You Are My Sunshine, My Only Sunshine. You Make Me Happy, When Skies Are Grey. You Never Know Dear, How Much I Love You. Pls Dont Take My Sunshine Away.

After one has removed the carefully polished mask, are you able to overlook it, accept it and love him?
Went to Naked Fish Shoppe(Grassroots Club, which is mere 5mins walk away from school) for lunch with fellow Fuglians. Was there cuz a coin decided our fate of restaurent or canteen lunch. We were registered as guests, not public! Cool eh! Food's not bad, but serving's small.
Bebe lost his phone in a cab yesterday morning. The phone was returned to the rightful owner. What a miracle! Thank God man... Bought the man Merci Chocolates as a small token. The rest is history.

Finally got a watch-digital one. Sad. 1st day and there're scratches on the steel part. Prob an attitude the watch would like to have? Really damn xin tong now alright. And a fren rubbed on it, adding salt and pepper to the fuming me. Bahhh. Its ok Its Alright. Puay Yong Puay Yong fight fight fight! haha. Suddenly Cady's stage line came to my mind.

Met bebe up and wasnt a very pleasant day. Like, after all was patched up, we felt weird shopping. Its like, the feel isnt right. Somehow, somewhere, something went wrong. Decided to head back home while he meet up his pals. He'll be more glad out with them.. But bahh. thats a totally different story.

The True Meaning Of Easter
by Polly Griffin

To understand the true meaning of Easter, go all the way back to the beginning of creation..

God made a beautiful earth and heaven to be a home for His son, Adam. (Luke 3:38, Genesis 1:1 thru 3:24) Adam was made in the image and likeness of God, his father. Out of the ground the Lord God formed every beast of the field and every fowl of the air. He brought them to Adam so Adam could give them names.
Also, out of the ground grew every tree that is pleasant to the sight and good for food. At this time, there was no sickness, suffering or death.
And the Lord God took the man, and put him into the garden of Eden to dress it and to keep it.
"And the Lord God commanded the man saying, of every tree of the garden you may freely eat: but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat of it: for in the day that you eat thereof you shall surely die." (KJV Gen. 3:16-17)
God said that it was not good for man to be alone and so he caused a deep sleep to come upon Adam. God removed a rib from Adam and formed a woman from the rib to be the wife of Adam. Adam named his wife Eve. They truly lived in paradise, the earthly heaven.
Now, in the garden of Eden was a serpent. This serpent was Satan. (Rev. 20:2) Satan is also known as the tempter, Lucifer, and the devil. He personifies evilness and rebellion.
The serpent tempted Eve and said:
"Ye shall not surely die: for God doth know that in the day ye eat thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be as gods, knowing good and evil." (KJV Gen. 3:4-5)
So, Eve looked at the fruit and saw that it was good for food and pleasant to the eyes and she ate of it. She then gave some to Adam and he ate of it.
By eating the forbidden fruit, Adam caused the downfall of man. God expelled Adam and Eve from the Garden of Eden and sickness, suffering, and death came upon the earth.
In spite of Adam's and Eve's failures, God did not lose His love for mankind and promised that He would send a Savior to restore man back to the paradise state that He had intended for man.
(God speaking to Satan in KJV Gen. 3:15) "And I will put enmity (hatred) between you and the woman, and between your seed and her seed, it shall bruise your head, and you shall bruise his heel."
(Romans 16:20) "And the God of peace shall bruise Satan under your feet shortly/ The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. Amen.
Throughout the centuries, the prophets told the story of a Savior that would come to earth to save mankind from their sins and restore them to paradise: (Isaiah 7:14), Matthew 6:10, Hebrew 9:12, Revelation 21:4)

About two thousand years ago that prophecy was fulfilled when a virgin named Mary became pregnant with a son that had been conceived in her by the Holy Spirit. This child was no ordinary child because He was the incarnation of the Word from heaven which came to earth in the form of God's only begotten son, Jesus. (KJV John 1:1-14, John 3:16, 1 Corinthians 15:47, John 8:23)
Mary was engaged to Joseph when she became pregnant by the Holy Ghost. Joseph married her, but their marriage was not consummated until after the birth of baby Jesus.
When it was almost time for the child to be born, a decree went forth from Caesar Augustus that a census of the whole world should be taken. This first census took place while Cyrinus was governor of Syria. And everyone was going to his own town to register.
And Joseph and Mary went from Galilee out of the town of Nazareth into Judea to the town of David, which is called Bethlehem. The town was crowded and there was no place for them to stay in the inn, they went into a stable. Mary delivered her child there and placed Him in a manger. Suddenly an angel of God appeared to shepards and spoke:
"Fear not, for behold I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David, a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.
And this shall be a sign unto you: you shall find the Baby wrapped in swaddling clothes lying in a manger.
And as the angel spoke, the heavens were filled with a chorus of angels proclaiming, "Glory to God in the highest, and on Earth, peace, good will toward men."
God's great love for mankind was made manifest through the birth of His son. The long awaited promise of a Savior had now come to pass.
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16
God's heavenly son was the only person that could save mankind. The price for redemption was His blood. He paid this price upon the cross at Calvary when He was put to death. He conquered death when He was resurrected. His resurrection is celebrated each year at Easter time.
"Neither by the blood of goats and calves, but by his own blood he entered in once into the holy place, having obtained eternal redemption for us." (Hebrews 9:12 KJV)
Like Adam and Eve, everyone has a choice to make. Each of us must decide if we want to choose to follow Jesus which leads to life or do we want to follow Satan the evil one. His way leads to death. When we choose Jesus, we are reborn. We cast away the lineage of God's earthly son Adam, who fell from grace. We take on the lineage of God's heavenly son, Jesus.
"He that committeth sin is of the devil; for the devil sinneth from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil." 1 John 3:8
Jesus is calling for workers to help him restore the earth to a heavenly paradise like it once was. He pleads for workers to help with the work.
"'And Jesus went about all the cities and villages, teaching in their synagogues, and preaching the gospel of the kingdom, and healing every sickness and every disease among the people.
But when he saw the multitudes, he was moved with compassion on them, because they fainted, and were scattered abroad, as sheep having no shepherd.
Then saith he unto his disciples, The harvest truly is plenteous, but the labourers are few; Pray ye therefore the Lord of the harvest, that he will send forth labourers into his harvest." Matthew 9:35-38
"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away." Revelations 21:4 KJV)

The Killing Of Three Lambs
Lamb #1
Long ago lived a man named Abram who was married to a woman named Sarai.
God made a covenant with Abram saying:
"Unto thy seed have I given this land from the river of Egypt unto the great river, the river Euphrates. (Genesis 15:18) Sarai bare Abram no children, but she had a handmaiden named Hagar. She told Abram to go into Hagar and have a child by her. He did and Hagar became pregnant. She bore a son named Ishmael. God told Abram that His covenant was with him. God changed Abram's name to Abraham. God told Abraham to circumcise all males of his seed and all males purchased with money.
God said that Sarai's name would be Sarah and that He would bless her and she would give him a son. She would be a mother of nations; kings of people shall be of her.
With this statement, "Abraham fell upon his face and laughed. He said in his heart, Shall a child be born unto him that is an hundred years old and shall Sarah, that is ninety years old, bear?" Genesis 17:17
God said that Sarah would indeed bear him a son and his name shall be called Isaac, and He would establish His covenant with him for an everlasting covenant and with his seed after him.
God also blessed Ishmael. He said that Ishmael would beget 12 princes and he would make him a great nation. However, he said His covenant would be with Isaac.
Sarah did bear Isaac. As Isaac and Ishmael grew, Sarah did not like Hagar and Ishmael. She asked Abraham to cast them out from their home. God told Abraham to do what Sarah asked. She said He would also make Ishmael a mighty nation. Abraham obeyed.
Then God decided to test Abraham's faith in Him. He told him to take his son, Isaac, that he loved, and offer him for a burnt offering. Abraham obeyed God. He bound Isaac and laid him upon the altar. Then he raised the knife to slay Isaac. The angel of the Lord called out to Abraham and told him not to slay the child because he had proven his faith in God.
Then a ram that was caught in the bushes was slaughtered for the burnt offering.
God told Abraham that in his seed all the nations of the earth would be blessed.

Lamb #2
Isaac had a son named Jacob. He had many children, but he loved one of them more than all the others. His name was Joseph. The other children hated Joseph because their Dad loved him most.
One day Jacob gave Joseph a coat of many colors. This really made the other children angry and they decided to get rid of Joseph. They sold him to some merchants who were on their way to Egypt. They killed an animal, put its blood upon the coat and told their father that Joseph had been killed by an animal.
The merchants sold Joseph to the captain of the guard of the ruler of Egypt. The ruler of Egypt was called Pharaoh.
Pharaoh loved Joseph because he had interpreted some dreams for him. Then Pharaoh made Joseph ruler over all of Egypt. Only the Pharaoh was more powerful than Joseph.
Time passed and a famine came upon the earth. Joseph's family came to Egypt to buy corn. Joseph told his family who he was and they were reunited.
All was well until after Joseph and the kind Pharaoh died and other persons took their places. The Israelites (the name of Joseph's family) grew. The Egyptians became fearful of the Israelites because they thought they were going to take over all of Egypt, and they put them in slavery and made them work and serve the Egyptians.
God heard their crying and grieving and sent Moses to lead them out of slavery. God gave them the land known as Israel today for their homeland.
Moses met with the Pharaoh that was ruler at the time and asked him to let the Israelites go but the ruler would not let them leave. God gave Moses the power to show the Pharaoh many signs, but still the ruler would not let the people go. Finally, God said He would do one more thing and after that the ruler would let the people go.
This was to be one of the saddest days in all of history and God said the Israelites must remember it always and to always observe it each year. He was going to set them free from slavery by killing the firstborn child of all the Egyptians.
The Israelites were ordered to eat special foods during this time and they must also kill a lamb and take its blood and paint it on the door so death would not take the lives of the firstborn of the Israelites. When the destroyer saw the blood on the houses of the Israelites, that family was "passed over" and the firstborn were not killed. The ruler of Egypt finally let the people leave Egypt to go to the land that God had given them.
God instructed the Israelites to observe this day by eating the Feast of the Passover each year on the 14th day of the first month. This month is called Abid (or Nisan) on the Jewish calendar.

Lamb #3
Many years later, there was to be another lamb slaughtered to free all the people on earth from the slavery of sin. This time God used His own son, Jesus, as the lamb to be slaughtered and by doing so, the world could be saved.
The slaughtering of our Lord Jesus Christ upon the cross coincides with the days of the Passover and both times must always be remembered as an expression of God's love for the people. Love isn't love until it is put into an action .
As the days drew closer for eating the passover meal, Jesus goes to Jerusalem. As he entered the city, the people laid their garments and branches off the trees and laid them in his path. They cried saying Hosanna; Blessed is he that cometh in the name of the Lord. They gathered together in an upper room to eat the passover meal.
Judas Iscariot made plans to betray Jesus. He was promised money if he did.
"And as they did eat, Jesus took bread, and blessed, and brake it, and gave to them, and said, Take, eat; this is my body.
And he took the cup, and when he had given thanks, he gave it to them; and they all drank of it.
And he said unto them, 'This is my blood of the new testament, which is shed for many. Verily I say unto you, I will drink no more of the fruit of the vine,until that day that I drink it new in the kingdom of God. And when they had sung an hymn, they went out into the Mount of Olives." Mark 14:22-26
Jesus was betrayed by Judas Iscariot and was arrested. He was tried and sentenced to die upon the cross.
He died upon the cross. His blood bought redemption for all mankind.
"Neither by the blood of goats and calves, but by his own blood he entered in once into the holy place , having obtained eternal redemption for us." Hebrews 9:12
The third day after his death, he rose from the dead to live forevermore.
The day he was resurrected is called Easter!!

Sitting right here looking somewhat like a lobster. Burnt by the scorching sun from yesterday's intercourse(Ops. InterDiploma i mean) Captain's ball match. And this v shaped burn under my neck prohibited me from wearing wad i wanted to wear to church. =l All cuz i stupidly wore a polo tee. Did i forget to mention the fair skin i have under glasses? Man, its funny. And, dumb. How would i ever forget bout this?
Its Sunday and im still in a state of euphoria. i still cant accept the fact that we won. Victoriously. Yes, we made it to 'trash the nurses'(sounds familar?) and surprisingly, the therapists too. Dr Ron even visualized Yas gulping champange from the trophy!
The pre-tournament trainings were all worth it. The players were so comfortable by Sat, and displayed wonderous coordinations.
Regristration was scary. We looked like dawrfs admist the tall the huge the tanned the fit and the netballers n never forgetting the 'smelly' basket-ballers that used a weird stretegdy no one would have ever thought of.

All of us had this premonition that we would be kicked out after round1 cuz the1st nursing team that competed against us had 2 giants-The defender who literally tapped away every ball we threw to huemin, and the big man who played rather rough thought that the girls would feel intimidated! When the score was a draw, the defender tried hard to stall time by pulling a quick one:stomachache. However, the empires stopped time and ruined his plan.Over the mountains and the seas, we won 5-4! Close shave indeed. Confidence grew as we got pass the 1st round.

2nd match was against Occupational Therapy. The pace was so fast. The co-ordination was pur-fat. DT won comfortably;9-1. Thanks to Ping who did long shoots as the team's energy was draining. HeeShen was there to 'support'. He wore this 'sunglasses' over his specs. I dont mean those that have magnets at the side for clip ons. Get the picture : He wore glasses prob meant for Radiography. =l Some said he looked like he's all geared up for diving. Boo. Will that be made possible?

3rd match was against RG. The most memorable one. The match Ping was looking forward to. LoL! The unhappiness DTs harboured over them having 4 guys were finally blurted out. The argument made Kel ignite in flames. In e end, compromise was made : They were allowed to replace 1 guy. Most memorable incident: Desmond ROARED at Kel. LOL. Everyone who caught that was laughing hysterically. A moment to remember, indeed. Another incident : No4 n Kel were snatching over the ball. Kel got it when she whined to the umpire I GOT IT FIRST... Sub Ping as i needed to do something, though i was a reserve. Slowed the entire match playing around for 5 mins. I blurted out a loud "SHIT" as the opponent got the ball. Thank God, wad was rightfully ours was gotten back. 11-3 was the score.

Final match-against Yr2 Nursing. The guys passed the balls to their female mates only when they were left with no choice. They had real weird tactics. Trashed them with 13-6.

Dr Ron : Thanks for showing your utmost support all the way. And having confidence in such a horrid player like me. I can thank u till the cows go home for having in me such great faith. Haha.

Supporters
Tan weiwei, Marilyn, Cady n YuanQi took the effort to cheer in the blazing sun. I was somewhat a supporter too. I yelled my throat away. Without all these shrieking support and cheers, I dun think DT will win. The supporters were truly their only source of motivation. The prize is secondary. What was important was that we really got to care for each other. Really, deeply touched by your attendance. Loads of kissies to u all!
Attn:Cady, thanks for taking the trouble of waking up early(earlier den me!) to make me egg butter breakfast instead of PizzaBreakfast every1 was having. And not forgetting the effort of making it triangular! Thanks alot baby.

Iliyas : Dude, PLEASE RELAX. Glad that the idea of being knocked out neverever cross your mind.

LeEn : Firm. Swift. Only words to describe u!

Huemin : Really glad u joined! U are really great. Goals wouldnt had been ours without your long legs and hands!

Huiping : MVP is the term, perfect for u. (Most Valuable Player)

Mastura : Ever ready, ever steady

Yusri : You are jus too good to be true. So agile. U are really EVERYWHERE, EVERYTIME. Indeed living up to ur name! Wouldnt had been possible with your incredible legs and hands!

Ruth : Girl thanks for comin down, u aint a reserve. U were GOOD n that's why u were chosen to join e team. u improved tremendously n for e 2nd game u were steady n made some good passes n catches. impressive performance after only 3 trainings :D (THIS IS FROM KELLY!!!! SHE REALLY MADE ME FLY SKY HIGH)

DT emerged as champions. No one ever would expect dwarfs to get that tittle. But was everyone there to share this joy?

Mundane day. Little communication with heem. Well, not only today,every other week day. Whereas Sats, busy with own stuff, den church in evening, talk so little. Sunday, prob abit better.
Had some sort of misunderstanding. Too long to elaborate here. Well, verdict : I cant take it anymore. Always sprouting all the qi hua, than apologising after that. Heee thinks i've got no temper and no angry words to splish splash spatter? I keep them all. Cause i know its not gonna help things. In my point of view, i'd rather be the sour one, keeping the flame burning right in me, than letting it out and making things worst. I know how bad this tongue of mine can be. But i decided to control it, to tie it. Cant YOU? Really. I cant take in any more apologies.
See how u've dampened my study mood. Tired. Really tired. Its so late(1am) and i'm not done with studying. Much more to cover.
Heeeee jus called. As what i anticipated him to say; too tired, had long day, viscous cycle again, good night, slp now. muack bye. C= Cool ya?
And no, not trying to demean heeem. Jus want to let it out thru a medium that's non responsive. U know, sharing it with others may twist the entire thoughts and feelings, and inculcate in me evil ideas. muaaahahaha.

Nice time im having right now, sitting down with the fan blowing right at my face to cool me down.
Had 1Hr of GOP 'lecture' today. Basically chatting away. Infection control marks has been compiled and thank God for the good results. To Him be the glory. amen.

Next came a wacking farn time shouting and yelling at each other during Captain's ball. Really fun playing under rather cool weather. I happened to be damn blur today! I dun recognise members in my group. I'd either take awhile to recall who is and who isnt in my team, or directly throw it to the opponent! =l Still, all of us laughed over my folly. First game-running around. Next 2-defender. Alright, i feel flattered when some said i was a rather good defender. I turned beetroot when they put me in the best light! Okay, i went too far blabbering bout i me and myself.. Haha. Prob wont be playing much in the game. Will be placed as reserve. But i dun mind la. Im not into balls. Jus trying my best to show my utmost support. Pls pray hard for springs in my legs and superb ball sense!
Oh yes, i forgot to mention. Guest player, Dr Raj joined us today! *Cheers to sporty Raj* He's rather good. I feel this enthu in him man! He could only join us for a mere 10mins as he has a lecture after that, but he was all geared up! I think he was with us for bout 20mins. He really is good. Almost 'touched' him a couple of times.
All of us forgot bout spaciality during the game. Shout outs of RAJ RAJ or RONNIE was heard a million and one times. LoL.
Dr Ron's treat to drinks after the intensive 'exercise'.
And, Mari really is this horrrrr-nie lady in our class. She really is. Guys out there, GRAB HERRRRRRRRRRRRR. Haha. Well, aint funny.

Memorable lecture with Dr V. He's rather particular bout stuff. Alright FOLKS, time to take off that coloured lenses u used to sterotype him with! He's GOOD. Really good. And cheeky too i guess. He cant wait to show that bushy tail of his. hO hO hO. And Leen's in lurve with him. I admit, her aims are always of excellent standard.

During lab session, i tried hard to be serious. Aim was to complete cutting all by today.. But to no avail. Jokes were minimal. But i went overboard on the slangs today. Which kinda made me laugh my intestines out. Alright, not too bad, im left with deepening the gingival seat of my 34. Guess what? I did a DO instead of an MO. Cut wrong stuff for the 2nd time. =l I better not do it in the test.

Had a clone today. Really co-incidental! Same top, same model of jeans and nike shoes. C:

Captain's ball again tmr. What should i wear.

Alas, Radiography over. The torture of the delay is over, at last. The questions were tricky.. Wasnt in the mood to do the test cuz im so used to cancelling out not possible answers.. I jus love scribbling study methods on the test script. Like.. TE, FS represents Tooth positioned wrongly, Elongated image, Film wrong, Shortened image.. and stuff like that. But bahh. Anyhows, I didnt fare well. :c Not that i didnt study. Alright. It was tough okay. Fullstop. But that shouldnt be the sole reason why i didnt do well.

Viron cancelled tuition again. That makes it 9times of cancelling or postphoning in 4 mths. But couldnt help it larh. He claimed he's sick. C: Get well soon my BELOVED student.

Did grocery shopping. Basically healthy stuff that i can munch on between meals. Ceral n raisins!! *SLURRRRRPS*

Better start on Op Tech today or i'll not go for Wed BS in peace. 3 lecture notes to cover. So little, yet so march.

Combined svc at Spore Indoor today. Awesome. Past 2 days were BennyHinn's crusade. Vision restored, wheelchair bound getting up, cancer healed, arthritis healed, eardrums formed, kidney problems healed, and many more! Such a waste that the dist stopped Cady Baby frm going, e others had other appts. :C Bought a book, Welcome Holy Spirt. Its a good buy, best buy and a must buy! Its not only gonna change my life, but i believe i'll influence the others with my lifestyle. And yes, im gonna live being practical, yet not living a double standard way of life. You know. Im in the world. But not OF the world. Yes. Thats it.

Bebe accompanied me home. He took a nap while i did my stuff. After few moments into Radiography, i fell asleep. Waking up 2 hours later by an SMS. :c Mum whipped dinner in jus a few moments after i woke up. i ate ALOT. Cuz its all about CURRY FISH AND MEAT DUMPLING! Plus ladies finger! Yummy! Not forgetting, she stir fried Lala. Man! It was so saltish. =l Completed Radiography after dinner while bebe catch up with his Bible reading. I've got quite a couple of days to catch up too!! :c On top of that, i promised bebe to read Welcome HS by 3 weeks. Uhhh ohhhh.

Really is quality time spent, rather than what we used to do: Shop at town EVERY OTHER WEEK!

And yes. The latest want: watch. And u know what? I seem to like DIESEL now more than anything else. =l If i really buy it, it'll burst my budget. If i buy it, why not top up couple of tens more to go on mission trips? Brrrr.

I forgot to mention, hadnt met bebe up for almost 1 week. 6days to be exact. the pass few days had been horrible. I felt he was giving me lip service. No i dont need that. Words with action fall on the ground wasted. Tmr, hopefully can spend some quality time.

Past few days has been so busy. Really tired. Since Ulf Ekman week, which is like end of Feb, I hadnt had a good rest and time to do my stuff. Other than days in sch shrieking away with Fuglians.. I cant quite find a good reason to laugh. Other than serving God in bookstore, i dont enjoy my life.. Mugging and blah. Had a good time lazing at home today. Sleep till 10, had tuition till bout 1245. Had lunch and urged sis n mum to go SIS. Called up some folks, chatted with Kel and fell asleep. Haha. I think the last few mins with Kel, she was trying hard to get my attention. Sorry Kel. Seriously. I was not really listening. Ok, listening but not hitting the ball back to u. LoL

Thurs
Left lab bout 20mins before dismissal.Wanted to go home and nap for 1 hour. Thats why. I wasnt really in a rush actually, since mum decided to cab down to court. Shalln't elaborate, whilst u know my situation and pity me. No, i dont need your sympathy. I will survive. God will pull me thru.

Fri
DH test was really tricky. It wasnt wad i expected. I over studied. What i anticipated didnt come out at all. And that kinda feeling is horrible. The questions were easy, some of them. But i skipped it. I thought i knew. In the end............... The MCQ's are tricky and expensive. 2MARKS EACH!
Then came the next hour with DrHema. We had to shift as she took it for granted that no one would book the room. We'll usually have tutorial right after 1lect and no one would come in usually. But this week came the Adv Dip ppl, who barged in demanding that we get lost! Packed the stuff for the others and brought it out. MAN! The bags were heavyyyyyyy. Went up to tutorial room, had class discussion after that. Banu got quite heated up. Maybe she's a little more impatient. That discussion was funny. Cady and i literally were laughing our organs out!

Had outdoor captain's ball. No one, ok maybe a minority, was in the mood to play under the scorching sun. Cady n i cheered the rest who went to play first. Wasnt quite happy with the opposing team that footaged quite a couple of times. But its alright, jus a game yeah? I guess i was cranked up at that time. Cady and i kept shouting FOOTAGE!!! or REFREE KAY LONG!!! As we yelled, we laughed over it. Haha. Cuz no one. Literally no one bothered about us. Haha. As usual, Kel n Ping took control of the game, leaving the rest of us supporting somehow. Fun and friendly match. At the end of it all, we tried taking a short cut, but ended up taking an even longer and tedious route. Its ok la, once bitten twice shy. Had lunch, special guest, Mastura!

Cabbed down to Indoor for duty. $7! The uncle was screwed up and went circles. I bind that attitude of his. I curse that attitude. Stupid man afterall. Small girls money also wanna cheat.
Served at North ent and saw the ppl running in when the door opened at SIS. 5000plus ppl were turned off that night. I managed to sneak out of the booktables into the hall. The meeting is fantastic. Ppl came in on hospital beds with layers blankets standing up and walk, wheel chair bound leaping out of their seats, stomach cancers being healed, deaf ppl hear and one with eye vision restored. It really is God's healing hands. Bu You Ni Bu Xing! Wasted man. My frens couldnt make it. :C Hope they can come down for Easter. C:

Next week would be another hetic week. Sy Rogers coming back. That time he shared bout his life, how he changed from a homosexual into someone God uses. Take the week end off and start Easter preparation. After that i can have a good rest. Busy March.

I cant wait to know DH results. Would it be A B or C? Probably not a D i hope. Such a long entry. I spent 1/2 an hour here blogging about my bitter sweet memories. C: Seriously, without Fugs, poly's gonna be boring. Its a different thing having fellow church mates and good pals at sch. Really cherish each and every fren God has brought to me. I hold their salvation in this little palms of mine. Brrr. Wad am i saying.

Lab session at 9am. Waste of time today. The air pressure or sumthing wasnt working too well. Couldnt cut cavities. Ended up drawing and filling Class2 table model. Not forgetting, crapping around with Cady Carmen Kel and Dr Ron. I smell some internal conflicts among the staff. Did i forget to mention, ONCE AGAIN? haha. Mdm E said someone didnt want ppl to use the com during lab sessions. Somehow the key board was removed. The conversation was quite FARNIE. (U realised the word FARNIE has funny and strange mixed in it?) And i guess both parties were rather.. heated up. = Ms C guai guai de went and take the keyboard out. Discussions bout this incident was damn funny during a quick 10min lunch with e gurls. Logical, yet hilarious prognosis we made. Pack up time's getting earlier and earlier. It used to be 1/2 hour before we session end. Today we left lab at 1140.
As usual, Hema's lecture is way too boring. And somehow.. She seem to have this sudden sense of humor, but not too pleasing to Fugs who have gotten used to such low lvl non-intellectual jokes. haha. Surely but truly, Leen and Cady tried their best to suck up to her by laughing at it. Probably trying to get into her good books cuz of the upcoming tests! Haha.
Reached home at 0135. Slept from 0150 till six plus. Can u imagine?! I slept my afternoon away! = Feeling really guilty now. I better start some solid star-dying. I mean, stardie-ing. No. Studying.

Yet, another wasted day. I dont know what i've done today. Anything but hitting the books. Ok, at least im done with GOP assignment.
With 1 sms, Dr Hema actually had the power to scare me out of my wits. Dental Hygiene test changed to Tues, PLUS Op Tech test somewhere next week, not sure when. Gosh. That makes it Tues-Dental Hygiene Wed-Dental Radiography Thurs/Fri-Op Tech. She sure knows how to arrange dates!!! God.
Mum was back to cook dinner before going back to night clinic. Before she left, we had this argument bout money. That i dont 'surrender' enough. Pls lor. Its almost all meals out (except occassional dinners like today) plus transport. And she went on bout my dad, then, suddenly, a long string of Hokkien vulgarities flew out. And no, my mum is not the sort of aunty, gossipping and 'swimming' in tiles every other day. She's English educated, rather smart and innovative. I really hate that attitude she has adopted from i-dont-know-where. Is that what her god taught her? I see her putting on this 'safety pin' before going out and in my heart, i really flared. One by one, i'll throw all the stuff i dont feel comfortable with.
It's like 6.30 now and i really dont have the mood to study after all that's happening at home. Things are getting worst these days. And i believe for better turn outs some day.

School school school took up my mornin n half an afternoon! Lunch was ex. $2.40 for 3kinds of veg. At the beginning of the term, it was $2 for 2veg, 1meat. Then it became $2.40. I was already grumbling. And today, it is ridiculous! 3 veg, for $2.40! If i had taken lunch outside it'l probably be just $2.30. Can u believe this? Canteen at school is more pricey than hawker food outside. If i had a chance, i dont mind reporting this to the sch authorities. Were they in the midst of renewing their license at the start of the term, hence the lowered prices?
Had a small shop at J8 in search of ribbons, 'tissue' paper and hair clips. I wanna start on my craze!!!!! Sadly, i found NOTHING to my liking. Came back, beat from travelling.
I forgot to include my experience on my way home. I didnt know wearing Pink Gio Polo Tee and folded jeans with pumps would turn heads! For a moment, this not-so-good body of mine was indulged. Sadly, they were the lustful eyes of construction workers. And u'd never know how much i DETEST them. I'd love to slap them, cut their hair, break their hands and legs, then finally rip them apart. As i brisked past, one of them was whistling to the tune, Xiao Wei. The 1st line was ok. Then came the 2nd, it was a 'lao-honged' whistle. Man, i'd sure have a good laugh if i was with someone. I mean, laughing aloud, being alone, ppl would see me as................ U know wad i mean.
Watched my 2 'a-little-out-of-shaped' blackies swimming in their 2 feet tank. GOSH! They are SO CUTE! Sorted out my Dental Hygiene and Dental Radiography notes. I thought i'll hit the books today. But im feeling so lazy now. There's too many things undone and i dont know where to start!
Probably time for a nap first before waking up to FOOD GALORE. Muaaahahahaha.

Ever wondered what's the worst thing that can happen on a train?
Let me disclose.
Sitting beside a person smelling sour. And smelling sour is derived from an entire day out, sweating, i guess. I tell u. This feeling i had jus now on my way back is HORRID. I literally keep looking right. (He was on my left) But still, the 'perfumed' stench waffled to my nose. And its not very nice to get up suddenly. I was hoping for some old or pregnant lady to get onto the train. Especially at Novena / Toa Payoh, where TanTockSeng Hospital and elder ppl are, respectively. Serious. And i forgot to mention, some ppl must have thought im mad to be turning my head against the wind direction. Which girl would want their hair messed up. But i was left with no choice. I was desperate. Haha. If u smell bad occassionally, use talc or deodorant. It is cost effective and yet considerate. Nowadays, everything is so 'portable'. Jus dump it into your bag or something okays.

Im feeling so stressed out today. Since early morning.
And Viron has once again triggered my fire hormones. He cant make it at 2pm. Why? Meeting. Most probably SOCCER meeting. And shit. Excuse me. I avail my everyday and week to accomdate 'you'. And here 'u' are shitting to me that 'u' cant confirm what time 'u'll' reach? Pls hor. 'You' are already in sec2. You dont need me to tell 'you' the 101 ways of NOT upsetting ppl's schedule. Neither do 'u' need me to tell u how to use your pea brains and weigh the consequences of skipping tuition. U sure u can improve like that? Pls lor. I know u cant make it by 2pm, i'd gone to sch for lab work. Shucks. And now, i cant go to sch after tuition as i need to make it for BS. I'd burn you if i have the chance to.

Next comes my irritating brother. When i use the com(or rather, HIS com), he'll ask me to get lost when i've not even warmed the seat. Jus to chat with gurls i suppose. He keeps trying to find fault with me. And i feel like killing him. This instant. Yes. Sounds like Hide And Seek's Charlie David? Argh.

And dad irritated me further by ticking me off when i didnt off the lights. Cummon. I FORGOT. If i want to waste electricity intentionally, i'd have left the air con on instead of using the FAN.

And next, im so blanketi blank blank bout school stuff. I have to go back sch early in e morning tmr for amalgam fillings, den meet Kel up at 11am. Study abit in afternoon b4 CGM i guess. In 2 weeks after hols, i've to complete cutting 4 more 'holes' and filling them. Then, next week, Dental Radiography on Wed, Dental Hygiene on Fri. Im phreak out at the thought of next week. Will i be prepared for the tests?

I've wasted the 3rd day of my holiday. And i dont know what i've been doing. Seriously, i need some time management. For now, i'l try sitting down, cool myself off with MORE dark chocolates, sort out my notes and hopefully start studying before Prince Viron arrives in his sedan for tuition. Go out for BS and then do cg bulletin when i get home.

Still in dilema whether to go for Prata Supper tonite with Den, Cherry and Alvin. I guess not, most likely. It'll be 10 after BS, reach prata house at 1030? U want my life?

This post is gonna be boring. Yes. Im warning u. This is gonna be dry.

Met Lyon up at ToaPayoh jus to collect journal, with intention to meet bebe up in evening for dinner. He went home for dinner and i had late dinner. I called him when i finished, it was 8.15 then. Wanted to go down Yishun, but i guess he felt it was too late. He was tired and didnt wanna come down either. I think bebe fell asleep - i miss him so. We've not chatted for many, many days. Went out yesterday after svc to Orchard library to read Bible. Shopped and had Subway after that. YUMMY. SUBWAY CLUB AND WHITE CHIP MACADAMIA ROCKS.

Chats with Kel has messed up my plans of shopping, feasting, ...
She reminded me of Dental Radiography test next week, GOP Assignment. And, i thought of.. Com App 2nd Assignment.. And i have to go back sch to fill more amalgam cavities. SICK. Burnt holidays.

Started on GOP today. So many foreign terminologys. And i realise there's not much i can write about. *_* Next comes putting them in my own words. Its jus so dunnoe-how-to-say.

Sudden interest of making bouquets is back! I'll either spend an entire day doing it or drag till dont-know-when. Finally found a buyer if all is successful. I couldnt be making one and leave it lying around at home right. Muaaahahaha.. Woo Hoo!

Movie with Fugs tmr at Cine. I dread catching movies. Further more, horror movies. we'l be catch Hide And Seek. I hope they have a sudden change of mind. I dun wanna be a spoilsport so i had to tag along. Boo.

All of us want to do something grand to show our love for our loved ones. It would be marvellous if we have the opportunity to do it. But, we don't need to carry out grand things in order to show great love for others and for God. We don't have to do big things, only small things with great love. It is the intensity of love we put into our actions every day that makes them into something beautiful. It is not the magnitude of our action that counts but the depth of love we put into it. Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired. It is hard for ppl with AIDS to cope with the fact that they are going to die. But being there with us and seeing us with others in their last moments makes a difference. They need to know that when they're dying, u'll be there holding their hand. The dying are moved by the love they receive. If our actions do not first come from the desire to be with a person, then it really becomes just social work. When you are willing to be with a poor person you can recognise his need and if your love is genuine you naturally want to do what you can as an expression of your love. Service, in a way, is simply a means of expressing your being for the person---and often with the poorest people you cannot completely alleviate their problem. But by being with them, by being for them, whatever you can do for them makes a difference. The message we try to convey to the poorest of the poor is: We cannot solve your problems but God loves you even while you are handicapped or alcoholic or have leprosy, and whether or not you become cured, God loves you just as much and we are here to express that love. And if we can help relieve their pain a bit all well and good, but it is more important for us to remind them that even in the midst of pain and suffering, God loves them. It's a difficult message to communicate, obviously, but we believe that being for them is the first thing. If you spend time with a person then that >is as much an expression of love as what you can do for them. take small steps of love every time there is an opportunity. Each step is like a candle burning in the night. It does not take the darkness away, but it guides us through the darkness.When we look back after many small steps of love, we'll discover that we have made a long and beautiful journey.Paying attention to people is far from easy. We tend to be so insecure about our self-worth and so much in need of affirmation that it is very hard not to ask for attention ourselves. Before we are fully aware of it, we are speaking about ourselves, referring to our experiences, telling our stories, or turning the subject of conversation toward our own territory. The familiar sentence, 'That reminds me of. . .' is a standard method of shifting attention from others to ourselves. That is why listening is so difficult. It means our moving away from the center of attention and inviting others into that space. know how healing such an invitation can be. When someone listens to us with real concentration and expresses sincere care for our struggles and our pains, we feel that something very deep is happening to us. Slowly, fears melt away, tensions dissolve, anxieties retreat, and we discover that we carry within us something we can trust and offer as a gift to others. The simple experience of being valuable and important to someone else has a tremendous re-creative power."
Ultimately, God will not ask us how many projects we have accomplished, the number of books we have read, nor how many degrees we have obtained, but He will ask us if we have done our best, for the love of Him and others.

Suffering from Post Captain's Ball Syndrome. My butt, thighs and back are aching after fighting 'bulls' on hot pans yesterday. Though i didnt contribute much, i did try my best to be wherever i think was right and appropriate.

Viron missed tuition again. And im getting REALLY frustrated. When can there be a month with decent attendance. The rates are peanuts and i've to spare all my time to accomodate him. NO. This cannot be happening. I will improvise somthing to make tuition work out. Yes. I will do it.

Wore red checkered mini and 'casper' top today as i needed to look 'formal'. Basically, more presentable. But i feel.. Its fashion disaster man. And no, im not trying to force u to say, "No larhh. U look great! Really!" I dont derive pleasure from that alrights. Casper top is like... one year old? Looks new but outta fashion, i think.

Had quick lunch with mummy and lil sis at Kim San Leng. And oh, i feel so WEAK without meat.

Busy day at Attributes today. Every step and bent i took was of great efforts. Everything is so messy. And i kinda... couldnt really manage. I felt like and octopus-An injured one. I felt so lost. I felt so small. But i believe for greater capacity. Yes. Amen. And for the 1st time since i've done accounts, i dun have to cab home frm church! Met Hong and went home with him, Den and andrew(an usher). Long time since i last saw Hong, or even chatted with him! I hope everything goes on well for him this year. C= We are conquerors. Yeah?

Cabbed home from AMK as the train terminated there. Was too tired to accompany Den to 7-11 for a drink, not talking bout supper mind u. He offered to send me home. But bah, i dun like the idea of ppl sending me home. haha. CG members should know. C: So, sorry den. No offence alrights.

Cooked mian xian with prawns and egg. Yummy. Some kind of meat at last! But the hunger pangs are here again. Gonna sleep real soon and ignore the grrrrr, grrrrrr, grrrr.

How bout popping a piece of DARK CHOC before bed?
Nah. I forgot to mention, i had a cuppa vanilla ice cream today. I mean.. offered by someone.. couldnt reject ppl's good intention larrr righttttt...
Me : Gosh. Its 6.3 g of fats.
Him : Its ok. U can afford it.
MUAAAAHAHAHAHAHA.. Pleasurable. Really was. But i didnt say im fatttttttttttt ok. I simply commented that its 6.3 g in.