what the fuck is SIM doing?
What's stressing me out is my work schedule.
Crossing my fingers and hoping all turns out well.

So you see, Months 12 01 06 07 i fret over work and school timetable.
Months 03 05 08 10 i fret over tests/examinations.
That leaves me with 02 04 09 stewing; be it for test/exam preparations.
Thankfully, 11, my birthday month, gives me some breathing space.
To top it all off, the whole time i'll be working; treating patients, reading, watching CE videos, thinking bout ways to bring change and improvement. All in an attempt to keep myself updated with the latest treatment techniques.
Nobody except myself know if I'm giving my best at work.

And then there's school fees to pay for. Sigh.

My dear friends, if you're taking a degree with SIM, i highly advise you to stay on with the Board. At least there's 18+4days leave, school kiao-karholi days. Plus everything is routine, isn't it great?!
Or, make SIM's erratic timetable known to your prospective employer and join a clinic as a part timer.

Kel, thanks for making the trip down last night. Its great to see you and Ric! There wasn't enough bitch time. Else i might break down into tears, whenever i think bout work+school!

Recently, there have been an influx of pediatric patients who had traumatic falls previously. The first was a terror; the parent more so, compared to the kid. Thank god boss was around, he took over.
I felt so incompetent, i teared in the pantry, with a laugh, as i confided in the nurses!
On hindsight, i should have taken an OPG instead of a PA. That'd save me from managing gag tendencies and unnecessary exp.
And i think i have an issue with putting my point across, in a way that is easy to understand. My guess is, i have a serious lack of knowledge on management of traumatic injuries to primary dentition. And when i am not quite sure of cause and effect, i can't present systematically. Content wise, i did tell the parent what boss told. But he was way better in listing them out, and answered their concerns to the point.
Case presentation requires great understanding on subject matter, practice and learning from others.
I still feel very incompetent, but am thankful for guidance that has been offered to me at my workplace.
I need to master taking anterior peri apicals, esp for children, placing rubber dams and building pretty composite restorations!

The other resident doc has gained tremendous respect for her fussy quality of work! I've seen her full case presentation once, and i'm secretly hoping for more chances. good ah she.

Hell Yeah!

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I think i should learn and be a selfish person. Anyway, they don't appreciate it, so i see no point in doing something for them? I was referring to my brother and my mother.
To cut the long story short, i was at The cr0cs sale. I know these ethylene vinyl acetate footwear spells comfort but is way too pricey at its original retail price. This event has thus made way to my TopPriority list for the weekend.
I got mum 2 pairs of footwear-athens and juneau. She gave the green light (via mms) for this before i made purchase.
When she came back, she commented that she doesn't like it and prefers this design instead.
I got so furious i walked out.
And my brother? He likes the pair i chose for M. No, i'm not making a swop cause M has an identical one! Then he blamed me for making a lousy decision. What fuck? I didn't even have to get anything for him! He said he'll wear it, that's all.

I'm asking for more than a thankyou. I'm asking to be appreciated for 1) making the trip down (and back) to the Far Eastern part of Sg (thank god M sent me there before heading to work) 2) waiting for almost an hour alone in the q. 3) spending my off day squeezing my way around with thousands of people 4) looking out for the Juneau from others who were letting it go cause they have big feet. 5) waiting for another half hour for payment 6) wasting mms.
I'm not going to spend on them anymore. I always got them apparels when i went overseas, or if i see something nice (and reasonably priced) while shopping, but have never, ever, heard a word of thanks.
Or maybe i just don't know what they like. Afterall, we've never been close. What i got them were simple clothes that jack and jill would wear up and down the hill.
Sigh. I spent monies, and i don't feel happy. I should only spend on myself. And maybe my sister.
Oh, she likes the flipflops!
And cause i don't feel appreciated, all i want is my money back. At least i'll feel better, i think.
If this is what life has taught me, too bad if family love turns out like this.

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Dear all,
i have a love hate relationship with shopping, especially on weekdays-the shop gets too spacious, i feel too comfortable. And another love hate relationship with taking taxis-the erp i have to pay on a weekday noon on an empty road, just to get to town.
I spend spend spend, like there's no tomorrow.
Just the other day, i bought myself a pair of pants and a pink collared shirt. And on the very same day, i took a cab, only consolation being it wasn't midnight yet.
And i thought, that should be it.
Today, i cabbed, again. It was raining.
And i bought myself makeup. The essentials, eye brow pencil and foundation. The foundation was a whopping $14+$58. 14 for an empty case and 58 for foundation with spf15. Yes, M.@.C again. I tried B.br0wn and it my skin peeled worst than a shedding snake. Well, most of the time i was shopping for M, and he's got new shorts for the upcoming dive trip and a little present for a new job!
All these things money can buy. It doesnt make me happy, strange. It breaks my heart when the cashier swipes my card, when i sign on the evil dotted line, when i have to smile and thank the person who assisted in my evil doings.

And food. Oh my. Expensive dining. Too many.
Friday-KennyR0gers. We had a quart chicken each and shared 4 side dishes. Black pepper and herbs on the chicken skin was too good to skip. I ate them all.
Sunday-Shin0bu Dining. Its hard to describe great thick slices of raw fish when chomped.
Monday-CrystaIJadeK!tchen. Simple lunch with friends, $14. goodness gracious.

I love M so much. I never knew i could love and care like this again.
All i know is, Money cant buy M.

Its tuesday, the start of my work week.

I've not been feeling very happy the past few weeks, even after exams were over.
I don't know what can make me happy, worst, i don't know why i'm feeling lousy.
Maybe work hasn't been too positive. I'd love to see change, but in what? There have been changes these few months, and i'm really clueless what's next.
Maybe i haven't put in much effort for the recent examinations.
Maybe i've not listened enough dental talks, maybe i've not been reading enough.
Maybe life is just a routine.

Everyone's going on a holiday. To Europe, to Australia. I'm just looking forward to the dive trip in June. I hope i enjoy myself buckets. Please let no one step on my tail.
I'm becoming a much grouchier person of late.
I miss the old self.

post exam post

Hello everybody, thanks for the patient wait. I've (just) finished my last paper; and that marks the end of my first year in varsity. Yes, how time flies. Soon'd be the end of my 'bond' and some of you would join me in celebrations, while the rest of you have 365more days to go-complain not, you got more ka-ching than us!

Exams are finally over and i wish i could say i did my utmost best. I can't live in denial anymore, thinking that the numerous number of leave i applied were spent fruitfully. Truth is, i slept or idled most of it away, did last minute revisions, tried to cram everything into my puny brain, to no avail. I don't exactly regret my decision to fall into Slumberland-the z spells were too overwhelming. What i've learnt from this semester is to start 'reveision' really early, and keep reading the same thing over and over again for the entire semester. I guess this is what adults call consistent studying. Sighs i don't know what my grades would be. Shouldn't be anything near spectacular, but should be able to scrape through.. Or maybe it won't be that bad? I'll let you know in June. In any case, it's over and there's no way i'm gonna spend $4k repeating the entire semester. So i shall put a full-stop to this post exam hoo ha. . Oh wait. I forgot to mention how dull and lifeless my skin has became due to an excessive intake of caffeine and trans fats, lack of fluids, exfoliation and moisturiser.

Now there're a thousand and one things on my to do list, here're some on priority.
Look for 2 Taurus' present.
Eradicate rubbish, top up tissue box and its misc items from my room.
Meet up with pockets of friends.
Get on the exercise and eat healthy mode.
Start going for dance practices.
Gardening.