There're so many things i want to do, yet i couldnt wait for the day i die.

I'm still feeling depressed.

Right now, im thinking of diving, not just in the murky waters of Singapore, but at somewhere really beautiful, like Sipadan, and alot of other places we've not explored.

I'd like to climb mountains. I'd like to sit at the Grand Canyon, meadows and gaze at how beautiful Earth is without high rise buildings.

I'd like to put on my boots and build a snowman.

I'd like to help others who are very much less fortunate, to be born in a place without proper sanitisation, governance and health care.

I'd like to change my destiny. Cause i hate my job. Really.

I don't see myself working as an 0HT for the rest of my life. It'$ not worth the aching shoulders.

im feeling so down i want to go out but have got no where to go.
im feeling so down i want to eat but there's nothing else i feel like eating.

I've been extremely out of sorts the past few days.
Since Tuesday, to be exact. Nevermind what happened at work.

My night's sleep was filled with nightmares.. of accidents, deaths and all things unhappy.
Then came Saturday. I ate. and ate, and ate alot.

I know i binge when i'm down. This time, i binge cause i know i'm depressed.

Maybe it's time to quit.