Happy Niu Year

Hello folks. First things first, happy lunar new year!

With each passing year, new year and other festivities becomes routine and a good time to catch up on rest and while the day away eating bah kua and other ny goodies. My long break started last friday, stretching all the way till 31st Jan; taking only a day of leave. It was the usual spring cleaning and reunion dinner at home. Thanks to lil sis who strongly protested against steamboat for dinner, mum whipped up yummy dishes!
Last year's chu xi, the big family (of friends) and i welcomed the year of the rat with a big bang; everyone lighted up fire crackers and there was a mini display of fireworks at a friend's dad's bungalow in JB after our family's reunion dinner.
I gave that load of fun a miss this year. Instead, mum sis darling and i headed to Chinatown. Its my first time there, the weather was good with a lil drizzle, cool breeze and tons of people squeezing and pushing their way around. We parked ourselves some good distance away from the temp stage setup along eutongsen street and waited in the sticky crowd. Then everyone counted in unison; 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2..1..Happy New Year. Those few minutes of fireworks display and fire crackers made the wait worthwhile.
Passed a lion dance display outside a temple. I love lion dances; everyone does! The lion was 'spitting' oranges with 4 numbers written on it. The first one M 'horpped' was hit away by a fking china man, who then scurried to the ground in search of the mandarin. "What's yours will be yours" The subsequent one that came his way was a clean catch.
Bought 4D the very next morning; just for fun larh.
The next night was gambling with thebigfamily. Heart wrenching that M lost a fair bit!

Visited paternal grandpa and maternal grandma; some other uncle and aunties were there too.
That's lunar new year for me. Food, gambling and more food such that i might have forgotten my roots.
For those whose January didn't track out well, lunar new year gives us a good reason to start everything over again.

To end this abruptly, i'll be at Batam over the next two days; a short getaway for some sand sea sun shopping spa and at the same time, celebrate our first valentine's day together.
Till then, drink lots of water, eat 2 servings of veg, fruits, pineapple tarts, cookies and bah kua everyday, live in peace, stay in health, save money, upgrade your skills and wait for my return!

Love all of you.

EGLY, give me the bolster tonight cannn.
TTHX, get well really soon.
CCYY, sorry for not meeting you up before you left. I feel very very bad but i needed to be at home lah! Muack.
KCW, hope you didnt get any skinnier eating yucky rice papers in vietnam.
CNHP, CHCY & LSYL, see ya on 7th Feb; you girls make the most boring lectures fun!
KM, S & R, i miss all of you alot.
PSS buddies, see ya for our mini reunion dinner when i'm back.
Cookie, meet up with you really soon ok.
YPL, though i doubt you'll ever drop by this journal, thanks for your well wishes.
And to all of you, thanks for being in my life!
Last but not least, EB, love you lots.

Spring Cleaning

Some things I threw out during spring cleaning:
1) Huge glass jar of dried flowers from bouquets WS gave.
2) Barely used brown bag
3) Handbag WS gave.
4) Cards from people who don't matter anymore.
5) Workbooks from church's class.
6) All things for curly hair.

Things I've been contemplating to throw:
1) 'Nurse' uniform
2) That Blue Thing
3) Novels
4) Bibles
5) Figurines
6) Notes from tertiary education
7) Skipping ropes
8) Cards from WS

And, guess what?!
My first (and previous) holiday to an ang moh country was in 2004. (Not that i'm complaining, but Carmoh and Kel are BOTH away for HOLIDAY!)
Tracy Tan has been giving me cards since i was 16.
Carrie has been sending Christmas cards since 2004.
WS had a card for every festive season and wrote messages via postcards.
Marcus gave cards which wrote the most creative messages that'd melt every girl's heart.
A Genting trip's group photo inked on a metal card hasnt faded; since 2005 (i think).
I was so skinny (arms and face) in tertiary days! The photos proved it all.
I'm a huge vain pot when i was a lil girl.
My first plush toy was called No-name, i picked her from SIA.
I tried OralB'sBrushUp; not bad at all!
Mum washed my bed sheets and cleaned both of my room's windows.
I've not used the whitening gel cause i'm too afraid to fit on my retainers; now that my teeth have shifted, its gonna be so painful!
I found plastic teeth set on stone and threw them without thought. good bye g.v.black!

Finally cleared out some junk!
whilst mum is rummaging through my junk (like a karang guni!) and approved of everything i threw. lol.

10 Things M Does

1) Does the laundry while i snooze, folds crispy sun dried clothes while i laze under the ceiling fan.
2) Cooks dinner while i go for a short work out.
3) Sends me to work even after we agree on a central drop off point.
4) Wakes me up by tickling my feet.
5) Dentifrices my toothbrush.
6) Pats me to sleep after a nightmare.
7) Holds my hand in the middle of the night to drink water in the kitchen that's 5 steps away.
8) Brings out the trash.
9) Shells giant prawns for me at a BBQ without complaining bout fishy smelling fingers.
10) Sweeps the floor almost everyday; his loosing battle against my fallen hair.

Closing 2008

I've been procrastinating on an entry for the closure of 2008 until a conversation at work with my boss left me quite embarrassed.
Me: OPG taken recently, *stares hard at treatment chart*, June this year
Boss: Last year.
Me: *really insistent and solemn* This year.
Boss: Last year.
Me: *look again really closely.* Oh ya you're right. Last year.
So maybe it's time to put a close to the rat race year.

Looking back, there were alot of changes this year.
I met new faces, drifted from some friends, tried new things, changed boyfriends, went on to the private sector, started schooling, etc, too many to list and go into its details. So lets review the NOW.

I love my sister, alot. And i think my mother too. A few nights ago, i dreamt of her in bright white light, telling me she's fatigued and wants to rest, that i should take care of my sis and the house. I asked her to hang on in there. I woke up in sweat and teared.

Trayc too. I miss the good 'o times we have dinner after work, talk till late night and her stay overs. I like being a sloth. I hope it's all good on your side. From sec 4 till now, same o words; only a phone call away, love.
Of cause we can still have such times but i get so drained after work, all i long for is a good bath, dinner and couch potatoe the night away. On my off days, i sleep till cows go home, have some personal time, do some reading/housework and the cycle continues.

The trio at Sunnycove. There's so much to talk about when we meet. And i look forward to meeting them. There's alot of mental relief and laughter. We talk bout work too. It's fun, like growing up together.

Needless to say, M. He's got his practical side, yet spoils me silly. And i appreciate that he pampers me and never want to take that for granted. We're still logging our everyday lives with each other. And started raising funds for trips together. $1 fine for every vulgarity blurted.

Finished 1 (out of 6) semesters at school. Boy, the modules this year (see, now i'm getting the years right) are really tough.

Health hasn't been tiptop condition. Episodes of allergic rhinitis are really irritating me i might consider going for functional endoscopic sinus surgery. But still thankful for functioning organs, ligaments and muscles. LASIK went well too, still working without glasses/lenses. Yippee!

Work's good; 6 months since i joined 'em and i think they're happy ok with my performance. I think i can do even better with more education and exposure. I've been sitting on writing my biography for the website; cause there's really nothing to my name! Oh good lord save me.
6 more months of bond to pay for and i'm a free bird! July! July go Bali ok SunnyCove!

Bought 2 new furniture for my room; a sealy (read: silly) bed and a princessy chair & study table, all fully paid for out of my own pocket. I love my bed; its really comfy!

And everything else i have in my life to thank god for. There's never enough, there're always bigger dreams and material wants, but looking around me, i'm glad to have what i have. They call that contentment.

I've decided to straighten my hair! I'm so so so scared, really. I've not seen myself in straight hair since i was 17years old! Then it'll be back to keeping out my curly wurlies all over again. Life's like that.

Christmas

for god so loved the world, he gave his only begotten son.

To many of us, christmas is a time for giving, gathering and merry making.

Thank you rga, for the lippie and card. Hope you had heaps of fun with the Chinese!

Gatherings with thebigfamily are always enjoyable. No one would be seen sitting alone in a corner or blending into the wall paper. They are a bunch of generally happy crappy people who saw me since my secondary school frizzy hair days. The good mix of jokes food camwhoring and gift exchange aside, many of us are now attached.


a year ago..

EB and i invited some friends over to his humble abode for christmas dinner. Sis and bestie were on my top invite list, and am glad they were able to make it. We like hosting people, much more so to dear ones, and were glad our guests had their fill though there were no left overs. The pick of the night had to be wanton made with darling's chapalang secret recipe. Thank you tracy&kelvin, for the log cake that added much glitz to an otherwise simple fare. Thank you edmund, for the wine and chocolates companied with the christmas spirit. Thank you ian&joline, for bringing much bounce, joy and laughter to the night. Thank you ellice, for buying more udon at the very last minute and feeding me with yummy cookies stashed away in a corner. Above all, thank you darling, for doing the marketing with me and helping out in the kitchen. What would this season be without your love and you.

This christmas is nothing spectacular to boast about, short of presents to open, but very memorable for it was spent with people i love. Thank god for those who love me, who bring colours to my life, who welcome me home no matter how far i run, who is always waiting for me to return Home.

I was asked if i'm materialistic.
Not that im pushing the blame by pointing the finger, but I believe everyone is materialistic by nature, and the media (and fashion mags) further emphasize their significance/insignificance, whichever way you see it. And yes, there're many material wants that i have been dreaming of for the longest time, stashing them to the back of my head. The main goal is fees loans bills and long term, and satisfying a material want only brings about short term happiness.

I'm happy for cws, he's got a gf! I'd only hope the best for them. I'm still friends with his sis and sis in law, but have held back from visiting his parents. I guess it's not too appropriate? Don't know why.

Not that it's any business of mine, but someoNe broke up with a sweet looking girl. How bout another party, underthesea?

It's back to work on sun mon tues wed and another super long weekend! Yipee!!

Somemore Rubbish

Here’re some reasons why every woman should watch competitive games with their man.
1) You see their truly vulgar self.
2) Great time for a beer and BBQ-ed chicken wings. Of cause I went for healthier choice, loaded with antioxidants green tea. Heh, if we’re not getting skinnier, let’s make them all fat! Ya?
3) A great way to negate calories! I got all excited, plunged into the sofa, twist and turned at near goals and am getting hunger pangs now.
4) It’s the only time you can shoot off a string of vulgarities without being faulted.

Tip of the day: Never make an attempt to lie on the man’s lap during the game. I swear my ear drums almost gave way when he got all excited over a near goal.
Never. Even. Go near.

In my utterly amateur eye on soccer, I think the Lions played well!
But..
All the huff and puff, we lost 1-0 to PhongPhong!
FUCK!
By the way huh, they very the kay siao lor..

Next year. Next year we’ll be down at the National Stadium rooting for The Lions!
Ya larh, they will get into the next AFF semi finals one larh.

We were having our nightly bedtime talks and discussed if we hated our ex gf/bfs. There seem to be a similarity; in the end, the one whom we really loved but didnt work out in the end, are never hated, and would be willing to lend a helping hand if they are in need. On the flip side, we wouldnt care bout the ones who gave us short term 'happiness' and in fact is happy that we have moved on to better things.
I have this tendency to curse fellows. But have learnt to withdraw for i fear karma.

I've been sick for the past 3 weeks, periodic. First it was diarrhoea and fever, then came running nose body aches and fever, now it's blocked nose body aches sore throat phlegm and fever. I wake up on most days wanting to go on medical leave, but hesitated and dragged my sickly body to work. Be taking some time off from work to visit the doctor. And she had better not waste my monies have me cured by Christmas eve. I want to enjoy my public hols!
The bug has taken quality away from my life; goddamnshit.
Now my plan to donate blood to celebrate christmas is ruined. goddamnshit.

A far away friend just got engaged, happy for her! It felt so recent our common friend was telling me how stringent her quality control is, blahblahblah, and now planning for marriage! Isnt it strange amazing how things change so drastically quickly, how our lives are shaped by the people we work eat live play work with.

I was looking at the marine life of lembeh straits/manado (at work and got caught red handed!!) and i realise how vast the ocean is to uncover! Cant wait for the dive trip to bali in July! Shopping trips to angmoh countries are good, but I think i'll be contented to go on a SEAsia dive trip yearly! I WANT TO TAKE IN NITROGEN!!!!!

Some Rubbish

Good news, 2009 Thurs work day ends at 5pm, which means i can go to school on all days! Yayy! Gonna miss alot of lessons in Jan by foreign lecturers but its ok. Contented to be able to attend class! Yayy!

School books for this semester cost almost $200. Not too ex, taking into account 2 rather useless dentaI books that cost bout $200+! Gotta start hunting for 2nd hands!
Looking for 1) Principals of Macroeconomics by Stonecash, Gans, King & Mankiw 4th Ed, 2) Microeconomics by J Jackson & Mclver 8th Ed and 3) Financial Institutions & Markets by Ben Hunt & Chris Terry 5th Ed.
Selling 1) Singapore Business Law by Benny 4th Ed with notes and past year papers.

On 8th, a public holiday, i had my fringe straightened at a neighbourhood salon. $30 saved me alot of trouble blowing my frizzies and many failed attempts at looking neat. Insist on them using Shished0, i think it's good.

Returned to my Sunday routine last week; work, dance, dinner with bestie.
It was our maestro's birthday celebration, good time to drop by; b(r)ought chocolates to share. Stayed till surprise cake cutting, but left during the traditional birthday dance (where every female would dance a part of a song with him), partly cause i was running very late to meet bestie and friends. A huge part of me lacked the confidence to dance with teacher too; i haven't been dancing for 3 months, and would at all cost avoid doing anything that would potentially get me a tongue lash.
I'm so thankful for the 2 men who invited me to the dance floor, tolerated my nonsensical moves and one of em' even lifted me off the ground countless times!
It's Christmas milonga(party) next week and i should be attending, larh. If work doesnt tire me out too much. It's gonna be a potluck event, any suggestions? I'm thinking of having Shepard's Pie right NOW.
All the rush to make it on time for dinner was very worthwhile. It's nice catching up over dinner and tea at a cafe my best friend and i used to frequent every week!

I just chanced upon someone's social networking profile and am glad he's now engaged to his gf of ? years.
I know of someone who went through an arranged marriage; both supposedly highly paid white collared professionals. It's amazing to see how love can be cultivated with time and effort.
So is it fair for someone to say, 'i dont love you anymore?'
A friend of mine asked me a question and i'm still giving thought over it. It goes something like, would you still love the person if doesnt have money, lost his job, car and house?
The answer is simple, yet ironic. There's this love conquers all ideology bout striving and working something out together, yet there's also a practical part to it. I don't want to worry bout having to make ends meet month after month. In conclusion, my love struck mind now tells me it's bout being with a person whom you can trust, relate to, go home to night after night, be willing to help to the best of one's ability, and be comfortable showing the kid in you.
And no, i'm no love guru and nothing is ever smooth sailing. Something's bound to happen along the way, maybe later, maybe tomorrow, maybe days weeks months years later. As he said, at the end of the day, it's a want or don't want, no matter how big or trivial the issues.

Oh good lord. What have i been saying?!

So many of my friends have gone/are going on a trip; envious. Bali thailand hongkong shanghai taiwan blahblahblah. I cant wait for 2009! I want to test my dive presents when the northeast monsoon ends in March, and blow bubbles at molamolas in July! July marks the end of service to a bond for some, and it includes MINE!!! Yayyy!

My 2008 is ending on a good note; family's healthy, few asthma attacks (though alot of allergic rhinitis), found love, experienced diving and tango (salsa not inclusive), went on a weekend mission trip, met some awesome folks, went back to school, and what more i cant think of to thank heavens for.
I think there're 2 things i want to do before 2008 becomes history. To paint. And whiten my teeth using take home whitening gel. I'm so reluctant to do the former cause a basic starters kit is so costly. And the latter too, cause i love tea and coffee too much. Plus, i don't like the discomfort (more like pain) of having to wear my ill fitting aligners.
There was 0.3 carat diamond ear studs something i was hoping to purchase when i turned 21. But having school fees to pay for and a rationale mind kept that at bay. Still sane. Heng ar.

Soon it'll be spring cleaning, clearing out the closet and be clad in ching-chong attire ready for ChineseNY celebrations. I don't quite like ChineseNY. Us kids are always put in a difficult position. Gotta remind mum to stock up on frozen food for reunion steam boat dinner before prices start rocketing. Or has it already started its climb? Hmm.

I mean, alot of rubbish.

Change

Change is the only constant in life.

The clinic's undergoing changes in everyone's shedules; i requested for my Mon Thurs Fri nights to be freed up but might not be possible on Thurs. So my guess is an entire self study module. My suggestion was to only see certain patients on Thurs night, and leave for school when these 'certain patients' are not scheduled for the night. And if i make it to the 2nd semester of 2009, all i pray for is that night class falls on my off days; Mon Fri Sat.
Sighs.
Haven't been eating/sleeping well. Been worrying my days away since the release of next year's timetable. What fuck.
And school fees. So expensive you know! I've never lived month to month, there was always some spare cash in either accounts. But now i think i have to consolidate both sides and live on bread and rotten fruits. I refuse to ask for money from the old folks.
All i want for christmas is fully paid education fees for the rest of my life.

Better

Just a quick note before heading out for kd's birthday get together.
I'm so glad (and relieved) my best friend is back from Bali. With all the hulabalas happening around the world, i've been checking out the web for happenings around the world, and i must say, no news is good news!
It's the end of my lazy weekend. Another work week tomorrow. :(

I'm so scared. That in the end, i'll have to choose between working or studying.
Next semester might (will) work out, but how bout 2nd semester of 2009? 4 doctors, (maybe 2) cant keep changing their work schedules to fit mine, right?
I'm really scared.

Something's gotta give.

Giving up on school means a lot of money wasted.. and dreams dashed.
Not working means a loss of income and a lot of stupidity, skill lack and what more i dont know.

How. Dont tell me to cross the bridge when it comes. I want a map; better still GPS. Someone tell me what to do.

Maybe i'll have to eventually skip all lessons. Buy books, go for last few lessons (and hope to get some exam tips) and rely on past year papers. Sounds like tough. I've always liked sitting in front rows at lectures. And i dont fall asleep lorrr.

At work, it's quite quiet these days; failed appointments, vacant slots. Shouldnt be. Nov was rather busy, yet fun, days passed fast, i liked it, i enjoyed working.
Could it be due to the economical climate? Or environmental climate; rainy morning.
I dont like doing nothing at work. It's not just a waste of time, but lots of monies too.
There's nothing called smooth sailing. Everywhere has its ups and downs. Now i see why the oldies term the government sector as possessing job stability.
No im not regretting. I'm (still quite) young and have a long way ahead.
God just bless me.

I miss dancing. Asked 2 good friends if they're keen to go down today. (reply came, not keen) Good time too; teacher's birthday. But i'm scared to get into those stilettos too. I dont think i know how to do the tango anymore. Sighs.

Everyone has their own lives to lead. New lives with work, school, people, maybe. As for me, i'm startled by how much i've changed. My friends too. Everyone's growing up together. Maybe some went wayward, i did, and came back on track. If we sit down for a drink again 5 years later, what would we be talking about? I hope no one gets left out of the conversation. Cause we went to school together, worked together, celebrated birthdays and happy occasions together, grew up together.

Gibberish

I had a very slow day at work, and i barely spoke to anyone. I just wanted to be by myself. I cant imagine going through another day like this; it was horrible. So i started giving my inner self some thought, thoughts that were in the core of my very soul, exposed when i feel lowest, when all the pain and worries are temporarily forgotten during my highs. Why am i not equipped with knowledge vast enough for my profession. Why am i not in a profession i really want to be in. Why am i not receiving education i really wanted. Why did i not sit for a levels. Why did i chose all these for myself?
I felt like giving up my dreams, altogether, when i haven't even tried. Even felt like giving up what i currently am working as. I just want to scrape. I even had suicidal thoughts, maybe homicidal. I felt like doing something simple. Very simple, like administrative work. Even that job has a long spelling, shit. I felt like i needed to do something brainless and with fool proof instructions. I waited for patients, saw them and was thankful the day ended at 8.30pm. I decided to spend some time at home today. Nothing the world can offer beats going home to home cooked food and loved ones. My sis's so funny and welcoming. I've nothing much to do at home. I don't do household chores outside of my bedroom. It's awesome lazing infront of the computer and tearing for nothing. It's therapeutic. Now i don't know what to do to cheer myself up. I'm away from my happy pill, and have to learn to be strong and humor myself.

Hope

I happened to be doing some paparazzi work on a social networking site, Fbk, when i chanced upon cws's photos. He's still wearing the watch i gave him years back. I hope he graduates with good grades and secure a job in this economic slowdown. I'm not regretting my decision of having to part ways, but i have this thought that lingers at the back of my mind. How can 2 persons who used to be so close eventually turn strangers? I don't want this to happen anymore. Else i'd be so afraid to love again.

Anyway.

My fever came again on Thurs night, literally burning my weekend away again. Decided to consult a doctor for medication a little stronger than Panad0l. I have to be well enough for work.

My semester results are out. I got a High Distinction for Statistics and Credit for Commercial Law. Had crossed my fingers and hoped for a distinction in Law, cause i need a good GPA at the end of it all. But i guess language papers access one's ability to fully understand a concept, pick out pointers and debate from various points of view. They're not out to fail you, but out to reward students with better reasoning, and that i lack.

Come Jan 2009, I have classes on Mon-Thurs for 3 weeks, but would have to skip alot of lessons due to work commitment. I feel ashamed to apply for leave every night, as that would mean a significant dip in clinic's takings.
Subsequently, school's on Mon Thurs Fri nights.

I want to graduate with a good grade at the end of these 3 years. And at the same time, i have to juggle between work, family and friends. I dont even dare to state leisure.

From a business point of view, i can understand how my bosses feel about me not being flexible enough with my night sessions. Especially so with this economical climate, less people would apply leave for a dental visit, hence coming in only after office hours. But i really hope we can work something out (every 6months).

Everytime i think of tying work and school, i feel like crying. It's stressful-I'm fearful that i'd be asked to leave. I don't want to burden my parents with expensive varsity fees, let alone take pocket money from them. I like the environment (and people) at work, the clinic's philosophy and all the hype about progressive dental technology. With ever changing timetables every 6 months, I dont know how much value i am to the clinic, so all i can do is be my best at work, implement and set things in place as i deem right, cross my fingers and hope the remaining uni years sail by smoothly.

As for lessons that i'm gonna miss, i'll just have to take triple effort in borrowing books and catch up on whatsoever i miss.
I dont want to fight a battle only to give up half-way, loosing both money and time.

It's not always sunshine on my side. In fact i'm tearing now. It sucks to be sick, teary and very hungry. Only 3 slices of traditional kaya toast this morning, made with lots of love thou.

Maybe i should just give up lah. Work, settle down, and wake up at 30 wondering what im doing with my life. By then, it'll be too late for any remedy, i'll keep working and die an old hag. Well done. Or maybe earth can have a cosmic blackout and wipe us (and cockroaches) out, bring back the dinosaurs and dodo birds.

Fuck.

But don't you worry 'bout me. I've always got a way to encourage myself.

With a song.

Otello

I dont think anyone should ever lie. I dont know how to lie, either.

I think when one does something wrong to another, there's some kinda warfare within his soul. Akin to SidmundF's defination of id ego and superego, my id and super ego have been at warfare all day long.
My id instinctly tells me to shun away from trouble and shirk responsibility by telling a lie, an shameless act of self defense. Cant help; i believe humans inherit evil and cunning instincts.
But my superego takes over. I cannot live with a lie, and get on with life like nothing ever happened.

I cant remember when was the last time i lied. I'm no saint, but sane enough to admit to my mistakes and face the music.

God bless me. And my boyfriend.

i.. erm.. scratched the car's body kit and sports rims. :X

Freak Accident

Hello Earthlings.
Friday marks the end of my work week, and the start of a really horrid episode of fever and diarrhoea. Could have been the beef noodles I had for dinner on Thursday. That night, the pain was excruciating; I was kept crouching on the bed, wide awake. Usual miracle P0 Cha! Pills didn’t work, and I had a good 20mins ‘run’ at 4am. It’s colour reminded me of chocolate fudge and bits of matter like choc chips. Yumyum? Hell no. I swear it stank so bad M closed the door immediately when he came to check on me. I want to recover by Sat morning; I want the other half of my weekend in health, and return for work all well and not full of shit on Sunday.
Of all days, freak accidents have to strike me, in the midst of nursing a raised temperature and stomachache. My 6.9mm thin phone found its way into the skeleton of the bed, wedging itself between pieces of solid wood, cloth and pure leather. So I thought, the worst that can happen is loosing your contacts, having to apply a new sim card and lay my tech-geek fingers on the latest phone model.
We used tools like L brackets, screw driver and even a yayylow pages phone book against the bed frame that just wouldn’t budge! We were close to slicing the cloth and lever the phone, but 40 mins and buckets of perspiration and sheer hard work saved the day.
The only good that came out of it? Alot of dust cleared and a promise to never leave things on the bed ever again.
No, I didn’t get a scolding. ;)

Maa.ria

Oula folks,
I apologise for the lack of updates. Life's treating me well and i do hope it's sunshine on your side too.

It's my off day today, yayy!, and i decided to abstain from being a sloth.
In 5hours, I became the laundry woman, floor manager and plumber.
It's fun having creases disappearing from the shirt, but not so fun having to make sure they disappear for the nth time.
It's easy throwing all the clothes into the washing machine and watch them spin, but coming to think 'bout it, it's gonna be folding and ironing all over again.
It's amazing to know how much dust(and long hair) accumulate every other day, but not fun having to manually pick them out of the broom.
It's effortless to swish-swash the mop on the floor, but exhausting business having to dry the tiles with a rag.
And the choking bathtub, oh my, easy-peasily cleared with a pump from the convenience store.
Yeah guys, thats how women claim all the credit.

Rewarding myself with a long bath, cold M!lo and a chocolate mint after being Maaria. I'm gonna have my eye brows professionally plucked later this evening!

All in an off-day.
And it's back to 2 grueling full working days all over again.
And the old folks go.. 'at least you have a job'.

*
12.40am
Had dinner and did grocery shopping with my 2 most loved, the sister and the man.
We were supposed to be on a strict diet, but chicken satay and char kuay tiao was too hard to resist! I'm feeling even more guilty for i just popped in a vanilla liquer truffle!

Horrible horrible horrible!

1.27am
I'm doing nothing but so reluctant to turn in. I dont like awaking to a new working day.

Alot of things have been happening around me lately; absurd ex-gf stories, couples who used to be the sweetest things breaking up, some others getting married, some pregnant, some going on holidays, and others who have unachieved goals and dreams. And in it simply lies a creed to live by, 'to live for the now'.
Not that one shouldnt plan for the future, but to hold dearly each and every moment now, to learn from experiences and grow from it.

2.53am
Yawning but still not turning in..

I'm so tempted to colour, straighten and chop off half my tresses. It's shockingly unkempt after a good night's rest, and irritating having to keep them in place throughout the day. But i like my natural curls when they are nicely held up with stuffforhair leii, how huh?
I'm getting sick and tired of having to draw my eye brows too.
it sucks to be me..

IMPORTANT CALL FOR ATTENTION!!

Anyone keen to attend a lecture on i)pulp therapies in primary teeth (9/12/08) or ii)wisdom tooth management (12/12/08) course? Short message service me!

Work Thus Far

Hello Earthlings.

These 4months in the private sector has been amazing. I've learnt so much more on clinical diagnosis, and am still learning every other day, thanks to the doctors i work with.
I dont know if they look down on my profession and capabilities, but that's beside the point. At least they are very willing to help. Moreover i dont think they do; Cause life goes on the somewhat the same, with or without me in their daily course of work.

It's so different over here; i can take my sweet time to talk and work on the patient, instead of having to worry about meeting quotas. Appointment times are pre booked, and i no longer need to attend to groups of mischievous fans and 'urgent' extraction cases during certain school hours. The parents are always looking at me while i work, but i've learnt to see light from a different angle. I can forewarn them of any complications that may arise and they are physically here to witness how naughty/apprehensive their child really is on the dental chair. I don't think i can handle being in the school clinic anymore; i cannot bear to change my tone anymore. Plus i'm too pampered here; no paper work and no cleaning, hooray!
Of cause with these come greater responsibility of my actions; I dont have a 'statutory board to shield me' from law suits during the course of work, should they arise. At which is okay, cause they really didnt do as promised.

And just so you know, i did not leave because i couldnt manage what my precious job scope entails or because i did anything wrong. You should be ashamed if you have defamed me. Yes, you're right. I don't think i was in the wrong, at all.
I'll forgive the imagination and mouth of any woman, for out of it comes undeniably perfectly gossip worthy stories, pleasing to the ears of any listener.

Work being work, has its own set of responsibilities and duties, fatigue and aches. But on the overall, i'm happy where i am now. Thou i can no longer be on medical leave as and when idontfeellikeworking.
My only defeat is not having enough clinical knowledge on other treatment modalities and i dont think my use of composites is up to standard. But its alright, knowledge can be acquired and clinical skills can be learnt.

In every career is a challenge, and once one has overcomed, he reaches his comfort zone. I've stepped out.
Have you?

Twenty First

Here's my 21st to remember.

There were no big parties nor stay overs. I was glad and contented to have dinner with pockets of friends. I didnt want to take the responsibility of catering for guests, worrying bout not enough to go around, etc. In simple terms, i think i'll go berserk if anything goes wrong. So i spared myself from going insane.

The most heart breaking thought had to be this.. It was 9th Nov, CWS's birthday, an ex bf of 4 good years. I woke up remembering it was his birthday, but i didnt bother texting him, since he didnt on mine. (yah la, now you know im petty too) The day went on with the man i now love, without occuring to me what CWS would be doing on that day. On the 10th, i couldnt help but told him, 'happy belated'. The reply was, 'thanks, hope you enjoyed yours too.' Thing is.. isnt it strange? How 2 persons who used to share their lives with each other become strangers and never reconcile even after 2 years? Writing this makes me feel like tearing, but it just wouldnt drop. Because all that is left now are faint memories of what used to be, of what could never be brought back.

On the 7th, i lazed the day away at home and met a group of friends for dinner at Shav!lla, in support of the chef. Chef is a general statement; i don't know what he does in the kitchen but since he's wearing the toque i suppose he's the chef?

$28 nett brought a palatable fine dining experience that i wouldnt return to again. Haha!

Cabbed down to T!imbre; there, met dd and his collegues. The guys are really easy to get along with.

My cake writes, 'jovelle ruth 21st birthday. cool beans!' That got me thinking; independence day very cool meh? Now i can no longer tell others i'm in my teens.

So.. someone gave that thought of mine great support.. by doing this on the uberthincrust pizza we ordered.
Thanks Ian for the pretty card case!

8th Nov
Had lunch at T!ongBahruMarket, dropped the car at HPB (season parking!) before heading to TheEspIanade to catch A\/enueQ at 3pm. Chanced upon dd's ex director and his really pretty wife! It was sticky meeting them; part of me badly wanted to strike a conversation with them, or at least the pretty wife Mich. The other part of me knows my tender years lack knowledge of political and worldly issues. The musical isnt too much to rave about; much of it was slapstick humor. The kind you sit through, laugh and forget bout it after awhile. The message we brought back was to live for now.
Did some window shopping, had chilli fries from CarI's Jr which was to die for.
Had drinks at /\/\ajestic Bar with !an and his fiancé. I LOVE THE MANGO PUREE IN SAGO AND POMELO, TOPPED WITH VANILLA ICECREAM!

9th Nov
2 events to attend; dd's friend's wedding at thebotanicalgarden's gingergarden. The very pretty bride and romantic tear dropping moments aside, lunch with his excollegues wasnt too bad. They're nice and easy to get along with.
Bumped into a good friend of his while window shopping.
Had a prize presentation ceremony to attend before catching 007. I love action movies and hot Bond girls!

10th Nov
A puzzle from the bestie, trayc, who needs no introduction.
I completed the puzzle!!! Filled in the heart shaped mosiac window on the castle.


tadahhh!


And that girl got me a set of bikini in turquoise with prettiest plaits!

11 Nov
diamonds i can't afford to buy, for your birthday which just passed by.
as you know im an ordinary guy, with money being in short supply.
but i have affections that pile high, and love that reaches sky high.
with you my love and affections will lie, no matter how the years fly.

Street dinner at 743N.BridgeRd. Really yummy at very affordable prices! Highly recommended! Closed on Mondays. Opened till 11pm.

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Phew. 10am-9pm work on Wednesday is finally over and I'm aching from back to back appointments. It's really tiring having to bend here there everywhere; the PRC assistant just don't get it!. I've been so goddamnfking nice, i think i might burst and start teaching her- I'm still gonna tell/direct her what to do; and i think if i'm gonna explode, i'll say mean things like, 'don't you ever learn?'.

Yayayayaya, i'm not that nice, get it?
Sometimes i wish extrinsic stains weren't in existence. I'll be better off alone; can go left-right-centre as and when i wish. And i dont need to adapt to having someone blocking me and my view on the left, i can be the leftie that i really am, instead of having to learn to use the right hand.

The day started with fearful daddymummyineedtohugyourleg kids who eventually kept coming in and out of the treatment room; it's a sign they like you. I went and talk to them, or rather, i went and tried to talk to them; they mumbled some gibberish i couldnt figure before running away. Santa should give them a small present for irritating me early at the start of the day.
The elder girl of 3 years was so cute-she asked her brother of 2 of lie on her while his teeth was checked and cleaned. Very heart-warming aite!

There was this 4year old kid the day before, who had very badly broken down front teeth. I was building up composite while she slept soundly on the dental chair. Waking her up was funny. I whispered her name, which of cause eventually became louder, and she gave me this blur whereami whoareyou look. Showed her the mirror, and she asked when can she come back to have the other side done.

It's times like this that make being a dental nurse therapist fun; the adults only blame you for digging out their way-expired-periodontitis-causing-black-chunks-of-calculus.

Right before lunch was 'spring cleaning' for one of the clinic's regulars. Memorable cause he was joking the very moment i saw him, and i could counter his attacks in hokkien.

Hearty laughs with some of the team members over lunch. They coined me a new name. Surname: Ma. Name: Pi Jing. Meaning, bootlicker.

Midday; this ang moh wore roses in red,blue,white; ah-mar-li-kers color lorr! She broke news to me that the dashing bIack won! Please lah O-ma, do something to the economy can; i need to recover my money la.

I was so flattered when a girl friend texted me, telling me how beautiful a mask i lent her is. This 'nurse' caught me giggling as i replied to the text message, and she gave me that isthatyourboyfriendyou'remessaging look. I was even more tickled as i winked at her and tried terribly hard to control myself.

The day ended with a good 10mins talk with a client.

The only stressful times are overruns, which happened at 3ish today. But what to do.. shit happens.. Just do my best and move on lor. At least i had 30mins (dinner time) to rest.

Well, 11 hours, at least it started, went and ended well.

Had dinner with Jack-chicken rice & prawn rolls followed by his favourite dessert, beancurd! I love the ngoh hiang kinda prawn rolls. Its accompanying sauce is thick and sweet to the max! He got me a diving mask after 2days of hunting for it. The 0ceanic's mini shadow; yay! Erm, anyone wanna sponsor me a dive trip? So i can test the mask and jetfins dd got for me!

Had a good 20mins talk on the phone with dd. It's a joy and privilege to share my day with him; and im sure that feeling is mutual, even better if we were at our usual corner with music and yoghurt.

I feel so fair and chubby; i want to go for a swim late morning tomorrow.
For now, i'm gonna down a bottle of chickenessence and turn in at 2am after doing some reading.

Ciao!

Fugs Night Out

There're so many untitled posts, i thought November shouldn't start on ambiguity. There're thousand and one things that has been going on in my life, and running through this empty shell of mine, but Sat's dinner with TheFuglies, my poly khakis, shall be the highlight.

Saturday evening.

It was uber nice of dd (just for you, ms ng. he still remains one of my highlights la) to send me to RCity, at the expense of $2 ERP, notsoaringanymorebutstillveryexpensive petrol and getting caught in a jam while making his way to pick up mum and dad his parents. Our meeting time was 7pm, and I felt so bad for being 8mins late for the rest were waiting since 6.30pm, some even longer for they came from work.

I was so tickled when we were catching up on what we do at work, how frustrated they we get with the assistants and someone eventually came up with a 3 point sermon describing her 'nurse' in full glory. It was funny with our warped sense of humor, coupled with really idiotic facial expressions. We were at the innermost area of the eatery, shielded from the shuffling feets and chatters of the Saturday crowd. But i guess we were quite loud, and probably irritated the diners on the other table.

As much as i see it as a long overdue bonding session, i cant deny it was a mini birthday celebration. How else can one have explanation for cake, candles and presents!?



I like the night dresses and necklace they bought me. The company that night was awesome. We can be out of touch for so damn long, but there're always stupid questions to ask, awkard silences to break, eyes to roll and things to eat! Pity they had to leave early; Carmen and i were left to bitch the night away.

I being a really practical being had one of the two identical necklaces exchanged. I had wanted to work within that receipt, but couldnt resist the bag i had wanted for the longest time-dates back to July! I have been a naughty girl; its time to curb such lavish spendings and start building my dwindled bank account.

I always get what i really want. Things that i really like/want have a space in my iPh0t0. If i can see it, i can have it.

Carmen and i were having a good chat at *$. That woman had to tempt me with chatting till unearthly hours, waking me up for breakfast and promising to be a good host! She accompanied me home while i unloaded barang and packed for work on Sun. I like the clean concept of her new 140 sqM flat. It was so much love and fun i think girls should always have stay-overs. She was such a good host i felt like going on medical leave!
Responsibility issues took over. Had dinner after work, lazed for abit and collapsed on the bed.

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Some dental talk.

Recently, i started doing a quick perio probing for almost every patient after scaling. The results are astonishing. Most have 5-8mm pocketing on their posteriors and have to be placed under Initial Periodontal Therapy; return for full periodontal charting, LA S and take an OPG if needed. I cant imagine the number periodontitis cases silently killing everyone, patients leaving the dental chair thinking, 'my gums just got tickled again by that pretty thing!

45mins ago, MY BROTHER PROMISED TO GET ME MILKTEA ON THE WAY UP FROM LUNCH AND HE JUST SAID, " I DIDNT WALK PASS THE SHOP ". WHAT FUCK! Time now: 1.45pm.

Coming back from foul language, measuring standard deviation of .99 away from dental talk.

I need to do something bout this.
In a 45mins appointment slot, i have to complete cleaning (and all that getting up to rest and rinse) in 35mins and have 10mins for a quick perio probing and patient education.

I hope this isnt a hype that brings me back to being a scaling-prophyjet mechanic. Because doing all that full perio charting and patient education is so old school; it is exactly what we dread during school days.
But what if this is the standard of care the boss has a vision for? What if you're the boss? Will you make it happen?

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Greetings my friends.

Its my first off day since the last examination paper (on tues), which was followed by work till 9pm on Wed and Thurs.
It was nice sleeping in till 11, then i started sulking (literally). Initial plans for the afternoon doing shopping/lunching were foiled when dd had to stay on in the office.
So i sat down, right here, thinking.. What do i have, what do i need?

I have an urge to go shopping for a bag, I need (money, of cause) to excuse dd from shopping cause of his knee injury.
I have a hint of disappointment cause its been way too long since i had some time away from routine and material enjoyment, I need to look at the situation from a different perspective; i cannot be selfish.
And most importantly,
I have a man who has piles of work to be done at the office; i need to be understanding.

So i have 2 choices; i can sit here, wallow in self pity, pout till my orbicularis oris muscles become fatigue. Or head out on my own, like i always do.

At this very point, dd called from the office! He'll be leaving the office at 3ish and we'll be heading to the IT Mall! I can get an errand done (the spoilt speakers), and RCity has some of my usual shopping outlets! AND.. We'll be able to spend time together, again!

Ok there's MSquare, RCity, STec, what else huh? PenPlaza? And coolbean shophouses at SeahSt!
I shall be a good girl and refrain from venturing all over the CBD. RCity should quench my shopping thirst.
So its happy friday!
Erm. Should i wear a dress. Or go in my Pj's like a resident from TheRafHotel?

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Hooray! Exams are finally over. Nevermind the results. They'll be out on 4th December.
Pardon my choice of words, but i'm so f.king elated semester one is over.
Dinner celebration tonight; im so gonna eat BEEF.

There're so many practical things to do, like booking the Sg Flyer cause mum sponsored us tickets, getting back into shape by exercising, renewing the practising certificate, settling outstanding bills, retrieving my internet banking user name and password, tidying my lecture notes, put up law textbook and notes for resale, clearing out the closet of old clothes, cleaning dust off the fan, air-con filter, window grill and blinds, revising the periodontal chart at work; basically, getting my life back into order.

Then there're things that satisfy the sloth in all of us, like doing some window shopping just to keep my fashion sense sane, laze the day away doing nothing productive/fruitful, be a couch potatoe (catching stupidly funny sitcoms on tv5, my favourite being TheN00se)

Work was hell loada shit on Wed, for i had an onset of allergic rhinitis. Even after taking 2 different kinds of antihistamines (ya, overdoes), my nose went on dripping like a tap and i had no control over multiple (like.. >5 ah choos at a time?) sneezes. I had to place wads of tissue paper between my nostrils and the face mask to act like a mucus shield.
Boss sang me part of a song, tittled, Ruldoph The Red Nose Reindeer.
Then there was this kid with an incredible imagination and magnification of pain. I got so frustrated coaxing her to do scaling, she got away with a polishing and a referral to the pedodontist. The only good that came out from the session with her was, my nose stopped dripping for awhile. For she was seated high and 90% upright, such that i was standing infront of her and my head neednt bend down.
Must be due to the environment in the dental office, coupled with a lower immune system from lack of sleep. I'm considering whether to go for Functional Endoscopic Sinus Surgery after payment of my bond or not. I think it'd be a good investment. It really affects my work performance.
I dont need such episodes of running nose to tell me that health is wealth. I get the drift, Mother Nature.

To top everything off, my 2months old x-m!n! speakers are spoilt. :( I think there's a one year warranty.

Post work dinner and a get-together session with K&C was great, as usual. We had a good near 3hrs of heart to heart talk and exchange of hot juicy news. Didnt take photos for i was the red nose reign dear and C started tearing after some talk. The only cam whore was K, who wanted to capture C's baboon-ass crying face so she'll look prettier in the photo. Hahahaha. Ya la, my friend very strange.

The cab fare home was swift and $6! Skipped the midnight charge-happiness! And come 11th/12th of Novemeber, the 30cents diesel charge will be levied off.

Its Thursday, 1238pm now, and im suffering from inertia effect to go to work. Looking forward to dinner tonight with EB.
Oh yes, that man bought me 2 sports bra, in fashion fuchsia and maya blue, so that i'd be spared from wires while dining near his place. Or is it a hint that i need to start an exercise regime. Haha.

DS Lite&other parts finally sold. Yayyy yayyy!