While scaling..

I thought of how I want to sit the .3 diamond studs on my ears.

I shall open a trading account on 7th Nov 2008 (8th is a Sat) and purchase a 21st birthday gift for myself from the profits.

This day i pen.

"He who chooses the beginning of a road chooses the place it leads to. It is the means that determine the end."

Yesterday, i asked dad to buy C____ for me. He say wait, dont enter now, will drop.
Today, i stopped scaling and asked Dad to buy C____. He said, 'better not chase.' Fcuk. Its up .2 in few hours cannn! If i had tikam tikam bought 1 lot hit and run also shiok. Speculation-Yes i know. But isnt it a perfect example of how to make money without having money?! Then i told him the prices at closing. And guess what he said? "Too bad". Goddamnit things like that happen on Friday. Fcuk. Chance opportunities. Shiat!

Week 13 at a glance.
Mundane work life aside,
1) S____, my kawan from TP polyclinic, happily married (arranged!) and father of 2, hailing from I____ with a family car trading business, types(sms) strings of sentences without punctuation marks! Authentic examples:Bali was great good relaxation out of holiday mood I am writing my BCLS Exam now in between my paper i sms u see u have such a good friend who can reply 2u from exam hall so how was your week any plans for weekend. Or.. Sleepy after harday at work so 1st april fixed dont fool haha its april foolday.
Guess i have to get used to this. Or i can change him and the world, effectively, by teaching him how to use dictionary and punctuation functions. Or an eye for an eye (which makes the world blind)-reply in that form too!

2) Swam on Mon. My quadriceps and external abdominal oblique muscle are aching from the jog on Wed and Thurs! I wanna jog again on 30th!
Signed up for my 1st (and maybe last) marathon. Thou the shortest i ever heard of-5.6km, i have a long long way to go. As a form of encouragement and insurance to attend the run, I bought myself a race day shorts! :) Merely 20 participants from HPB.

3) I've grown weary of dd's excuses and texts. I wonder if dd stands for dear di*k, really.

4) I just level up my savoir-faire, thanks to demanding parents and the principaI who placed a ban on take-away packs.
Im not afraid of a complaint. I just find no sense in degrading myself by reasoning with them-they wont get it, anyway. At the end of the day, i can proudly tell myself, "i've set my heart to do what i can." On a happier note, because I was forced to dine at the canteen (in mythe very ugly uniform), i was able to exchange greetings, and even striked very successful conversations with the school staff! FKel'sI, female staff.

5) Super Moma claimed my /\/\C wasnt submitted when i clearly remember stapling it together with my leave form. Which idi0t submits Medical Leave forms without the Medical Cert right? Not me, for sure.
Then again, no case for argument. Just make a trip down and request for a letter/duplicate lor.
One day, the tigress in me will unfold-then all you folks are gonna get it bad. Just wait and see.

6) J*** has been extremely impressive arranging the date on Sat! I've never met anyone who looked(as much as i do.Haha) into plans, decisions and details. One applause.

7) Has always been my favourite number. It reminds me about going back to basics no matter what situation im in.

Retrolicious 2008 Photo Galore

Remember PSLE days where we'd be presented with a picture during oral? Its 10/30marks-if u dont recall, this 30marks makes up 15% of the overall grade! I've got a good one for practice. :) This picture depicts a scene at the ..


My collegue (part-time)-she's quite good looking eh! ;) Proud mother of 2 kids.

Han, the very motherly senior collegue whom i visit every Tuesday. Pastries and deserts are her bestest feat! I consume extra calories every Tuesday cause the chai fan at her school is uber nice!

Meet my pretty fuglian, Carmoh(left), who just left N.C.P.S not too long ago. And K\/\/an, with her stylo milo haircut! She visits Han on Mondays. :)

Chua(left), who showed me the ropes during a 1week attachment at the field clinic.

Tng my current cIinical supervis0r whom i dont know very well, cept a lil bout her f.kingrather wealthy family background-she's very humble thou. Sadly, both her sons are taken. HAHA.

My Seni0r /\/\anager Super Mama since Jan 08. Some of my amalga.mates call her Pooh Bear. Some replace bear with Boh. Guess her age! Right answer gets a tiramisu treat from moi!

And photos of Fugs who need no introduction here!

Ah-go-go girls

Subclique. Marilyn Monroe's wannabe.

Brokeback girls. Brokeup when Richard came into the picture


The 2 nosey parkers in my life.

All not possible without an uber creative crew. Kudos.

And our seniors added much laughs too!

Suggestive photos add lust at last.

Mystery Revealed

Over dinner, Dad was asking, what first inspired me to become wealthy? Is it the cares of this world, status, sense of security, etc. Then it got me thinking-Why was i worrying about the yo-yo stock market while everyone else was heading town for the latest fashion and coolest deals? Why am i trying so hard to complete books i never thought i'd touch? I want to become wealthy because i saw the immense financial freedom and security Mum lacked when her marriage were on the rocks, right up to divorce, and even after she rejoined the workforce. I read somewhere that an average Sg.ean wouldnt be able to survive >12 months without a monthly wage, and i suppose Mum falls straight into that category-no questions asked. I remember envying a secondary school friend of mine for she had everything she wanted. Or at least, that was how i perceived her to be. While students my age headed to the game arcade during the school vacation, I started working at 14, going to specific addresses conducting 15 min long surveys, outdoor sales and much more shit society throwed at me while doing part time jobs. I dont deny myself fun, late nights, countdowns and mischief, but the monetary issue involved came from another source. Looking back, i thought it as a great privilege. If mum and dad had given me anything and everything when i was a teenager, it would had killed my hunger and motivation to reach for what i really want. I must say that these money-pinchers taught me that nobody owed me a living. Yet, i dont want to struggle financially all my life despite working very hard. Why hasnt school taught me about money, how to make and manage money? I think money is the most important subject as we grow up, not the application of TOA CAH SOH principals. Then i sat myself down and asked, how to? Coincidentally, a friend lent me a book and it changed my mindset but i bounced back to a sluggish life soon after. Only then, i realised how stubborn the human mind is. I reckon we need to be constantly fed with mind challenging thoughts before we set heart to make change and influence our destiny. I want to invest time and effort in my financial education because I heard stories of how Dad lost an entire private property to the stock market. With it were all of Mum's savings and it brought much hurt, fear and resentment, right up till today. Its scary yet understandable why people commit suicide when the market is down. All my savings are in dire economic forecast, and i missed the tradegy just by a week. I suppose what sparked this post were the recent turmoils at home. Mum has been a biased parent since Kor ORDed from the army. On days he's home, she'll leave me alone to be with him. On days he's not, i'll get it good, left right up down centre. The thought of shifting out has been plaguing me. Yet i'm not financially secure with my measly pay packet and i love my sister too much to be away from home. That girl..

I thought this entry revealed too much about my personal life. But i've decided to post it up again. I want to remember how i feel this very moment. :)

My Creed

Jack was saying, how i live by my creed-being random.
How true!

Scheduled lunch appointment with HuipingCarrie turned out to be a bedlinen hunt. Finally an embroidered quilt cover and pillow case set-much love! Have always put off the idea for these things come with a hefty price tag. But since its HALF PRICED and triggered my spark plug to do my laundry, vacuum the floor and tidy the dressing table, why not!

Here's Carrie and I during our days at tertiary education. (Girl, you're lucky my com screwed up some time back, i lost our first year, Taipei and Genting Highland photographs!)

In the lecture class.


And during attachment donned in our really fugly uniform, thanks to MummySoh.
KaySiGi and Ping

Chubz (pout and say Choo.sb) and I! bliss.


Cam whoring cures pre presentation jitters.

Then we graduated.


Started work and attended the biennial Dinner&Dance.



Taken at IDEM 2006. Or is it 2007? AND IDEM 2008 IS COMING! Time literally zooms pass. Be volunteering on a Sat afternoon this year. God knows what shiat i'll be doing.. Hmm.


Then came another random spark. CWS's mummy whom i so fondly miss.
I have a thing for parents of those i love. I love them too. C\/\/S and i were on the rocks when we went for that trip. Thou he was sleeping beside me (and his mum), i felt much disgust when he nudged or tried to hug me, yet i was crying inside. We came back from that Thailand trip and broke up awhile after. \/\/X, his sister, told me how grateful aunty was for taking care of her, attending to her needs and talking to her. Well oh well. I miss her cooking. I miss her little acts of service. I miss her laugh. I miss her nagging at me for wasting money when i buy them snacks. I miss her.
Nope! No turning back!

"And it's just another story caught up in another photograph I found"

I can go on entertaining you with photos and little stories of my stodgy, tiresome life. But i've gotta overcome housework-inertia-effect so i can soon post you a photograph of my new quilt and pillow cover!

Ciao!

I dread shutting my eyes on Sat night unless it has been a colourful one. Sun's a long day.

Inserted 8.26pm

Oriental beauty and her sweet dreams. ;)

Jack.ass One

Lets call him. Jack.

How often do Black Swan opportunities come? I made the first move.

Twenty First Of March, Year Two Thousand And Eight
BaIiThai
I wasnt brought up to eat anything that's remotely spicy. Granny's curry was so mildly spicy(everyone else but me agreed) but still, i jumped when i ate it with roti. Growing up during teenage years, home cooked food was a rare deal and I tried converting my taste buds-not no avail.

I ordered a pot of Thai green curry (แกงเขียวหวาน). And ate more rice than i usually do to avoid hissing on the 1st meet up. Fragrant white rice was served out of a huge pot. Thai iced tea was out of stock and i settled for a humble cup of iced water.
Jack headed for a portion of MangoStickyRice. Over dinner, I felt awkard moments as he looked me with his dilated hazelnut irises-Overcame.

Jack accompanied me till Trace knocked off from work and reached T.M. They exchanged greetings before heading for his run and rejoined Trace and I at Starbucks. Jack, although had no intentions of hypnotising us with his 男人味, passed the checklist.

Dad, who was almost home, offered to send Trace and I home from Tampines.
That girl tried to strike conversations with Dad but failed terribly. He's a man of very very very few words.

Thats bout it on the 1st date. Brief.

I write because i want to remember. I write because i want to remember you.
Sometimes, there's so much i want to say, but words get in the way.

Henceforth

From this day forth on this tablet I remind myself.

1) Not to get into debts. Perks offered by credit cards come in handy, but i choose to opt for debit cards.
2) Not to be a prisoner to any loans. They have to be servicable.
3) Not to commit suicide nor resort to unscrupulous means in the event of bankruptcy declaration.
4) Not to finance an automobile with my pay packet. My investments buy and finance my car and extravagant life, if any. "A true luxury is a reward for investing in and developing a real asset."
5) I am now working for money BUT i will come to have money work for me.
6) To exercise at least twice a week.
7) To put effort in consuming 2 fruits + 2 vegetables daily. (uh huhh, Jack)
8) To go on one dive trip (at least) every year.
9) To constantly read books that challenge my mindset.
8) To stop buying perfumes till I've more or less finished using what i already have. Birkens+ock too! I need x more heels instead.
7) To take an incredibily long bath once a week whilst i ponder about happenings of that week, what i have done to help somebody else and how harsh i've been on myself.
6) To stand for preventive, minimal intervention dentistry and bonding technologies.
5) A penny saved is a penny earned-No cabbing to work because i want to laze on bed!
4) Anything can happen anywhere. Be open to meeting people!
3) How fortunate i am to have life slap me in the face when i was younger. Now i appreciate little acts and sees things on a broader perspective.
2) I want my relationships to work out. I wont end the day on a bad note. I wont walk away. I wont shut the door. I will put in my utmost effort to be a 小女人.
1) My current favourite homemade drink is a stick of 25% less sugar CappaR0ma mixed with 100ml of hot water with 250ml HL milk added to it. I like my McDonaIds' fries unsalted, sprinkled with pepper.

Dive Trip 1 Part II

From the photos, i know its 16th March cause.. the cotton clouds presented a fine day! Compared to gloomy grey skies and choppy waters on the 15th. And cause.. there's a costume change!

Very proud of her used and smeowly pink socks.

Ryan and his hand as a shield when the wind sent Halima's crowning glory all over his face. Jaime thought it depicts an after Ooo&Ahhhh(you-know-what) shot, with a cig lacking. Naughty girl!

They thought i resembled Jess, Ryan's ex gf. So i was called Jess during the entire trip Personality split is a good thing, so all unglamourous acts are not identified as a my true persona. *Winks.
They say sng-buay(sour plum) is bliss, i say aye.

What happens after Ryan tells a lame joke?

Dive 4 was most fruitful for we saw..
a 3legged sea turtle. :(

a blue spotted ray

and a futterfish!
Where: Malang Rock@1933hrs
Max Depth:16m

Dive 5's a leisure dive around several sunken-on-purpose ship wrecks. A pity i didnt quite enjoy this dive as much as the others thou i've finally adjusted the amount of weights i need and have more control over my buoyancy. The ship wrecks look similar but it was a great buoyancy practice. Afterall, nothing beats breathing compressed air! The most interesting find had to be a very thick and long sea cucumber. Oh yes, Thomas and I played chee-ko-pe underwater while hovering at the safety stop. My initial heartfelt cackle almost threw my regulator out of my mouth-thank god i bit on it!

The other divers had interesting finds, such as the
zebra sea snake

star fish

and barracudas.

Where: Marine Park
Max depth: 21m

Beady eyes and curly hair-Sensei Thomas

I think PADI stands for Put Another Dollar In cause diving's quite addictive. I've not put the idea of going again off. Its beats getting another tattoo isnt it, Jaki.

Dive Trip 1 Part I

When i was a little girl, say 5/6years old, we went on a family trip to Phuket. Water skiing and parachuting aside, I vividly remember being on a glass-bottom boat, fascinated by colours of the underwater world. More than a decade later, i find myself realising a remark i made when i was young-"i want to go down!"

14th March
Thanks to KM and team who prepared and loaded the dive equipment onto the bus, we headed for Woodlands Checkpoint at bout 1930hrs. After a record breaking wait of >2hours for the clearance of our 2 foreign group members (thanks to Mel's bf-insider's joke aka escaped JI member), uncle Heng the bus driver flaunted his "F1 racing skills".
With his sharp judgement and foresight, he was weaving in and out of traffic, conquering winding roads at what-seemed-like 90km/h and it's the best roller coaster ride i've ever taken. The best investment he could make for the comfort of his passengers is to input race seats!

We stopped by for supper and toilet break before heading to Sweet Hotel, near Mersing Jetty, to spend the night before our boat ride to Tioman which arrives at 6am. Oh yes, it was the 1st time i had Mee Soto and i must say it was a bad experience. Good presentation and smell aside, the tao-ghey was too raw, yellow mee is something i never fancied and the peanuts gave the meal too much crunch-Bad luck!

Someone possessing powers shown in The Matrix.

15th March 2008
0630hrs- 1hr boat ride from Mersing Jetty brought us to Paya Beach. It started pouring once we set foot on shore. Had breakfast (nasi lemak and teh)
and a toilet trip plagued with 6-legged blood sucking insects that costed me RM0.50.

We were housed in a kampong style wood based house with chilly water supply(albeit the malfunctional solar system) and a television that almost scared the shit out of me. 2 rooms that sleeps 8 were connected by a door. Other 2 guys, Peter the Management Consultant and Rico the Radiation Therapist certified from Down Under hailing from Hong Kong, shared a room somewhere else.

Thomas' PREGNANT! His wife, i mean.

2 smart ladies making utmost use of their beauty to be shielded from the rain.

Dive 1 presented an entirely different world down there. It has showed me to look at things in a new perspective.

Us girls looking fresh before taking our 1st leap

After so much difficulty descending, even with the help of Thomas, i surfaced after x minutes. :( One the bright side, we saw a pair of cuttlefish! Never knew they looked ugly =l
During lunch, i learnt that i should keep still and not struggle/fin down. It was a terrible feeling of uncertainty, with the regulator being my only source of survival.

Where: Renggis@1050hrs
Max depth: 11.8m.

My uber duper garang buddy

Jaime and i, and very voluptuous women in the background
Verified by Thomcatmas, whose status is marriedsingle once he crosses the checkpoint. "Well chested but.........."
Not one who keeps all good stuff to himself... They share the best things in life.

Returned to shore for lunch. And while waiting.. Daidee kept us occupied! Rico and i make the best tag team. While i throw cards, he goes around.. snapping photos! Haha! No larh, we didnt cheat-he's got good foresight!

Dive 2 has taught me to face my fears calmly and to appreciate simple things, like the beauty of nature. It was the best dive that day. Best dive = controlled bottom time-35mins!! Yayyy!! Brightly coloured fishes aside, there were countless evil looking sea urchins. Uh huh.. talk about the importance of buoyancy control..

Those things.. thats black in the centre with a white halo.. look like they're gonna... eat me when they grow huge.

Funny thing. The clown fish (Nemo) always excite me!

Where: Soyak@1513hrs
Max depth: 7.9m

Skills performed: Mask clear, retrieve regulator and alternate air source use. See Ryan's out of air!

Ryan has never failed to put a smile on our tired faces with his silly antics.

Peter, who's singing
Yo listen up, here's a story
About a little guy that lives in a blue world
And all day and all night and everything he sees
Is just blue like him inside and outside
Blue his house with a blue little window
And a blue Corvette and everything is blue for him
And his self and everybody around
'Cause he ain't got nobody to listen (to listen, to listen, to listen)

I'm blue, da ba dee da ba dai da ba dee da ba dai
Da ba dee da ba dai da ba dee da ba dai
Da ba dee da ba dai da ba dee da ba dai You get the drift? Haha!
He has been of great help during the trip, giving advices, helping when no one's looking, etc. One pizza with extra cheese for you dude! :) (So he'll have a great lao sai-tee hee hee)

Melissawho just met her b.f. /\/\.S. and Peter after unlocking a treasure chest

Left to right, Melissa the muslim-lookalike-pure-chinese, the thought-to-be-/\/\S' gf, HaIimah who should had done a back flip the very moment that photo was shot , Rico and Jaime the fair lady.

Dive 3's visibility was a murky one at 5m. Jaki and i surfaced earlier (not cause we wanted to, doh!), tried descending together but to no avail. So we ended up doing what woman ought to-bitch bout anything and everything. And went over to Jaime's for a good open water cam whoring session. "Girls"-i hear some of you say. See my kawaii pink fins and pink mask-KM's trying to morph me into a HelloKitty wannabe
Where: Tumuk@1729hrs
Max depth: 11.8m

Ryan as he tried to figure if he captured good shots of chicks.
No doubt he did! Look at that smirk!!

Then came dinner time.
While the rest made their sandy way back to the room, Jaime Ryan Thomas and I headed for ice cream! Or was i doing an advert for WalI's ice cream? Hmmm.
Like it wasnt chilly enough, Thomas crept behind me, sneakily placed his arms under mine. I laid back on his blubber chest, cause there was a never ending flow of TRUST between us. Ryan got hold of my legs, happily did a 3 momento swing and threw me into the shallow freezing pool.
Then might as well remove the wet suit since its much easier. ;) See we talk bout trust and wanting the best for me! (Not) I sat at the dining table shivering, teeth clatterring. Brrrr.

I wiped my plate clean because i dont want a moh-peng husband in future! Old wives tale aside, the food was belly yummy yummy!

The other table bought nuggets. Kawaii heart shaped ones camera worthy! Heart broken, more like.

That night, Thomas was telling us girls ghost stories but i can barely remember em. The King(Ryan) and a Queen(supposedly referring to his gf, Samantha) sized bed occupied diagonally. Now you know who not to share a bed with.

If u recall, i was talking bout a "television that almost scared the shit out of me." Here goes.. Not an early bird despite the long day, I was watching TV while the other 3 were already in dreamland. Then the channals kept switching. I decided to take a shut eye (and leave the tv flickering for the rest of the night). I wasnt exactly freaked out. At that moment, i just thought they might be promoting other channals. I thought i saw Sg's TV 8. In the morning, Thomas went "you know, for wasting electricity, you'll go to x.th level of hell." Hey buddy, "you shitting me?" It beats wetting the bed when im still on earth right!